i hate to be wrongly accused.
it pisses me off so bad and my blood is boiling now argh.

and shit twc and bgs midterms lahhhh no time to study and i still have fa homework to do.
seriously staying at home doesnt help me cause i just idle around.
then im like leaving the house in an hour for handball training then ive got ocip stuff later.
i think im going to be so pissed i'll be throwing the ball real hard.

ok whatever i cant think straight when im irritated.
going to go back to going through the twc slides argh and listen to jet (<3)
loving their new songs like she's a genius, black hearts, KIA.
kick ass album.

im watching the taiwan variety show i was watching last week HAHA.
its called da xue shen li mei.
wah i love the recent episodes, i absolutely agree with some of the things they say!
especially with the psychologist that has been on the recent episodes.

the psychologist said something in today's episode like how parents tell their children 'bei ai bi ai bie ren gen xing fu' (translation: being love is more fortunate then loving someone, WHICH IS WHAT MY MUM ALWAYS TELLS ME) and how that is actually WRONG.

hmph need to show my mum this cause i always disagree with her on that point.
i would never be with someone that i dont like, seriously.
there's no way two people can truly be happy unless there is mutual affection.
and you definitely cant win people over with money and 'si chan lan da' tactic cause you're just burdening the poor girl and you'll become the nightmare in her life.

and this episode is pretty funny cause you get to hear the girls' horror stories at being wooed.
some are pretty freaking i must say!

anyway ok shit i need to study for my twc mid terms ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
totally dont feel like man :(
i wonder why im still in such a heck care stage about exam while everyone is like super stressed out.
die :(

shall study for the next 3 hours before our handball friendly!
scareddd :x
but that makes me more driven to beat them HAHA.

and shit you opy your stupid song is stuck in my head.
oh oh oh oh my love my love my loveeee
:(

the past few days have been sleep depriving but funnnnnnn :D
and i totally find myself sleeping in classes already omg so fast!!

sunday met up with some class people at ps!
thai express lunch, the ugly truth movie (WAH LAO SO MUCH SEXUAL INNUENDO DAMN IT I SHOULD HAVE WATCHED THE PROPOSAL I LOVE SANDRA BULLOCK) and hilarious arcade games before going down to jin dao's place for mahjonggggg.
yangyang and shijing helped da bao chomp chomp for us and we enjoyed our hokkien mee, carrot cake, satay, chicken wing, sting ray, oyster omelette at jin dao's place before xbox and mahjong!!
wow first time playing soccer on xbox i think im not bad HAHAHAHA.
although i couldnt score a single goal but hey i did some awesome passes alright! HAHA
won like 2 bucks in mahjong HAHHAA.
jin dao the biggest loser! heh heh heh.
eh not bad man 2 bucks i never even take ok!
got a ride to serangoon mrt then took the longgggggggg train ride home and slept at like 2 plus wah lao ehhh.

monday morning i woke up feeling EXHAUSTED.
was totally sleeping the whole way in the car while my parents drove me to school for my morning project meeting.
meeting was draggy but yay we managed to get things done (:
went home where i proceeded to die on the bed before i found out training was cancelled!
but some of the handball people met up in cathay for some food + desert yummm (:
reached home at 11 plus, settled some presentation things and knocked out at 12 plus.
however i think i didnt sleep well cause i was worrying about our management communication presentation today HAHA.

today
i absolutely couldnt stay awake during intro stats i feel so bad cause i really like prof and he's really good but i kept falling asleep!
damn it tues mornings are always damn tiring :(
then had management comm and woohoo im so glad our presentation is over!!!!!!!!

spent some time in the library with desiree then met opy, qian and michelle lai and we went to relakkkk at treehouse.
oh man no ham & cheese baked pasta! :(
tried to study my twc, got through 1.5 chapters but ive got mid terms this sat! :(
played some bridge HAHAHA and totally slacked online before going to meet joan tay at city hall at 6.

had ding tai feng dinner, went blazer shopping (wah lao one blazer why so exxxxxx) before settling at jco donuts to sit back, relax and talk cock <3
absolutely loved catching up with you guys man, will miss you joan tay!
cant wait till you get back again :DDDDDD

freaking funny!!!!
muse went on some italian programme and cause they could not perform live (wth seriously muse plays live OK.) they decided to switch places and it became such a jokeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3<3
matt on drums, dom on bass and vocals and chris on keyboard and guitar!
hilarioussssssssss, love them :D



here's a proper kick ass one (:

ooh its 1.11am now hur hur.

reached home at 12 plus after sending jodie off at the airport!
to be honest i didnt expect to cry but burst into tears at the airport wah lao.
you all have been a really great bunch of classmates!
jodie we will really miss you omggggggggggg, it'll feel so odd without you when we meet up.
its been awesome meeting more these few weeks, like our september babies birthday celebrations, karaoke yesterday and today at the airport!
take care my friend :D

just finished some slides needed for my presentation next tues argh hate presentations.
but got to deal with it lah smu is full of presentations WAH LAO HAHA.

today i had make up fa class from 9-12 cause monday is a public holiday.
then rushed for project meeting.
then rushed for training.
then went to peninsula to settle some jerseys.
then went to makan at funan food court.
then went down to the airport to meet lois.
enjoyed some local delights at wang cafe HAHAHAH (eh the horlicks and chicken macaroni is nice!) while shun yee, michelle lai and denise leong joined us.

wow T3 was a congregation of 1990 students!
so many people flying off possibly even to the same country at the same time.
and tons of rj people HAHHA.

yesterday

was in school for twc project meeting, always slack and fun with my twc group yo!
did ocip stock taking which was a pain but somehow i find weird pleasure in sorting out things and recording them down :/ HAHAHA
then rushed over to meet denise leong, shun yee, jodie, lois, jasmin and michelle lai for some cheap karaoke at cuppage HAHAHA.
ok im sorry i was super not in the mood for karaoke, can you believe it?!
but it was still nice belting out english oldies/classics :D

then had dinner at meridien food court with michelle lai and lois.
miss the thai food there!!
i used to always eat there after my sun tuitions with fiona/jia jun omg old timesssssssss.
shared jumbo cup of peach yogurt + strawberries + granola which is like THE BEST COMBINATION EVER? :D

and through out both days there was always photobooth madness HAHAHA <3
tmr, shall meet some of my class people at dhoby area.
catch up with the army boys and catch a movie.
probably will end up eating shitloads too since they always become starving spendthrift animals when they book out.
I HAVE NOT WATCHED A MOVIE IN SO LONG.
wah lao its pathetic considering school is IN town :(

ok shit i need to get more sleep man!
daily dose of 5 hours sleep is REALLY not enough for me to function well and remain cheerful HAHA.

oh yes and if anyone is interested in buying chocolate/sweets from cocoa tree at below store price (VERY CHEAP CHEAP YO) to support my ocip's fund raising please let me know!
we have 16 types woohoo :D
any amount of help would be greatly appreciated!

got my hands on the new muse album this afternoon at holland village.
BETTER LATE THAN NEVER :D

to be honest, it didnt really give me a kick.
but then again black holes & revelations was not an instant favourite for me till the lives came along.
the lives are always awesome, muse keeps some tricks up their sleeves :D

watching their teignmouth gig on youtube now, AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME.
better hurry watch them before they get taken off.
and its great quality too i must say :D

they went back to their hometown to hold the gig and played some of their new songs.
just heard their a couple of new songs live, loved them man!
i can imagine uprising being a kick ass gig starter :D:D:D:D:D:D

MUST COME TO SINGAPORE AGAIN SOON OK.

im watching a variety show now and the topic is about guys who like girls who are 'zuo zuo' and 'you xin zi' (basically girls who are fake and full of acting bullshit) and how girls can see through them and hence do not like them.

well i agree HAHAHA.
although girls who do not resort to those moves probably will end up being viewed as 'unfriendly', 'not feminine', 'not cute' and plain not attractive, i refuse to be such a fake shit and rather remain unwanted forever HAHA.

i think like all my life, ive always wondered why some guys just cant see through some girls' true colours or why some of the awesome-est sweetest natural girls ive met remain unattached.
WASSUP MANNNNNNN HAHAHA.

but i guess if you're pretty, you can get away with anything.
some one sponsor me plastic surgery please HAHAHAHA.

ok shit ive got my pile of work waiting to be cleared but i have yet to get started on it ahhhhhhh.
but later i'll be going down to holland v to meet yiting!
OMG DEAR GIRL I MISS YOU SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <3
here's an example of a super awesome girl!
then later there's handball team dinner woohoo <3

shall try and squeeze in some fa hw while im with yiting heh heh heh.

feels pretty good to be home early.
come to think of it i really dont remember coming home straight after school.
SOMEHOW there will be training/meeting/just go out to eat.
and on days like monday and wed where i have school + training, i reach home like past 11 wah lao shag ah.

and gosh starting to feel the workload but i shall persevere to balance my mods, trainings, project meetings, ocip meetings and HOMEWORK.
HOMEWORK IS A PAIN IN THE ASS.
havent had to do homework in a longggggggggg time and now its here to haunt me :(

time to do project research and complete my damn bgs readings.
when will i ever catch up on my bgs readings!!! :(

i think im starting to feel stressed.
i feel stressed because its 4am and i just turned to my right and saw my bgs book sitting there with my highlighter still in between some pages in chapter 2 and i was supposed to finish the damn chapter like 2 hours ago.
but somehow unconsciously, my arm moved on its on accord and put the book aside and i got absorbed surfing the net ARGH.
and why the heck is the bgs textbook so thick, i need to read up to chapter 5 but im not even done with chapter 2!

ok im going to sleep :(

some people say time flies when you're having fun.
i beg to differ.
i think that time flies when you're trying to do your damn fa while being online, and then you realise you've only done two pathetic questions.

:(

i so wish i was there!!!!
i know i'll be jumping, singing, swinging my arms, sharing the balloons and enjoying the the atmosphere man <3
singapore needs summer music festivals like this.
and since its hot all the damn time here, we should have them all the time :DDDDDD
and we need people to be more willing about showing their enthusiasm yo!



omg what a fucking awesome intro.
i felt so touched then freaking excited HAHAHAHHAA.
but then i would totally endure the rain for remioromen too!
and when the bass kicked in i was like whoaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrhhhhh!
love lives love lives love lives <3

ok GOT TO STOP.
WHATS WRONG WITH ME.
i need to clear all my damn fa and bgs backlog arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

ahhhhhh omg i just went nuts and bought 1 dress, 1 top, 1 hoodie and 2 bangles withing like half an hours and the bill is going to total up to 90+ omggggggggggggggggggggggg.

I NEED TO GET RID OF THE OTHER STUFF I BOUGHT BUT ENDED UP NOT WEARING :( :(

but anyway came back from ccab handball training not long ago.
wah im very impressed and proud of all of us for doing 2 rounds warm up then proceeded to do 8 rounds interval, 2 mins each round.
of course during the 2nd last round i died i overshot by 30 seconds im sorry i suck :(

i remember last time during pe we used to run interval around our rectangular 300+++ metre track, 2 mins per round also but we used to dieeeeeeeeeeee HAHA.
miss the old times man <3
although i have to say uni is a new and I GUESS interesting experience that i think im getting used to unconsciously heh heh.

ok i shall do fa hw (OMG IM SO HARDWORKING WOOHOO) before i sleep.
got to be in school tmr at 10 for meetingggggggggggggggggg :(



very good goodnight song HAHA <3
ok must control myself and stop spamming videos heh heh :D

FAILEDDDDDDDDDDDD.
freakkkkkkkkkkk.
but acutally im sprouting all the vulgarities now.

damn sian you know cause i really thought i had a shot at passing this time.
cause somehow over the last lesson and the lesson i had just before the test, my driving showed miraculous improvement and i was like yea i may be able to pass!!!!

but then somehow during parallel parking i knock pole WTFFFFFFFFF.
everything else before that i do nice nice and only left parallel then i knock pole WTFFFFFFFFF.
and i seriously dont know why i reversed so much, damn damn damn damn stupid mistake.

and because i thought knock pole was an immediate failure i was damn sian during the rest of the test.
like damn zone out and heck care and just keep thinking 'wah lao fail already sibei sian wah lao fail already sibei sian'
BUT TURNS OUT KNOCK POLE IS NOT AN IMMEDIATE FAILURE?!
ok i didnt know that :(

so that led up to some very serious errors like change lane at bend 6 points and almost knocking down a cyclist 6 points HA.
ok its not funny but it was just so ridiculous how i was just zoning out while driving and failed to see this guy cycling across the zebra crossing arghhhhhhh.

but of course i had more errors like wide turn, veer off course, too slow for traffic condition, change lane aruptly and turn steering whilst vehicle is stationary but seriously arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

i want to pass so badly :(

im too sian to do any shit right now.
i cant be bothered to do fa/bgs like this :(

i dont even know if i fail like going for handball later anymore.
unless i use it as a chance to vent my frustrations, like THROW THE BALL FREAKING HARD :(
but there will probably be alot of running later so im kind of too sian to look forward to that :(

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((



good song to listen when you're feeling sian.
i feel SOMEWHAT better hur.
remioromen <3

oh man today is going to be wasteddddd.
omg i actually feel guilty for not doing any work today!
i guess cause work is piling up :(

woke up today at 2 plus, getting my much treasured 12 hours sleep to make up for my lack of sleep during the week.
and ive been slacking online for the next 2 hours and now ive got to go out to meet michelle lai they all :D

met up with qian on thurs! :D
cafe cartel lunch, 9.50 for soup, free flow bread, main course, desert and drink WORTH IT.
went massive bra shopping HAHA.
cause john little was having a cardmember's sale and wonderful qian ahd the card woohooo.
we spent like 1-2 hours there i swear.
ended up getting 3 sets of underwear, and the total price was ONLY 31.68 WTHHHHH CHEAPPPPPPPPP HAHAHAA.
and they came in all these lovely colours and i wanted to buy more colours but no size :(
only sizes for big boobs left :(

then rushed down to meet yihui in school, htht <3

then it was off for drivingggggggg.
wah lao it was a record long 2.5 hours lesson HAHAHA.

fri was fa project meeting that frieddddddddd my brain.
fa is so bad thank goodness im not in accountancy.
i take back whatever i said about wanting to me in accountancy HAHA.

then it was independent new me killing time at the library yo!
then at like 6 i got abit restless so i decided to go ps myself :D
bought fang da dong's cd and had dinner before i realised i was going to be late for my namaste meeting so i chiongedddddddddddddddd back to school HAHA.

very grateful for being selected for the ocip and i wonder if i am going to be overloaded this term, but i will give my best and hopefully namaste is going to turn out great for all of us :D
im in the logistics team, sai kang warriors woohoo :D
and im also a medic omg ive got to go spend 3 days on a first aid course, QIAN LEND ME YOUR CERT HAHA.
then ive also got to settle the menu, ehhhh i wonder what should we eat :/
i have to admit i feel quite lost cause this is my first ocip but shall give my 200% :D

sat was driving in the morning.
MORNING DRIVINGS LESSONS ARE BIG NONOS :(
then it was off for handball training but i felt reallyyyyyyyyy dead dont know why goshhhhh :(
then it was home to get ready for jodie's farewell dinner at firestation hillside gastrobar.
GREAT AMBIENCE i would loveeeee to go back there another time <3
but i need to scrimp and save before i can do so HAHAHA.
the food is too ex for a bunch of school kids man!
and with the alcohol that we ordered ystd, my wallet was totally emptied there :(
but i think its possible to have a 20+ meal there lah (:

ok gtg to city hall now bye! :D

ALL GEARED UP.
sept 14 <3

super in love with square big bucket now.
love his music!
totally melts my heart <333333333333333333
IM GOING TO BUY HIS CD.



omg primary school song!
ive loved this song since young man.
what wonderful lyrics <3

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

i have abnormally cold feet and hands :(
i swear the ends of my body get cold super super super easily, some massage guy once told me i have bad blood circulation.
sucks real bad cause my feet are cold like 24/7 i think :(
when im in school, airconnnnnn.
when im at home at night, airconnnnnnn.
my feet really never gets to thaw :(

OK ANYWAY, RANDOM ISSUE ASIDE.
school yea ok whatever, i think its pretty easy to get of get wrapped up in school.
not in a super stressed way but uni just requires this min level of consistent effort so somehow you're spending that little bit of your time everyday doing something related to school.
but its still at a level that i can cope with so yay (:
quizzes, graded assignments and projects are all increasing in volume but i guess school has still remained pretty fun for me (:
still able to go eat/slack around before/between/after lessons and try out the diff ccas and see what interesting activities are going on around campus (:

and gosh im like on the laptop 24/7.
in school use laptop, at home use laptop, omg i swear its going to die on me real soon HAHAHA.

super in love with this mv and this song right now.
but bloody baidu wont let me kope it heh heh.
so sweetttttttttttttt <3

give me courage.
so that i will be able to do the things i truly want to do without giving a shit about anything else.
so that i will be able to conquer my fear of being judged or criticised.
so that i will be able to be myself anywhere anytime and with anyone.

mraz is therapeutic i tell you HAHA.

i would like to credit yihui for some fantastic words:

it's nice to be with good people
because you can be whoever you are and have fun around them without being judged
<3

TOTALLY AGREE :D

had freshmen bash last night/this morning and although i have to admit that i was not thoroughly satisfied cause i guess i was still quite energetic but it was a blast <3

FA group meeting tmr and after that i'll probably go for some talk/meeting.
so many things going on tmr: bondue fondue (which i totally dont feel like going anymore so im going to waste my 8 bucks), gourmet club meeting, barworkz meeting, recreational gaming meeting, cambodia ocip meeting.
all going on tmr at around 3.30 sian :(

i just realised i can think about something for so damn long.
i remain so bothered by something until i feel like im going crazy.
regret really kills me, this terrible feeling fills me up so full and i feel like i cant take it anymore.
and sometimes over the smallest littlest seemingly insignificant things.
sigh and thus i am worrywart wanyin.



listening to this right now while trying to complete my FA case study which is like totally gibberish to me, cant understand a shit its trying to say dieeee :(

i just spent like the last few hours crying over youtube videos HAHAHAHA.
my bloody FA book is wet oops.
ok whatever but i really like watching xin guang da dao, there are some great singers in there man.
and they pick the awesome-est songs :D
started off by watching ni shi wo de yan sang by the original singer who is blind damn damn damn damn touching.

and during the recent episodes of xin guang da dao 5 there is this american guy who is here to like pk them and DAMN HE SINGS SO WELL.
i cried when he sang ni shi wo de yan omg damnnnnnnnnn touching.

johnnychan898
GO WATCH HIS VIDEOS OMG.

yay second week of school is overrrrrrrr!
actually i think it feels pretty good to have a 3 day week even though im taking 5 mods and the projects are piling up.

ANYWAY.

monday was FA where i struggled so damn hard to stay awake and i was mega confused by the content.
sorry prof i tried!!
then went to sis treehouse which is like my new favourite place in smu with yihui and zihao (:
twc was quite dry but quite interesting lah!
then it was off with yihui to explore substation before having dinner at timbre.
we went into this like art exhibition HAHAH DAMN INTERESTING :D
reached home at like 12 sian damn tired :(

tuesday was intro stats and management comm which passed really quickly actually!
then went to 'study' with yihui HAHAHA.
at first we found a gsr that was empty and wah damn shiok ah aircon, blast laptop music and read FA but then turns out people booked it and we had to leave :(
in the end we went to some table outside the library where i proceeded to fall asleep on my FA book HAHAHAHA.

then had dinner at koufu before going for netball clinic!
it was fun and the seniors were real nice (:
but i think i'm more interested in handball :x

thank goodness my parents fetched me back from kallang netball centre, big thank you <3
then proceeded to get hooked onto this new japanese drama called otomen HAHAHA.
shit lah the first 3 episodes just came out and i finished damn too fast and now i have to watch for like eternity for the next episode :(
yesyes its another one of those funny sweet teenage based on the manga japanese dramas HAHAHA.
if you like mei chan no shitsuji/hana kimi you'll surely like otomen HEH.

i would say wednesday was the day i found direction.
bgs was enjoyable!
cause class is super relaxed and prof is so nice can.
prof even plays nice music during break! <3
finally presented out debate so woohoo its over!!!!!
and debate damn relax lah just sit at our chair and talk.

had dinner at koufu where i realised wow the world is so small sometimes HAHA.
went for project namaste talk, I WANT TO GO SO BADLY!!!!!!!!
ok i admit i didnt find out much about the other ocips but after hearing from a member's personal experience last year i want to go so so so so badly.
although i totally crapped for my form cause my mind blanked out but i hope they give me a chance!

then ran over to admin building for handball HAHA.
ok embarassed myself to the max but im used to it HAHA.
i always freak out when im nervous and make the stupidest mistakes argh.
then i get damn wtf wtf wtf why did i do thatttttttt :(

i just hope everyone forgets whatever they saw HAHAHA.
cause i think im serious about handball and im going to join it!
i suck but i want to learn it :D

so if all goes well, i would have handball and namaste to focus on :D

sian driving this afternoon again.
i swear my instructor hates me.
im so freaking hopeless at the circuit.
i dont even feel like showing my face anymore for lessons or even taking the damn test :(

on a happier note, met up with the class yesterday!
miss our tong xiao mahjong so much!
and of course i miss my whole class in general, its so damn comfortable with them and i feel like i dont have to worry a shit about anything else.
went down to jin dao's house after my handball clinic which was quite fun i think im going to join handball HAHA.
so more than 12 hours of mahjong + delicious home-cooked dinner kindly provided by jin dao's family + xbox + wii was very enjoyable :DDDDDDDDDDDD
left at like 6 plus in the morning and cabbed home.
walking along the quiet misty road at some part of serangoon in the nice cool weather gave me a strange sort of peace, loved it man!
although the super bloody loud bullfrogs in the longkang opposite the road grossed me out so bad.


sian now i feel so demoralised i dont even feel like doing no shit.
but ive got financial accounting homework due tmr to dooooooooo :(
just feel like lying on my bed and rotttttttt while spamming videos that im not going to really absorb.

well goodbye!
and i dont know why but i really like this picture :/

hello!

yesterday i was pretty traumatised when i closed my eyes to try and get some sleep and all i saw were hordes of zombies, tanks, smokers, boomers and hunters not good not good :(
met joan tay yesterday for lunch at xin wang!
we always freaking go there omg HAHAHA.
then qian and opy came and it was l4d till 9 HAHA.
then it was more xin wang for late dinner, stuffed ourselves silly followed by silly games <3<3<3

today it was vivace in school which is like our cca fair, damn crowded man!
walked back and forth and back and forth and put my names for loads of things but obviously not going to join us.
i'm still pretty stubborn on only taking 1 cca but i may change my mind and have 2, the second one being in super inactive mode.
put my name down for like floorball, handball, barworks, gourmet club, netball, wakeboarding, smux for more info on one-off activities, women's connection.
think thats it!

then it was off for my bgs project meeting but omg went to the wrong venue siannnnnnnnnnnn.
rushed from econs building to business building only to realise they were at econs building OH MY GOD.
then while i was rushing out of business building i slipped on the way down the escalator HAHAHHA.
gosh :(
brain blanked out during meeting DIE.

then it was off to meet leon gim and guan min :D
we were happily enjoying ourselves out of school at cathay there when i realised i was supposed to meet my faci to take freshmen bash tickets!!!
screamed in shock then proceeded to rush back to econs building sian :/

then it was off to cine in hopes of getting a good timing for the movie orphan but FAILED.
damn it just cause its a friday people are willing to watch whatever and everything is selling fast :(
ended up watching the house on the left.
its those of murdering thrillers, i would say its not bad lah!
its meant to be one of those yet another horror movie but i think it was pretty good at it yo.
i really loved the song during the credits!
but turns out i dont know what its called wah lao trying to find nowwwwww :(
we stayed till like the end of the credits just to find out the song title but i think we didnt wait long enough, we left after seeing a few and we thought that was it :(
ok actually not sure if it was the end but we wait so damn long anyway!
we were like the only ones left, i think the cleaners were already done cleaning HAHA.
then we had our takopachi and teh c peng before going off :D

tmr shall go for handball clinic, sigh im usually very bad at this trying new stuff thing but i shall try my best!
check it out and see how its like :D
then its off to jin dao's house to meet t26 <333333333333333333333

SIGHHHHH.
I AM GOING TO FAIL MY DRIVING.
just came back from my driving lesson.
first time driving at night.
first time i got a different instructor.
first time i was taught new instructions and procedures i never heard before from my previous instructor.
OH MY GOD.
first time went into BBDC circuit.
turn wrong lane, knock down pole while doing the ram SHIT and my SAI parking die die die.

on another note, however not a happier one, i learnt that it was impossible to bring your laptop PLUS books to school because you will just break your arm seriously.
freaking heavy man :(
so now books shall be kept at home FOREVER (ok maybe not) while i only bring my laptop to school :D

today i experienced my 5th and last mod for the term: business goverment and society (bgs)
loved it!
my prof is awesome yay for nice profs and the content is interesting lah though it reminds me of human geog.
but we were thrown into project mode real fast, ive got a debate to prepare for next week ahhhhh.
i shall have my first taste of project work reallllllllll soon.

then rushedddddddd home for driving, gobbled down char siew sio ba rice and rusheddddd back to gombak mrt for driving :(
and wah lao first time having 2 hr lesson too, SIAN.

yesterday had intro stats and management comm.
love my intro stats prof he teaches intro stats so clearly and tries to make it interesting (:
management comm made me freaking nervous cause im so bad at oral presentation really but i know its going to be a useful course (:

then met yihui to go funan for some fooddddddd and check out laptop sleeves.
proceeded to lug all our crap and attempt to find sim lim square on foot.
dropped by bras basar popular where i decided to just buy their damn laptop sleeve, for 12.90 only i must add!!
and in a very in-your-face colour, a mix between neon pink and red HAHAHAHA.
but thats going to help me identify my laptop and spot it if i dropped it somewhere.
by then it was 7 and popular was closing and we rushed back to funan to get yihui's damn laptop sleeve.
JUST IN TIME before the store closed woohoo.
then slacked at macs for mcflurries (the oreo and cornetto one) and htht till 9 plus <3
TOOK THE TRAIN HOME ARGH, WHAT PAIN MY FOREARMS HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING DURING THE PAST DAYS.

but alas, wednesdays are my fridays and tmr no school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shall be meeting qian, opy and joan tay before meeting the class <3<3<3

adios!

first day of school was... tiring HAHA.

wah lao lesson from 8.30 to 11.45 then lesson from 3.30 to 6.45 plus i slept for like 4 hours so i was DAMN SLEEPY HAHAHA.
but i think my profs are very nice and funny so im happy with my monday classes :D

had dinner at pasta mania and bought all my books today, OH MY HOLY SHIT.
FREAKING FREAKING HEAVY.
ITS THE HEAVIEST CRAP IVE EVER CARRIED HOME.
stuffed my 5 fat books + my file into 2 flimsy plastic bags and lugged them home sigh it was really quite bad.
my fingers feel very raw HAHA.

and omg i feel damn studious im reading through my financial accounting now!! :DDDDD
reading through chap 1 cause i had not even bought the book yet and neither did i bring my laptop so i was just sitting there and absorbing info using brain power (which is how failure)

yay omg this is quite a good start to uni life!
of MGMT and FA woohoo :D
luckily today twc was slack and interesting + no homework yayyyyyyy.
intro stats and management comm tmr also like nothing so yayyyyyyyy dont have to do anything.

can go play my hard boiled eggs on miniclip later HAHAHAHA LOVE THAT GAME.
just aim and throw eggs at enemies HAHA.

i realised im someone that really treasures a sense of security.
which is something that disappears as you change your environment and surroundings.
as i enter smu i dont feel a sense of belonging or dont really know where to go or who to turn to when im in need of comfort or direction.
i think smu has this warped up mix of independence and gang mentality.
ok but then again i wonder if its just the same everywhere else so i ought to not look at smu so harshly.
10 years in scgs was so safe and comfortable that entering cj was tough for me at first but it was such a comforting feeling watching things unravel and work out and at the end of my cj life, i can look back and say wow that was such an awesome time in cj :D
i really hope my smu life will be like that too.

yes yes to end of this weird emo-ness (HAHAHA), here's my ALL TIME FAVOURITE POEM.
i remember someone showed it to me in sec 3, was it tina neoh? HAHA.
LOVE HER LIT LESSONS OK.
although her eng lessons are you know :x

A.S.J. Tessimond - Day Dream

One day people will touch and talk perhaps
easily,
And loving be natural as breathing and warm as
sunlight,
And people will untie themselves, as string is unknotted,
Unfold and yawn and stretch and spread their fingers,
Unfurl, uncurl like seaweed returned to the sea,
And work will be simple and swift
as a seagull flying,
And play will be casual and quiet
as a seagull settling,
And the clocks will stop, and no one will wonder
or care or notice,
And people will smile without reason,
Even in winter, even in the rain.

hello!

wathching a s league game on channel 5 now HAHA.
gosh damn boring no online drama to watch so i resorted to surfing through the tv channels.
and i came across albirex niigata vs sengkang punggol :D
i actually enjoy watching soccer matches alot even though i cant play the sport for nuts HAHA.
and of course there's incentive cause albirex niigata is a japanese team HUR HUR HUR.
i actually want to go watch a s league match!!!
turns out gombak united is like second team on the s league table or something?
maybe i should just take a walk to gombak stadium and watch their match there :DDDDDD

ive been losing track of the days and before i know it, school is about to start real soon.
ive got my wake up call tmr: convocation at suntec convention :((((((
maybe its cause ive not really gotten on a good start so im not quite looking forward to the start of my smu life.
i can only hope that with time, things work out smoothly for all of us (:
and of course i SERIOUSLY need to start school next monday with optimism, WHY AM I SO EMO OMG?!

yesterday
met qian in town for lunch at wisma food republic plus shopping for convecation and work clothes for me and qian (:
then went down to michelle lai's house for some delicioussssssssssss and quirky home-cooked food by chef lai :D




convocation tmr sian must wake up early and stand on the train in heels!
ive never stood on the train with heels on before thats going to be a challenge :(

its 2.03am, im wide awake, randomly surfing the net while putting MGMT's time to pretend, electric feel and pieces of what on repeat :/

randomly surfing the net is BAD.
cause it tends to result in me shopping online.
and im going through the same frustration about 32 inch dresses.
DAMN 32 INCH DRESSES.
i just came across so many pretty 32 inch dresses and one super gorgeous one only cause 20 bucks i want to just buy it!!!!!\

OK ANYWAY.
yesterday was national day.
caught like the first half an hour of the parade, it was surprisingly interesting!
probably one of the best parades over the past few years (:
but then i had to stop watching halfway to go meet qian at westmall.

that woman always fails when she takes public transport to my house.
ok i have to admit bukit batok is ulu but she always gets off the wrong stop! HAHAHA.
then it was dinner at westmall and walking around my favourite heartland mall <3
left at 9 plus and came over to my place.
OOPS WE DIDNT SAY THE PLEDGE AT 8.22.
i think during that time we were still eating at koufu, no one said either lah! :(

then hours passed while qian and i were being retarded then opy came over after her ndp!
da baoed for us prata woohoo yay we were starving :(
then htht and alot of random crap before they knocked out.
this is bad, i seriously dont feel sleepy early enough.
its screwing up my sleep pattern :(
woke up past noon, just nice for checking of boss outcome HAHAHA.

FREAK OPY AND I WERE HIGHEST BIDDERS FOR G15 MAN COMM :((((((((((((
damn heart pain seriously sigh sigh sigh.
we were even contemplating dropping and rebidding at a lower price HAHA.

they left in the late afternoon and ive been lazing around at home since then HA.
tmr meeting michelle lai!!! <33333
been so long since ive seen you friend, ive been busy with camps while you've been exploring foreign land :(

ok shall go back and admire the dress i feel like buying HAHA.

konichiwa (:

friday was beneficiary visit at bethesda at bedok.
super tiring cause primary school boys are a handful but enjoyed it very much especially with the girls (:
however doing community service with children always makes me think about the limits that i ought to have.
on one hand you want to be as sincere as possible and just blend in with the children but on the other hand i have to hold myself back so that there wont be any emotional attachment.
thats why usually in the beginning i'll just lose myself with the children but somewhere towards the end i'll be jerked back to reality and i have to realise that there is still a limit.

went to city hall after that with yihui for dinner at xin wang TAIWAN cafe HAHAHA.
ok lah the food is not bad but the drinks are very good!!!!
htht then walked around marina square to try and get some shopping done while the shops were going to close.
spent a long time at muji HAHAHA LOVE THAT PLACEEEEEEEEE.
if i had the money i would buy so many things there!
tried to look out for covered black low heels for my convocation but as of always, im such a picky shoe buyer and i tend to only like one particular style of heels anyway: velvet black peeptoes
I SHALL GAMBATTEH AND GET MYSELF A PAIR OF DAMN HEELS.

saturday morning i went for the smu floorball clinic.
WOW SO MANY PRO PEOPLE.
i am scared to join HAHAA.
shall try out handball and softball first!
stayed back to play more floorball with the other girls and left for lunch at raffles city mos burger with two new made friends (:
rushed home at 3 plus to hurry bathe and take a train down to bugis for ftb group gathering.

PEOPLE WERE LATE HA NOTHING UNUSUAL THERE.
went to minds!
ordered like every snack item on the menu HAHA.
loveeeeeeeee minds/settlers/whatever game cafe there is out there!
cause food and childish games are such a good match :D
had a blast with my group <3

left minds at like 10 in search of more food to consume.
chinese desert stalls were packed, tom's palette was closing and so it was off to starbucks (:
had an educational l4d talk with edmund HAHAHA then took the train home at 11 plus wah lao damn tired.
my body is aching?!?!?!
sigh its been too long since ive played anything remotely similar to floorball/hockey :(

well and nothing much to watch online anymore, most of the dramas i was excitedly following have come to an end: mr brain, majo saiban and boss (kind of like it)
but i came across a relatively new drama a couple of weeks ago!
only 2 episodes are out omg how slow :(
orthros no inu
Ryuzaki Shinji who possesses a “God Hand”, the power to heal wounds and illnesses just by touching the patient, is in fact a dark introvert who does not reveal his true self to others. Aoi Ryosuke who possesses the “Demon’s Hand”, the power to kill a person just by touching him, is as kind and pure as an angel.

so far its getting more and more interesting and gosh so many new developments <3<3
i think the japanese are pretty good at making mysteries/suspense shows so im always willing to try them out (:
i remember kindaichi was an ultimate favourite (be it drama, anime or manga) when i was young, although it scared the shit out of me HAHAHA.
but i was willing to get freaked out cause i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee the mysteries and how kindaichi will be able to solve them based on his awesome deduction skills <3

ok anyway adios!
will be catching up with qian and opy later yay :D

wow although last min i found out i was in block B instead of block A and bidding is SIBEI SIAN, super glad its settled :D
or at least hope it is!
hope i didnt make any mistakes in the bidding and i get the mods :D

big thank you again to yihui who is always there to calm me down and help me whenever im frantic HAHA.
in fact this week has been practically yihui week.

met her for tea/dinner at vivo on tuesday.
pacific coffee company is like my favourite hang out place in singapore!! :DDDDD
walked and talked and ate so much before we knew it the shops were closing and we were rushing around the shops to check out the items before the shops closed.
bought my work skirt for convocation!
in fact i think G2000 is like my new favourite shop to check out, there's some pretty nice stuff there actually!

then on wed went down to school for the academic briefing :/
damn it i think uni is a pain in the ass!
then went down to yihui's house, thanks for the dinner :D
checked out some bidding things over at her place and surfed the net hur hur.
big thank you to parents who came down to fetch me cause yihui's house is really freaking ulu if you want to travel by public transport :(

came home and did so much research and discussing about bidding i was about to go crazy!!!
and its been dragging on for too much, damn sian and tiring :(
today was also reserved for bidding matters at home sian.
but of course when it got too much for me i binged and watched shows HAHAHA.

well tmr shall be cip beneficiary visit yay yay yay!
hope it'll be a meaningful cute time with the kids, goodnight :D

and to end of with a pretty picture cause ive been koping more pretty arty photos off the net, crediting them here!

hello got back from bondue camp yesterday :D
had pre-camp dinner the day before at MOF (super delicious food omg i must go back) and it was off to bondue!

it was pretty fun really :D
the games were good, reminded me of cj orientation HAHA.
all those retarded games where we get so damn dirty that we end up throwing away clothes and underwear.
first day of bondue camp was spammed with such games and even though i had to throw a shirt and bra, i had a blast :D
after second round of dinner at this chicken rice place near city hall mrt, we had to watche the movie shutter.
luckily i watched it already but still scary HAHA.

then had fright night, WHO THE HECK TOLD ME BONDUE HAD NO FRIGHT NIGHT :(, where i ended up crying HAHAHA.
ok yes super hum ji kia here!
i was really scared and i tried to hide it by keeping quiet and calming down before we had to go for it but after the stupid introductory video about rosa the murdering maid and putting my blindfolds on i just couldnt control myself and started crying!
and the first room freaked me out so bad wah lao eh so they pulled me out for the second and third room but i went back for the fourth room :x

second day was like amazing race and omg this is like the first time during a camp that my team has actually chionged, and it was damn fun!
and we reached first!!!
but after counting in the scores and everything we dropped to second place, but still got prizes :D

then of course drinking night and the last day we broke camp at like noon wah damn early lah!
had lunch at si mian fuo then took a bus home, wah totally knocked out on the bus.
im pretty proud of myself for taking public transport home after every camp actually!
or actually im just stingy lah dont want to cab home too much HEH.

still a little bit unsettled and feels weird spending time at home but i need to treasure this before school starts!
actually ive got quite abit of free time cause nus people are starting school damn early on the 3rd so time to spend my weekdays resting at home (:
NEED TO RECOVER FROM MY SORE THROAT.
i always lose my voice abit after every camp HAHA.

HI.

yesterday

met joan tay and qian.
lunch at shokudo, set with soup pasta drink and ice cream YUMYUM.
public enemies, DIDNT LIKE IT VERY DISAPPOINTED :(
didnt like the music arrangement, didnt like the way it was filmed and didnt like the dialogue :(
xing wang hongkong cafe dinner HAHA.
left4dead <3333333333333333333333
left at 10 plus and took the train home with joan tay.

today

met jasmin wong, denise leong and lois.
ion fish and co lunch
stopped by irritating make up artist who tried to sell us make up for like an hour.
walked around taka and wisma till like 6.
been so long since ive took shitload of pictures HAHA

met yiting for dinner at taka and harry potter.
met qian and farhani!
the movie was quite nice what!
ron cracked me up so bad during the movie, draco malfoy was looking good, effects were so fantastic, dialogue was funny and witty and for someone who didnt read the 6th book, i liked the movie :D



WOW EVERYONE LOOKS SO GORGEOUS CAN.
well roughly everyone lah.
tom felton omg! and the girls omg!
its the era of glamorous child stars!

OK BYE.

wah i dont even talk about how i spent my birthday anymore.
my mood just dropped to a low after finding out about the people in smu business.
wah suay like shit you know i hate smu business i want to get out of it even before im in it :(

well anyway my birthday was spent doing smu cip at jurong point.
met jin dao and yihui early at jurong then our balloon sculpturing preparation started at around 10.
wah damn tiring HAHA.
spent hours making the balloon sculptures till like 6 in the morning.
thank you to the seniors for getting this delicious sara lee strawberry cheesecake pie/cake and singing happy birthday for me and this other girl at midnight :D
had macs breakfast with my team then yihui and jeannie came our to my place to sleep.
wah it was a bloody struggle getting home man was damndamndamn tired :(
we got like 1.5 hours sleep then got up again to go back to jurong point for our event where we stood for hours until our feet ached like shit.
but it was very nice seeing the public so attracted to our sculptures and tons of people came to take photos and buy balloons.
the profession balloon sculpturers damn xin ku lah make balloons non stop for like 8 hours!
but damn cool lah they made all these miniatures monkeys, giraffes, princess, ninja turtle?!?!, ariel the mermaid, bears, REALLY CUTE snakes, dogs, ladybugs etc!
really didnt know you could make such things with balloons, super interesting :D

left at 6 and went down to meet fiona at bugis.
totally konked out on the train HAHA.
had dinner at noodles empire at illuma, shopped around bugis junction then went for desert at tom palette at shaw tower.
SUPER YUMMY ICE CREAM, somewhat similar to island creamery's.
thanks to fiona for bringing me there after reading about it in the papers :D
left bugis at like 11 plus and was superrrrrrrrrr exhausted omg.







reached home, settled some stuff online and proceeded to die on the bed HAHA.
woke up at like 3 plus this afternoon WOOHOO SHIOK and went to ikea with my family <3
love these rare family outings of ours, simple but makes me feel so happy to spend time with my mum and dad.
and we always eat good food heh!



ultra mega shit picture of me but whatever love my dad <3
my mum doesnt like taking pictures, that shy old woman HAHA

konichiwa.
past few days have been tiring!

fund raising from 11-9 on monday and tues at woodlands and jurong.
but during the times im free, ive been watching this new korean drama that i came across.
gosh how damn long has it been since i last watched a korean drama HAHAHA.
but this time im watching a korean law drama called partner with lee dong wook inside heh heh heh.
but surprisingly its quite nice and funny lah, i actually managed to survive through 5 episodes so should be able to finish the whole drama without feeling too irritated.
luckily only 16 episodes!

yesterday

left home early at like 10 plus to meet leon gim!!! :D
went from bugis to orchard central to ion.
YOU KNOW ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I WENT TOWN FOR LEISURE :(
sigh and of course ive not been to orchard central and ion :x
went to eat at boteju or something at orchard central.
wow expensive but delicioussssssssss.
had the pork omu soba :D:D:D
but the food there like all damn ex leh :(

then went to ion and explored the place, its a really well planned place actually.
they have it linked up to the mrt, wheelock and have accesible and convenient entrances.
bought shoes from rubi which is basically cotton on opening a shop selling only their shoes and accesories.
had dunkin donuts and marvellous cream too yummmmm.
but damn freaking full after that lah.
will go back solely for the purpose of eating all the food at the B4 food hall!!!!
so many japanese snacks there <3







then at 4 plus went down to marina barrage for a blackjack section outing heh heh heh.
ice breaker, frissbee, snacks AND TONS OF CAMWHORING.
wow thanks to sherlyn and robert who have those like pro cameras and were our photographers for the day :D:D
then left to go city hall.
the group split first so that one group gets a table first and the other group wait for our friend to join us but after that I LEAD THEM TO THE WRONG TIMBRE IM SO SORRY FRIENDS :(
brought them to the art house one cause i didnt realise they were at the substation one.
MY BAD MY BAD.
so that was alot of time and energy wasted but we still had a good time :D
was so anticipating good fellas but they came on at like 11?!
gosh and some of the people had to leave so we only heard like ONE SONG.
WHAT A WASTE OH MY GOD.
but at least now i know good fellas play at the substation timbre on thurs and at the arthouse timbre on fridays.
IM GOING TO GO LISTEN TO THEM FOR ONE FULL SET ONCE AND FOR ALL!!
but the crowd yesteday was pretty blehhh god knows why really they are so awesome.
i remember the time we heard them at milestone at the arthouse everyone was singing, jumping and cheering man that was real awesome :DDDDDD

thank you sook xian for pei-ing me to the bus stop instead of taking bus elsewhere heh heh :DDDD
reached home at like 12 plus feeling TOTALLY WIPED OUT.
wah lao eh been out since 10 plus in the morning walk here walk there :(

but its ok i had a good 12 hours sleep yay!!
later tonight theres the stayover cip event at jurong point argh no sleep for us :(
then tmr night meeting fiona for dinner :D

ja ne heh heh!

hello actually i got back from sports camp on saturday but didnt feel like blogging :/
sports camp was not bad lah, tried alot of sports!
and realised im interested in softball/floorball/tennis :D
besides the sports camp's itinery quite alot of interesting things also happened within those 4 days from rochor tau huay which is always awesome, sleeping on seminar floor which turns out to be very comfy, renting a mini van, going into old changi hospital THREE TIMES WAH LAO EH, hong cha long yan from changi vilage hawker centre yum and there was of course the drinking games on the last night.
luckily i never lose much heh heh if not i would have to drink until i turn into those siao langs in the middle of the room dancing and falling off tables.
so camp finished at like 7 and i went home for dinner and went online then knocked off at liek 11 plus.
then i had a glorious dreamless 14 hours sleep which i have not had in freaking long and it felt awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :DDDDDDD

then had a family dinner at some hotel for my grandma's birthday <3
nice to see we cousins talking more and more cause the younger ones and growing up and we have more things in common to talk about :D
and gosh so many of my younger cousins are going to grow up looking really pretty/handsome, proud of them man!

then on tues after career services, met yihui and we two starving people hurry made our way to raffles city mos burger.
and accesorize's half price sale is here!!!!
but it was freaking crowded so i barely looked, i'll try and go back another time but like not free lah wah lao.
seems like there's quite alot of sale going on but ive not gone shopping in ages!!!! :(
i can only buy online from home HAHA.

ok time for me to get ready and go for my cip fund raising AHHHHH.
shit man like 10 hours of fund raising!!

what i left incomplete as a draft last night:

wow its 12.37 and im trying to get this damn game downloaded into my old laptop so that i can clock in some hours in it with joan tay before i catch some sleep and go to smu tmr.
my inner geek always displays itself when im with joan tay HAHAHA.
gosh i remember the days in sec 2/3, which is like FIVE years ago omgggggggggg, where we used to like read books and manga together and spam anime HAHAHA.
gosh those were the days and we always play arcade together!
wow we always have these phases where we are damn freaking into a game and we spam money just trying to complete it HAHA.
i remember the time when we were damn into the capcom joss stick game where you must maneuver your plane and shoot the enemy aircrafts while collecting like power up tokens.
freaking funny man we used to play such silly games too <3

good morning:

wow i basically sucked at the game that i was playing with joan tay HAHAHA.
and it caused me to sleep at like 3 plus sigh i need to recharge before sports camp!!!!!
the only game i think i ever truly played was maplestory which was eons ago omg but at least i knew how to play it and everything HAHA.
but oh well i shall tackle the game again after i come back from my sports camp which ends on sat!

and omg all my jap dramas are taking damn long to update so i've just been youtubeing mystery jets and xing guang da dao 5 these few days HEH HEH HEH.
i love chinese singing competitions you know!
not really sure why but i guess it makes me happy when they sing all these oldies and im like OHHHHHH YEAYEAYEA I KNOW THIS SONG WHEN I WAS IN LIKE PRI SCHOOL!
and its always nice to listen to good singers eh :D

then on sunday

went down to lois's church with michelle lai and shun yee to support lois in her performance.
wow very nice!
i have to say her church gave one of the clearest most considerate message to the public about christianity.
i have to admit that i still dont believe but i always just patronise and go.
but please dont expect to convert me!
then went for botak jones supper woohoo.
WE WERE STUFFED.
wah lao eh we were like spamming fries at 11pm i think my stomach was going to just die on me HAHA.
then we all got a free ride home from lois's dad, thanks so much <3


ok got to hurry get ready to go smu, AGAIN.
some career services orientation but dont think its the fun kind HAHA.
alright adios amigos heh :D

i just turned on the radio and heard the english version of wonder girl's nobody on 98.7.
i was like HOLY SHIT WHAT THE HELL.
i was considerably disturbed and annoyed actually HAHA.
yes i know the song is catchy and all wonderful but the song came out like a year ago and it already created an immense craze in korean, whats up with making such a big deal of it now gosh.
and it was all over ftb too sigh.

ANYWAY

so basically thursday was spent waking up pretty early and going down to simei at 2 for cip related matters.
had dinner after that with yihui at eastpoint, walked around and managed to come across the hairband that i lost in the cinema with qian so i was super happy and immediately bought it and got some yummy mango ice kimo.
which is basically the same concept as the flavoured shaved ice from heeren and equally delicious and in small individual portions <3

friday
met to get tons of sleep and wake up late but my biological clock decided to start sounding its alarm at like 11 in the morning sigh.
stayed at home and basically just spammed the internet before heading out to meet jodie and michelle lai for dinner.
but turns out it was some early birthday surprise thing for me and they ended up coming over to my place and making wantons?!?! HAHHAHAA MICHELLE LAI AND HER RETARDED IDEAS.
cause they wont be in singapore during my birthday and ive got smu cip stuff on my birthday too anyway.
they were all prepared with the dough and ingredients however we still had to do some major finish up before we could actually eat the damn wantons which was like 10pm.
they like sang songs and read silly poems all the in name of trying to celebrate my birthday for me and i appreciate it so very much <3
walked them off at 11 plus and like just knocked out when i reached home.






today

woke up early at like 7 plus for breakfast with my parents then my facial.
took bus home myself and took a detour walking around westmall, which is like my ultimate favourite alone time activity heh, and buying some stuff for my camps.
turns out i forgot all about my driving at 12 plus while i was home spamming mystery jets who are my current repeat-on-ipod band.
i think their evolution is worth anticipating cause they are still young and their latest album is way awesome really <3

blaine harrison, the awesomest frontman with spina bifida(its a type of disability).
a bonus would be his gorgeous face behind his CURRENTLY edward scizzorhand hair HAHA but still awesome.
damn it i missed them when they came to singapore in jan/feb this year.
TICKETS WERE ONLY LIKE 40 BUCKS ARGH.
really need to start looking out at what bands zouk brings into singapore :(

then went down to simei again at 3 for another cip related training.
had dinner with yihui again at eastpoint heh heh <3
left at around 9 and took the long train ride home, hope i didnt drool while sleeping or something HA.

last night while talking to yihui over dinner, it dawned on me that i really regret the decision for putting business first choice in smu.
it was because of a misconception that i came to know of that made me rush my smu application and put business first choice then accountancy second choice, WHICH IS PLAIN STUPID REALLY CAUSE ACCOUNTANCY IS HARDER TO GET INTO.
well its not like it is guaranteed that if i were to put accountancy first choice i would even get in but accountancy is definitely something that i would prefer doing but i did not have sufficient info early enough to come to that decision.

sigh but now im stuck in business, well just have to cope with it :/

off to meet michelle lai and jodie for dinner!

hello!
actually got back from freshmen teambuilding camp (ftb) yesterday at like 5pm but then i had to rush out for my sports camp pre-camp dinner.
damn shiok lah from east coast obs got shuttle bus to like jurong, smu, bedok, amk.

wow ok i must say i appreciated the camp much more after it ended!
although we missed out on the more exciting activities like rafting and high elements cause it rained like EVERYDAY AROUND LUNCH TIME but omg i miss my team so muchhhhhhh.
we may not be the loudest or whatever but we work so awesome-ly (doubt there's such a word HAHAHA) together omg and definitely ftb is slightly different from other orientation camps cause it sincerely wishes to teach you alot of important values that we'll definitely need in smu.
i feel so lucky to have met this bunch of people and have them as my teammates <3
always so supportive, encouraging and never complained during all the tough challenges that required alot of sacrifice from each member and omg the final challenge along east coast area really tested our physical strength but we pulled through as a team yo <3
TRY RUNNING WITH YOURS HANDS LINKED ITS FREAKING DIFFICULT.
running by yourself with your group is totally fine but try having 12 people and linking up and running you'll realise like WHY THE HELL IS IT SO TOUGH?!
and we had to do that between all the stations omg heh.
but actually i think everyone from ftb run 1 were very friendly, helpful, encouraging and damn good at cheering!!
i actually feel lucky that i chose run 1 instead of the rest <3
maybe at first we were all abit shy shy to cheer but wah lao eh towards the end we were cheering like crazy and just dancing around and forming those long trains and just running around the whole place singing damn fun!
i think i sound like a very sexy man now :D

campfire was also damn damn fun and high <3
and the smu performances from the samba club and some martial arts club were damn nice.
wah everyone got damn high and dancing around during the samba performance HAHA.
and when music was playing everyone was also singing and clapping around <3

i think even though there was a lack of fun orientation games but instead through more challenging activities and a different style of approach, ftb was really memorable for me and really made me look forward to smu life! :D

then went for my sports camp pre-camp dinner and i was abit stunned cause like sudden change of atmosphere and people within one day.
but i shall keep an open mind and continue bringing my enthusiasism to sports camp and hopefully it'll be as good as ftb :D

and hope our national day fireworks + espionage bash plans will materialise <3
and need to catch up on more sleep and drink more redoxon so that i wont fall sick man cause like july is just packed with my 2 remaining sports and business camp + my cip event.
and on weekends also must catch up with people so like everyday ive got a triangle on my july calendar in my phone sigh.
i feel abit like im in a dream cause im just always on the move and experiencing new things and never really get the chance to settle down and soak it all it.
but yea well quite looking forward to school i guess, dont really know what to expect really!

last night i was just randomly flicking through the tv channels cause saturdays has the most boring shows of the week when i came across the japan video music awards 2009 on mtv china HAHA.
i was trying to get videos of the award show a few weeks back but to no avail so i was like damndamndamn excited when i came across it half an hour into the show.
so i sat patiently through some of the bad moments of the award show: insane japanese rockers, high pitched screaming female presenters and awkward moments between foreign performers and japanese hosts and finally remioromen came on!!!!!!!!!!
they were the second last performers, just before the the black eyed peas.
they performed sakura <3

the graphics were super gorgeous i must say <3
we seem to have similar tastes when it comes to colour and design schemes
but anyway the crowd was awesome really i so wish i was there!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and gosh the lyrics just came pouring out of my mouth without me realising cause i normally suck at foreign languages i cant seem to remember the lyrics.
but the lyrics are so sweet so i guess it left a deep impression on me.
i would say the best performances that night were remioromen, katy perry and black eyed peas.
they got the crowd absolutely high, clapping and waving away, which is what japanese audiences always do.
they have synchronised sideway waving, clapping and like back and forward arm movements in the air or something.
ok sorry im very bad at describing :x
but it makes me feel so happy when i see them do that cause i think its a very polite way of expressing that the crowd enjoys the music.
but they only do it during upbeat music and during ballads they will listen quietly and maybe sing along and only clap at the end.

just came across the video clip of their vma performance on youtube!
gosh its damn hard to find japanese things on youtube cause they have fewer foreigner followers as compared to the korean industry or something.
all the japanese videos are in japanese so its damn hard :(

but damn it embedding has been disabled so i cant put it up here for my enjoyment :(

the other day when i was with qian i also dropped by heeren hmv to find the remioroment compilation album that ive been looking for but couldnt find at the citylink mall branch.
when i saw the cover i was like AHHHHHHHHH SINGAPORE ACTUALLY HAS IT OMG! <3
and then i saw the price and it was 81 bucks.
WTH SERIOUSLY :(
damn it i hate it when its imported from japan so its more expensive and there isnt going to be an asian version cause remioromen does not have that level of international popularity :(

ok gosh i must stop HAHA.

thanks to stumbleupon toolbar which qian told me about ages ago but i only got it like half an hour ago cause im totally BORED and running out of things to do online.
turns out that in a natural smile, people's eyes become 'squished'.
now no wonder everytime i thought i gave a good genuine smile in the photos, they all turn out like i blinked or you just see a line as my eyes.
damn it why am i destined to a miserable fate of small eyes :(

on another hand, what awesome artwork (:






and earth at night <3


wow and i think its really awesome how ive liked every single website that stumbleupon has brought me to so far based on the few categories i expressed interest in.
they are really able to pretty much understand my interests and capture my attention and gain my support.
i remember learning this in gp, how creepy yet impressive.

i realised im someone who is really afraid of loss.
cant handle it at all.
even with i guess insignificant things such as the contacts in my phone or losing my wallet, i remember i couldnt deal with these things when i was younger.
i believe im slightly better now but i know ive never been good at letting go of things and moving on.
i just wallow in misery actually HAHA.
i believe im not the type of psycho girls who cant let go then go all stalker but im the type that would just keep it to myself and just be miserable all day every day or something :/

just imagining what if i were to lose my parents, i think i would just go insane.
i cant imagine such a thing and i know i cant even handle such a thought.
its absolutely terrifying, i just dont have that courage.

anyway,
exhausted from today, been out from 8 plus in the morning till 9 plus at night.
had my smu cip event bonding day together from 8 plus to 1 plus (:
then went to ps with yihui and some of my group mates then went to cine to meet qian.
transformers!
i can believe i managed to slip into moments of blissful unconsciousness during the movie HAHA.
amidst all the gunshots and explosions i cant believe i managed to sleep.
the SUPER COMFORTABLE cine theatre chairs definitely was one of the factores.
although i can like hear everything but when i close my eyes wow i felt so comfortable and relaxed.
but i woke up after like 5 mins lah HAHA.
i was like 'wake up you dumbass why are you sleeping during transformers?!'
ok lah the movie was not bad but the first movie was DEFINITELY better.
at least they were not selling megan fox's body so blatantly.
but one thing that i think the second movie did better was the actions scenes between the robots which were clearer and had more screentime.
IT WAS SO COOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
and when optimas prime like 'upgraded' i was like 'WAH DAMN COOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL' heh.
HAHAHA oh my gosh i sound so like some machinery fan.

and damn it i left my hairband in the cinema.
WHY AM I ALWAYS LOSING HAIRBANDS/HAIRTIES/CLIPS ETC.
really sick of losing all my hair accesories sigh.
then went around town during some shopping that we had to do and before we know it it was like going to be 8 and we told our family we would be home for dinner.
went to run some errands on my own in westmall and reached home at 9 plus feeling totally wiped out.

and yesterday met cherlyn and fiona for timbre.
pizza was good, chicken wings couldnt go wrong and the music was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think they were called acoustic trip, SO DAMN AWESOME and yet they went unappreciated and that really pissed me off.
but they knew i was always listening and clapping for them so i hope it made them feel slightly better.
a huge bunch of drunk middle aged crazy ang mohs definitely didnt make things better and they even took over the stage from them and wrecked havoc.
such assholes seriously.
then went to have cherlyn's birthday cake at the old parliament house and took pictures at the steps HAHAHA.
left at around 11 and took a bus home.
ended up sleeping at like 1 plus, woke up at 2 plus suddenly, had trouble sleeping and woke up at 7.
I WAS TOTALLY ZOMBIE-FIED.
but i still dragged myself down to smu.
had to slap myself a couple of times to bring me back to earth.

my weekend shall be spent recharging then its off for 3 day freshman teambuilding camp on monday then more cip days right after i get back.
GAMBATTE HEH.

there's the saying 'opposites attract'.
but i've come to believe that thats bullshit.
i think that people are definitely more suited for each other when they have similarities, be it similaries in beliefs, interests, tastes and style etc.
i wonder if there is really someone out there that is like me and we can live our lives together happily, supporting each other wholeheartedly because we believe in the same things.
how depressing :/
but i shall be waiting patiently.

A smiling face, a crying face,
a show of courage, a show of power,
the fact is that I love you.

aww.

today, went to smu again this time for library training.
wah lao eh i was late so i was running from city hall mrt all the way to li ka shing library and up to the 5th floor where the training was held.
i was like all gross and sweaty when i opened the door and training had already started sigh how embarassing.
and you know that disgusting feeling after you ran around and settle down in a cold area and you're really hot and sweaty.
i was like the only one moving frantically and wiping my sweat while everyone was just calm and comfortable.

the training ended at 4 plus then went to meet qian at ps.
got 3 more fbts cause i need new ones plus my 3 day ftb camp actually requires 5 pairs of shorts omg.
walked around spotlight then joan tay joined us and we had dinner at xin wang.
wah lao i was damn not hungry yet i went to order spicy pork dice rice i was so insane i only order that when im starving.
ended up dabaoing then went to sing karaoke.
wow spammage of old chinese hokkien canto songs and really lame songs thanks to qian HAHA.
left at 11 plus and took the bus home, had a nice nap on it heh.
need to rest more and gear up for the camps.

tmr, meeting fiona and cherlyn for timbre.
and back to watching remioromen's recent concert in tokyo <333333333333