im abandoning econs and im not in the mood to study for my test tmr.
i just feel like going to sleep :(

i think im suffering from mild depression

symptoms:
Low mood.
Poor appetite or overeating.
Trouble falling asleep and staying asleep or sleeping too much.
Low energy or fatigue.
Low self-esteem.
Poor concentration.
Difficulty making decisions.
Feelings of guilt.
Hopelessness.
Anger and hostility.
Feeling blue and tearful at times.
Irritability.

i know how it feels to be a friend of someone with mild depression and i know it sucks shitttttttt.
and im sorry :(
its just this miserable phase ive been going through these few months.

but ive been taking my 'medication'

yesterday i had my dose of joan tay.
ponned training for her and left school right after i was dismissed and went to her place.
<3<3

and today i had my dose of michelle lai.
thank you for the smses and the calls.
met her for dinner at coro then ice cream at swirls at crown centre.
i made her slow down when we were approaching a big screen at a restaurant cause they were playing the liverpool vs chelsea match (FERNANDO TORRES :D)
but i didnt manage to see the hottest guy on earth :(
i was reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy screwed up today and i was so damn miserable during the whole damn day but thanks so much michelle lai.
i really forget all my troubles when im with my sc friends <3

reached home at like 9.
spent the past hour bathing, printing my econs project and eating dinner so i like have not studied at alllllllllll.
and the lecture test is on the WHOLE market structure?!
omgomgomg
oh well i really want to sleep instead (SIGN OF MILD DEPRESSION ARGH) HAHA
so i will, and cram tmr (:

and i think im also suffering from schizophrenia.
i have so many different feelings, attitudes and behaviours among different groups of people.
i lost my ability to talk, laugh and joke with everyone.
i dont even laugh and joke anymore.

ok stop it.
i need this depression gone, NOW.
its making life a living hell :(