Wednesday, January 27, 2010
wow im on a roll.
i feel like i can always turn to this place to organise and pen down my thoughts.
although yes all of you my friends can see this but essentially, its for me to also come back and read through my thoughts during those specific moments.
to recall, to remind, to keep in my heart and cement my values.
i just did like this personality test thing yesterday.
yea ok some of you may say personality test? WAH DAMN DUMB SIA.
but well i like such things and i do try to learn and understand more about myself through such simple tests.
some more extreme values i got during the test were:
low assertiveness
high level of trust in others
high level of modesty
low self-efficacy
high dutifulness
low achievement-striving
low self-discipline
high level of cautiousness
high anxiety
high anger (HAHAHAH YES BEWARE)
high level of vulnerability (like shit high, 96/100)
low imagination
low artistic interests
high level of emotionality
low adventurousness
low intellect (WOW IM A DUMBO)
low liberism
ok wow talk about extremes.
i guess ive got more highs and lows than averages.
i guess we're all looking around for support, for reassurance, for comfort, for companionship, for love.
but i cant help feeling like when you finally receive after searching, you realise that you may not even know what to do with it and you dont know how to show true, sincere and utmost appreciation for it.
im learning (:
edit:
ZOMG I JUST CAME ACROSS THE CUTEST THING.
cause like picasa and blogger worked together such tht you have like a web album of alllllll the pictures youve ever put up on your blog.
and since this blog has successfully been with me since secondary school, although i only started putting up pictures in like jc, its such a wonderful feeling looking back at all the pictures ive put up.
btw ive put up MORE THAN 800 PICTURES OMGGGGGGGGGGG.
and im pretty sure quite a few are precious ones that i didnt even put on fb.
damn shocked by the number, didnt know ive put up so many along the way.
i must have been very free HAHAHAHA.
memories <3<3<3
i feel like i can always turn to this place to organise and pen down my thoughts.
although yes all of you my friends can see this but essentially, its for me to also come back and read through my thoughts during those specific moments.
to recall, to remind, to keep in my heart and cement my values.
i just did like this personality test thing yesterday.
yea ok some of you may say personality test? WAH DAMN DUMB SIA.
but well i like such things and i do try to learn and understand more about myself through such simple tests.
some more extreme values i got during the test were:
low assertiveness
high level of trust in others
high level of modesty
low self-efficacy
high dutifulness
low achievement-striving
low self-discipline
high level of cautiousness
high anxiety
high anger (HAHAHAH YES BEWARE)
high level of vulnerability (like shit high, 96/100)
low imagination
low artistic interests
high level of emotionality
low adventurousness
low intellect (WOW IM A DUMBO)
low liberism
ok wow talk about extremes.
i guess ive got more highs and lows than averages.
i guess we're all looking around for support, for reassurance, for comfort, for companionship, for love.
but i cant help feeling like when you finally receive after searching, you realise that you may not even know what to do with it and you dont know how to show true, sincere and utmost appreciation for it.
im learning (:
edit:
ZOMG I JUST CAME ACROSS THE CUTEST THING.
cause like picasa and blogger worked together such tht you have like a web album of alllllll the pictures youve ever put up on your blog.
and since this blog has successfully been with me since secondary school, although i only started putting up pictures in like jc, its such a wonderful feeling looking back at all the pictures ive put up.
btw ive put up MORE THAN 800 PICTURES OMGGGGGGGGGGG.
and im pretty sure quite a few are precious ones that i didnt even put on fb.
damn shocked by the number, didnt know ive put up so many along the way.
i must have been very free HAHAHAHA.
memories <3<3<3
Monday, January 25, 2010
ive been slipping in and out of consciousness for the past 1.5 hours here in the library.
with my biz law book laid out in front of me, still at the same page, with my itunes replaying the list of songs i just recently added (breathe, slow dancing in a burning room, cry me out and two is better than one), i feel like i dont belong here in the library and perhaps ive been escaping by sleeping.
the days have been passing by quickly, so much has happened but yet i feel like theres so much more that could be done but yet i cant put my finger on what im missing out on.
and of course it doesnt help that school work is accumulating and i just feel like ignoring it.
fast yet slow, happy yet sad(ok not like freaking sad just feeling unfulfilled during some moments), present in school but absorbing nothing, life is full of contradictions.
i guess we're all capable of feeling a ton of things at the same time.
but in the midst of all this, i still feel a sense of peace when im with you.
with my biz law book laid out in front of me, still at the same page, with my itunes replaying the list of songs i just recently added (breathe, slow dancing in a burning room, cry me out and two is better than one), i feel like i dont belong here in the library and perhaps ive been escaping by sleeping.
the days have been passing by quickly, so much has happened but yet i feel like theres so much more that could be done but yet i cant put my finger on what im missing out on.
and of course it doesnt help that school work is accumulating and i just feel like ignoring it.
fast yet slow, happy yet sad(ok not like freaking sad just feeling unfulfilled during some moments), present in school but absorbing nothing, life is full of contradictions.
i guess we're all capable of feeling a ton of things at the same time.
but in the midst of all this, i still feel a sense of peace when im with you.
i was just browsing through blogshops, trying to find some nice clothes to buy cause i SEVERELY LACK CLOTHES FOR SCHOOL HAHAHA.
so i was at loveandbravery.blogspot.com (they have some pretty nice clothes sometimes btw) when like the blog name just hit me.
i mean like ive never really bothered about their blog name, always thought it was abit lame.
but i mean love and bravery are two very important things that can push you through your entire life.
i would like to have both!
ive always been a cowardly person HAHAA.
anyway last night i ended up watching lovestorymedia again, i remember the first wedding video of theirs was shown to me like a couple of months back.
i already thought it was such a mega awesome video, the part where like this tear just slides down the bride's cheeks GETS ME EVERYTIME HAHAHAA.
after spamming like 10 wedding videos last night, this is still my favourite.
great song, great wedding, great video <3
makes you want to get married doesnt it!
AHEM QIAN DOESNT THIS LOOK NICE AHAHHAA.
ive always held marriage in high regard, always wanted to marry early and be happy but i guess over the years everyone's concept of marriage starts to morph.
i guess now im abit afraid to look to the future towards marriage, but of course its still a top priority in my life.
if not qian im going to hold you to the promise of the two of us knitting in our rocking chairs in a big house HAHAHA.
btw ive also been going through all the videos to also check out all the wedding dresses.
i love looking at wedding dresses and thinking what would be a nice one for myself years down the road HAHAHA.
im trying to avoid strapless cause after going through 2 proms with a strapless dress ive suffered and learnt well HAHAHA.
ok anyway im just reluctant to do work, acting free and very bored HAHAHA.
past few days have been pretty revolved around school SO BLEH YOU KNOW.
but of course im still happy (:
also got to catch up with yuslina and yiting on sat!
went for supermassive 2.0 (cj rock gig thing) at home club with them which was pretty awesome!
great music, great company and slightly aching legs after that HAHA.
then we managed to find out way to lau pa sat for some good food yummmmmmmm.
took a train to city hall to check out chijmes for abit before taking a bus home FROM YMCA AKA SCHOOL.
so silly how im always in/around school EVERYDAY.
EVERY SINGLE DAY ZOMG.
ok yes im actually typing this in school now cause im trying to ignore my biz law book that is like just next to me HAHA.
time to go meet shreeya for lunch! :D
so i was at loveandbravery.blogspot.com (they have some pretty nice clothes sometimes btw) when like the blog name just hit me.
i mean like ive never really bothered about their blog name, always thought it was abit lame.
but i mean love and bravery are two very important things that can push you through your entire life.
i would like to have both!
ive always been a cowardly person HAHAA.
anyway last night i ended up watching lovestorymedia again, i remember the first wedding video of theirs was shown to me like a couple of months back.
i already thought it was such a mega awesome video, the part where like this tear just slides down the bride's cheeks GETS ME EVERYTIME HAHAHAA.
Diana ♥ Binh \ Nov 21 2009 \ Highlights from Love Story Media on Vimeo.
after spamming like 10 wedding videos last night, this is still my favourite.
great song, great wedding, great video <3
makes you want to get married doesnt it!
AHEM QIAN DOESNT THIS LOOK NICE AHAHHAA.
ive always held marriage in high regard, always wanted to marry early and be happy but i guess over the years everyone's concept of marriage starts to morph.
i guess now im abit afraid to look to the future towards marriage, but of course its still a top priority in my life.
if not qian im going to hold you to the promise of the two of us knitting in our rocking chairs in a big house HAHAHA.
btw ive also been going through all the videos to also check out all the wedding dresses.
i love looking at wedding dresses and thinking what would be a nice one for myself years down the road HAHAHA.
im trying to avoid strapless cause after going through 2 proms with a strapless dress ive suffered and learnt well HAHAHA.
ok anyway im just reluctant to do work, acting free and very bored HAHAHA.
past few days have been pretty revolved around school SO BLEH YOU KNOW.
but of course im still happy (:
also got to catch up with yuslina and yiting on sat!
went for supermassive 2.0 (cj rock gig thing) at home club with them which was pretty awesome!
great music, great company and slightly aching legs after that HAHA.
then we managed to find out way to lau pa sat for some good food yummmmmmmm.
took a train to city hall to check out chijmes for abit before taking a bus home FROM YMCA AKA SCHOOL.
so silly how im always in/around school EVERYDAY.
EVERY SINGLE DAY ZOMG.
ok yes im actually typing this in school now cause im trying to ignore my biz law book that is like just next to me HAHA.
time to go meet shreeya for lunch! :D
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
wowz its been practically a week since i last blogged!
lets see what has happened,
ltb meeting, intro econs, 99cents sushi at cathay, twin towers of sushi plates, cheryl's birthday present <3, new york i love you (hmmmm very deep HAHAHA.), tau huay, l4d2, macs, cab, ct presentation produced in 20 mins, ubc talk, running around the school, ubc application :D, yihui <3, timbre, clarke quay starbucks, walkwwalkwalkwalkclarkequayboatquayesplanade, paris jetaime, fullerton, cab, grandma's house, adam road food centre, serene macs, island creamery, bench <3, cab, qian <3, ionfareastshopcuthairtalktalktalktalk, school work, 77, KO on bed, AS, pomo curry chicken rice + shaved ice, econs gsr.
i remember back in secondary school when i did lit, tina neo taught us about how the sentence structure of the poem could represent what the poet is trying to convey.
the length of the sentences, the punctuations, the bolding and italics all meant something.
i remember there was a period of time when i really enjoyed lit, of course that was just a short period cause i also remember the majority other times when i complain about lit non-stop HAHAHA.
school's a bitch but shall look forward to summer (:
lets see what has happened,
ltb meeting, intro econs, 99cents sushi at cathay, twin towers of sushi plates, cheryl's birthday present <3, new york i love you (hmmmm very deep HAHAHA.), tau huay, l4d2, macs, cab, ct presentation produced in 20 mins, ubc talk, running around the school, ubc application :D, yihui <3, timbre, clarke quay starbucks, walkwwalkwalkwalkclarkequayboatquayesplanade, paris jetaime, fullerton, cab, grandma's house, adam road food centre, serene macs, island creamery, bench <3, cab, qian <3, ionfareastshopcuthairtalktalktalktalk, school work, 77, KO on bed, AS, pomo curry chicken rice + shaved ice, econs gsr.
i remember back in secondary school when i did lit, tina neo taught us about how the sentence structure of the poem could represent what the poet is trying to convey.
the length of the sentences, the punctuations, the bolding and italics all meant something.
i remember there was a period of time when i really enjoyed lit, of course that was just a short period cause i also remember the majority other times when i complain about lit non-stop HAHAHA.
school's a bitch but shall look forward to summer (:
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
im reading my business law textbook for the first time.
and im only at page 1 of chapter 7.
GG LAH.
i had it easy with fa man! :(
friday:
ct, like EW.
LIKE REALLY VERY EW.
yihui <3
thank you for always being there for me, listening to me, comforting me and being such an important friend in my life <3
+ denise leong + shreeya + screme mushroom pasta + sofa + taptap = <3
takaaaaaaaa, bought a new laptop case cause yes my current one is quite cui and my mum keeps nagging at me to change it.
delinquents at the stairs :D
long train ride home using the red line instead of the green line zzzzz
saturday:
training.
toa payoh with desiree and cynthia :D
bugis for a gathering with old friends, arab street amirah restaurant!
love the feeling of catching up with old friends and realising that you all can stll get along and talk (:
city hall, bukit timah (island creamery closeddddddd :(), xin wang till 1am shiok, walk talk walk talk walk talk about anything and everything, kap at 4am. :DDDDDDD
home sweet home <3
big thank you to mummy who was still awake :x
today:
michelle lai <3
exploration of jelita :D
i think ive burned quite abit of calories walking yesterday and today!!
now:
BACK TO BIZ LAW.
:(
and im only at page 1 of chapter 7.
GG LAH.
i had it easy with fa man! :(
friday:
ct, like EW.
LIKE REALLY VERY EW.
yihui <3
thank you for always being there for me, listening to me, comforting me and being such an important friend in my life <3
+ denise leong + shreeya + screme mushroom pasta + sofa + taptap = <3
takaaaaaaaa, bought a new laptop case cause yes my current one is quite cui and my mum keeps nagging at me to change it.
delinquents at the stairs :D
long train ride home using the red line instead of the green line zzzzz
saturday:
training.
toa payoh with desiree and cynthia :D
bugis for a gathering with old friends, arab street amirah restaurant!
love the feeling of catching up with old friends and realising that you all can stll get along and talk (:
city hall, bukit timah (island creamery closeddddddd :(), xin wang till 1am shiok, walk talk walk talk walk talk about anything and everything, kap at 4am. :DDDDDDD
home sweet home <3
big thank you to mummy who was still awake :x
today:
michelle lai <3
exploration of jelita :D
i think ive burned quite abit of calories walking yesterday and today!!
now:
BACK TO BIZ LAW.
:(
Thursday, January 07, 2010
whenever i listen to maroon 5's nothing lasts forever and think about the english teacher (YES SECONDARY LIT TEXT WOOHOO), i always feel like im brought back down to earth and given a solid rooting.
i remember i absolutely did not like the english teacher when i read it for the first time.
but i know i slowly started to learn from the book and like it in the process (:
its probably one of the saddest books ive ever read as a young kid.
its like the zahir actually, about a man losing love and learning to embrace it and become a better person.
but of course in the english teacher his wife actually DID DIE, like gone for good!
i've always liked the concept of coping with an immense loss.
gives me a surge of courage to take on life (:
guilt and hope.
i guess in life we are all merely trying to find happiness in every little thing we do.
and along the way we are bound to cross paths with others, some may merge and carry on together but some may come to a dead end.
i guess sometimes it's impossible for everyone to be happy at the same time, we either get hurt or hurt others.
or both simultaneously wow shiok huh HAHA.
perhaps we need to stop and think if we're actually doing the right things.
OK ANYWAY.
first week of school has been a pretty painful process.
AS + biz law on tues = BRAIN FRY
ltb on wed + training + macs 20 pc nuggets + met teresa michele and jinan at raffles city!
thurs intro econs (very nice and pretty newscaster prof) + chicken rice at bugis + ah chews = :DDDDDD
ct tmr zzzzzzzzzzz.
im just so not creative HAHAHA.
its really retarded that creativity is being taught!
ok here's a beautiful picture because i kope such pictures from iheartit.com when im bored HAHAHAHA.
<3
i remember i absolutely did not like the english teacher when i read it for the first time.
but i know i slowly started to learn from the book and like it in the process (:
its probably one of the saddest books ive ever read as a young kid.
its like the zahir actually, about a man losing love and learning to embrace it and become a better person.
but of course in the english teacher his wife actually DID DIE, like gone for good!
i've always liked the concept of coping with an immense loss.
gives me a surge of courage to take on life (:
guilt and hope.
i guess in life we are all merely trying to find happiness in every little thing we do.
and along the way we are bound to cross paths with others, some may merge and carry on together but some may come to a dead end.
i guess sometimes it's impossible for everyone to be happy at the same time, we either get hurt or hurt others.
or both simultaneously wow shiok huh HAHA.
perhaps we need to stop and think if we're actually doing the right things.
OK ANYWAY.
first week of school has been a pretty painful process.
AS + biz law on tues = BRAIN FRY
ltb on wed + training + macs 20 pc nuggets + met teresa michele and jinan at raffles city!
thurs intro econs (very nice and pretty newscaster prof) + chicken rice at bugis + ah chews = :DDDDDD
ct tmr zzzzzzzzzzz.
im just so not creative HAHAHA.
its really retarded that creativity is being taught!
ok here's a beautiful picture because i kope such pictures from iheartit.com when im bored HAHAHAHA.
<3
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
hello (:
i was just listening to my iphone when i was hit with this sudden urge to write something.
MYMP- tell me where it hurts
a song about a woman/her who is there for the man she cares for even though he may not belong to her.
she who does not snatch or manipulate, what a noble woman.
and the singer's got an awesome voice btw, totally helps to make it more touching.
which led me to think of marie from the zahir.
i remember being very inspired by her character towards the end of the book.
AWESOME BOOK BTW.
finished it in 3 days over in nepal after borrowing it from avinesh.
of course no one really wants to be her since he returns to his wife.
but yes the ending was still epic, last three pages where he returns to his wife was like whoaaaaaaa.
i still remember reading it on the shaking van ride back to hotel marshyangdi where after i finished the book, i just sat there for like a good 20 mins just reflecting.
ok anyway i cant believe i just ate a cheeseburger at mos burger ON TOP of the cai fan i had for lunch at home :/
ok ltb in about 45 mins, wish me luck HAHHAA.
i was just listening to my iphone when i was hit with this sudden urge to write something.
MYMP- tell me where it hurts
a song about a woman/her who is there for the man she cares for even though he may not belong to her.
she who does not snatch or manipulate, what a noble woman.
and the singer's got an awesome voice btw, totally helps to make it more touching.
which led me to think of marie from the zahir.
i remember being very inspired by her character towards the end of the book.
AWESOME BOOK BTW.
finished it in 3 days over in nepal after borrowing it from avinesh.
of course no one really wants to be her since he returns to his wife.
but yes the ending was still epic, last three pages where he returns to his wife was like whoaaaaaaa.
i still remember reading it on the shaking van ride back to hotel marshyangdi where after i finished the book, i just sat there for like a good 20 mins just reflecting.
ok anyway i cant believe i just ate a cheeseburger at mos burger ON TOP of the cai fan i had for lunch at home :/
ok ltb in about 45 mins, wish me luck HAHHAA.
Monday, January 04, 2010
hello!
the past week has been gooddddddd <3
towards the end of the week, i finally got to catch up more with my friends!
DAMN STOMACH INFECTION HAHAHA.
life is so good that i just wish it could remain like this and that school wont start tmr zzzzz.
but i shall believe in myself that i can balance friends and work, that i can try and enjoy myself to the fullest while dealing with any crap in my life.
wish me all the best, my love for you all will push me through <3
ive been getting comments, or perhaps just one from a critic of mine, that my blog lacks photos HAHA.
WELL AHEM IF YOURE READING THIS, NEH HERE ARE SOME PICTURES SO STOP COMPLAINING :D
unfortunately one reason why ive practically stopped putting up pictures on my blog is because im lazyyyyy and i barely take pictures when i go out anymore!
so here are just some random pictures during some of the gatherings ive had over the past week (:
i guess it would also be good to add some colour to this page!
the past week has been gooddddddd <3
towards the end of the week, i finally got to catch up more with my friends!
DAMN STOMACH INFECTION HAHAHA.
life is so good that i just wish it could remain like this and that school wont start tmr zzzzz.
but i shall believe in myself that i can balance friends and work, that i can try and enjoy myself to the fullest while dealing with any crap in my life.
wish me all the best, my love for you all will push me through <3
ive been getting comments, or perhaps just one from a critic of mine, that my blog lacks photos HAHA.
WELL AHEM IF YOURE READING THIS, NEH HERE ARE SOME PICTURES SO STOP COMPLAINING :D
unfortunately one reason why ive practically stopped putting up pictures on my blog is because im lazyyyyy and i barely take pictures when i go out anymore!
so here are just some random pictures during some of the gatherings ive had over the past week (:
i guess it would also be good to add some colour to this page!
