got my ukulele woohoo.
cheap cheap chirp chirp somemore, 39 bucks (:

learnt the chords, trying to get familiar with it and the transition.
first song i tried to pick up: noah and the whale's 5 years time <3
3 chords nia HAHAHHA.

and i found 2 new dramas to watch woohooooooooo.
japanese: q10 (looked kiddy and typical idol drama at first but omg theres so societal issues that they address in the drama, very touching)
korean: secret garden (just because hyun bin is so good looking and ha ji won is my favourite korean actress)

welllllllllllll, ok back to secret garden and then out with my mum for shopping later.
she sure buy alot of shit -_______-

i realised i can be get so excited.
and its like im bursting to share it buttttttt have to hold it back HAHHAA.
i wish i had siblings to disturb :(

AND I WANNA WATCH FRIENDLY FIRES DAMN IT.
why so ex and why are only an opening act :(

wow.

thanks so much for this video (:

brings back all the awesome memories from my favourite place japan (:

damn freaking well done video, love love love it.

here's my trip to tokyo with banglin this summer, stop 1 of our awesome 2 mths overseas (:

Tokyo from Bang Lin on Vimeo.

wow.

exams start tmr.

hmmmmmmmm.

i feel like im going into this with the same amount of knowledge i had BEFORE study week which may be bad buttttttt we'll see how it goes (:

and my exams end on thurs!
i think ill find the sudden freedom abit boring HAHAHA.
i think im currently in the state where im open to new things and new people in my life (:

but december will be an incredible learning time for me: driving, ukulele, japanese classes and hopefully reading (aka polish off my paulo coehlo's devil and miss pyrm + haruki murakami's kafka on the shore)

all the best my dears <3

what a freaking awesome cover.
shiok.

cant get enough of foal's second album - total life forever <3
really overwhelming and intense pleasure listening to the songs off the album <3
what good good good music

why the hell am i not sleeping?
strange................
normally i should be knocked out by now HAHHA.

maybe cause ive been spamming AWESOME MUSE VIDEOS again hehe.



this is the best fucking version of new born everrrrrrrr.
floor skidding ftw and omg matt is a guitar god <3

this video contains two of my greatest loves: muse and japan.

FUCK YESSSSSSSSSSSS <3

and omg the audience is like how highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, thats the way to enjoy music man <3



FUJI ROCK/SUMMER SONIC 2012 WAIT FOR ME ILL BE THERE!!!!!!!

life is able dealing with shit you dont like being thrown at you.
and i suck so bad at it.
i cant pretend i dont like something.
i'm a failure in life HAHAHA.

oh well.
honestly, i dont think things will ever be the same.
i guess once an idea is planted in your head, just like inception, it grows and there's no way you can fight it.
and ever since it occured to me that you could be this way, i have viewed you so differently from that moment onwards.
you disappoint me.
and disappointment can be so crippling.

i guess a switch inside me was turned off and it cant just be turned on again.
i think there goes one friendship, what a waste.

i know what is my dream job.

i shall be travelling the world and visiting all the music festivals, in europe, in america, in japan (:

glastonbury just you wait, one day I WILL BE THERE.

"You prefer to think things over all by yourself and you don't like people looking inside your head. Maybe that's because you're an only child. You're used to thinking and acting alone. You figure that as long as you understand something, that's enough." She shook her head. " And that makes me afraid. I feel abandoned."

- South of the Border, West of the Sun (Haruki Marukami)


guilty.

there are so many books out there that write about life, about love, about self-discovery, about youth.
and i always looked at them with skepticism and wondered why did they make life so complicated.
life is simple, life is great and things will be fine (:

its not like i dont believe in that anymore but i realised that whether or not i saw it coming, something in me has changed.
perhaps, it was when i turned 20.

i remember turning 20 and thinking that it was absolutely the same even though i am no longer a teen, but now i find myself contemplating about life and my future alot.

its exactly like what those books depicted, trying to find out about your true self.
and i realised that i am so not looking forward to adulthood.
so strange, i used to think that i couldnt wait to be an adult and go out into the working world and get married.
now i rather stay young, stay carefree and do all the things i want to do.

i dont feel depressed or whatever but i just feel older and feel like i want to decipher life, or at least mine.

and i realised that love is something so mysterious.
i used to have such a naive concept of love.
i think there is so much more to love and it has been highly misunderstood due to all the fairy tale ideas of love.

i think love is one of the hardest thing in life to understand and i highly doubt those people who say they are in love truly are.
to be honest, i dont feel like i have been in love before.
its always infactuation, interest, disinterest, care, concern but what is love?
i think its so much more noble and great.
and i have yet to have the privilege of truly experiencing it.

i feel like my past relationship wasnt quite love.
but i still feel very grateful for having had such a good man but nonetheless i was still yearning for more, still searching to experience true love.

but i have learnt to not have such high expectations, perhaps love in reality is not that fantastic.
it has crossed my mind that i rather be by myself than be in a relationship that isnt true.
i guess i used to think that i could live with a relationship that isnt true and strong but i realised that i cant and i wont.

i wont compromise on my happiness, because only i will truly look out for my own happiness.

song for the day: yeah yeah yeahs- maps (: