just had this sudden urge to say this,
i am content.
i love you friends <3

i almost got sucked back into that phase of my life and it terrified me so much.
i cant believe i cried over it AGAIN, im so sickening omg.
but i would like to believe that now im prepared not to lose it again (:

suffering from like post period cramps (!!!!! WHAT A NIGHTMARE) and moodiness.
bad temper + moodiness = killer combo

after putting starlight on repeat for like 3 hours during nightstudy which is very motivational when trying to do the math specimen paper that totally STUNNED ME, im getting pulled back to the korean music scene HAHAHAHAHA
sigh gosh but so many new songs to download!
and after yiting told me about wondergirls's new song, its been stuck in my head HAHA
i cant believe my ipod's top 25 most played songs are mostly korean and chinese (jerry yan's wo hui hen ai ni!)
HAHAHA but thats also because this is a relatively new ipod, unlike my old nano where muse occupied like all the top 10 spots HAHAHA
and so i shall listen to my new korean songs while i tackle innova's math paper (:

oh yes and wow everyone is like nuts over the f1 thing :/
while out with yiting yesterday, we almost went down to city hall from bugis to go watch it cause she was so excited about it althought i was very -__- about it HAHA
but although i was ok about it, it got too late and we wasted so much time playing arcade and eating HAHA
sorry but cars just dont get me excited.

off to do math!

wow ive been lazy lazy lazy.
i cant really call what ive been doing studying :/

i have...

watched mirrors movie with fiona on friday
went out with on sat cause her prelims just ended (shopshopshop eateateat <3)
studyed with qian at serene
watched star golden bell (eunhyuk HAHAHA)
watched 100% entertainment as much as i can cause im in a chinese phase (ive been listening to alot of jay chou again too!)
GUSHED OVER JERRY YAN AND HOT SHOT LIKE CRAZY HAHAHAHHAAHA
went to lois's place with michelle lai and shun yee for hours of FREAKING FUN WII, a couple of hours of studying, yummy feast from oishi pizza and a side spliting hilarious time :D:D:D
smuggled michelle lai into cj for hours of studing and TENNISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS (our tennis session cracked me up so bad HAHA)
nightstudied with fiona

and now im meeting yiting to study at the national library (:

WE MUST STAY FOCUSED MY FRIENDS
5 more weeks :(

AHNEONGHASAYO

just felt like doing something instead of correlation so i came online to blog :/
the past few days ive been spamming the ting tings (thanks to fiona!) and this song called who knows who which is like this casual collaboration between muse and the streets :D
ive been slacking?
and that makes me feel very horrible
wow i never knew i derived happiness from studying!
HAHA oh how jc has changed me.

monday
class basketball after school!
i was super in the mood cause ive been watching this taiwan basketball drama called hot shot.
HAHAHHA I CANT BELIEVE IM CRAZY OVER THIS SHOW.
WHY DO I FIND A TAIWAN DRAMA SO NICE?
AND WHY IS JERRY YAN SO FREAKING CHARMING AND GORGEOUS THAT I WANT TO MELTTTTTTTTTTTT?!
but yes i absolutely love it, and after starting it on friday night i already finished 7 episodes :x
JERRY YAN WO AI NIIIIIIIIIIIII HAHAHAHAHHAHAA
i swear i was like kung fu basketball?! MEGA EW GROSS SHIT jerry yan from f4?! HAHAHA GAY CRAP
BUT OHMYFREAKINGHOLYGOD I AM IN LOVE WITH THE SHOW <3<3
and yiting watches it too! HAHAHHAHHAHA WE GET SO FREAKING NUTS OVER IT.
and she even bluetoothed me the chinese rap theme songs from the show HAHAHA WE ARE SO CHEENA PIANG HAHAHA :D

reached home feeling very tired, almost missed the stop sleeping on the bus :(
bathed then slept
i meant to wake up at 6 to watch music bank on kbs world but when i woke up it was like PITCH BLACK and i was like holy shit its 8 :(
didnt study and just watched hot shot :x

tuesday
had the urge to go home, horrible weather you see :(
spent some time with fiona around school then we decided to go home instead cause we were just too tired

but instead of resting i watched episode 5 & 6 of hot shot HAHHAA.
I MEANT TO STOP AT 5.
but the freaking cliffhanger was SO BAD I WAS LIKE WAH LAOZZZZZZZ HOW CAN I NOT CONTINUE?!

then i was damn happy to see onew my cutie pie dorky shinee leader and er taemin on star golden bell but NO SUBS?!
KBS IS GETTING LAZY WHY DID YOU STOP SUBBING MY STAR GOLDEN BELL :(
so i switched back to my paraolympics <3
ITS SO TOUCHING I LOVE IT
there was this marathon t12 category and at first i didnt really know what it was and i saw this china guy (qi shun i think) and he was running so well and hanging in there and pushing himself to overtake everyone and when he crossed the finish line i was so happy for him!
then the announcer said that it was the visually impaired category and i was STUNNED.
i have no idea how he ran it without being able to see but that just shows how AWESOME THESE PEOPLE ARE.
and he ran it in 2.5hrs which is pretty fast even if you compare with the normal olympic marathon runners!
i really respect them, they really go against the odds.
and when he collapsed on the track crying i was like awww dont cry!
so i started crying too HAHAHA.
YOU ARE AWESOME QI SHUN.

wed
went to cine to buy new ipod earphones
mine are orange now! :D
then rushed down to coro to meet qian, argh i was late cause 174 took FOREVER to come :(
cozy corner!
then went to serene macs to study HAHAHA WE ARE ALWAYS SO AUNTIE FIGHTING FOR SEATS HUR HUR

today
alamak couldnt study with qian cause she asked me too late :(
carmen came over to my place to study and we were both feeling so horrible cause we're sick but we managed to do quite alot of work! :D:D
walked with her to her house there to buy yummy fish congee, BUKIT GOMBAK CONGEE + YOU TIAO IS AWESOME STUFF YO

tmr
mirrors movie with fiona and jiajun and maybe class basketball woohoo!

and i got a B for math!
OHMYFREAKINGHOLYSHITGOD I HAVE NEVER GOTTEN A B FOR A MATH EXAM IN MY WHOLE JC LIFE
i was so stunned but i think i worked for it but i really didnt think i would even get a B
now i need to continue doing work!
and wonder how am i going to pull my econs, geog and physics from their Us :/
or i can hope i didnt fail my physics paper 3 then maybe i can maintain my E or maybe get a D HUR
geog and econs CONFIRM FAIL GUARANTEE PLUS CHOP HAHA

lets all gambatte ikimashoi! <3

PARAOLYMPICS <3

i have so much respect for them after watching the paraolympics.
i feel that its a great event, cause there are actually alot of paraolympics sports and it gives the disabled a wide range and number of opportunities to shine.
and some of them are really super pro!

PARAOLYMPICS BASKETBALL IS AWESOME.
you need a hell lot of strength and accuracy than when standing up.
they may be at a much lower level and further away from the basket but they are SO ACCURATE AND SO MANY CHOP BALLS OMG.
and its very hard to positon your wheelchair and pass accurately but they do it so well and i have deep respect for them

PARAOLYMPICS FOR THE WIN!
its a heck load better to watch than the normal olympics

PRELIMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRR.
HOORAY! YAHOO! BANZAI!

but that just means that As are nearing...
:(

ANYWAY.
whatever im just going to try and stay calm and start studying later tonight.
i actually intended to start at 4pm today but i have this powerful inertia and i really dont feel like studying yet.
but i shall try and gain back my momentum later tonight :D

tues

econs case study!
studied at carmen's house
we dropped by the coffeeshop near our house and bought FREAKING YUMMY CONGEE + YOU TIAO + GYOZA
but we were STUFFED.
and she made me eat her portion of the food, HORRIBLE WOMAN MANIPULATED ME CAUSE SHE KNEW I DONT LIKE TO THROW AWAY LEFTOVER FOOD.
studied till like 8 then i realised that i really wasnt concentrating and decided to take a quiet walk back to my house.
spammed travis's closer and my eyes cause they are such beautiful songs, absolutely meant for walking along the streets at night.
reached home and got a hold of myself, chionged physics all the way till like 1am and i meant to finish whatever i set out to read :D

wed
physics AND math papers WHOA BRAIN DRAIN.
played frisbee after that but sorry i was totally like out of it :(
at first i was very high that the papers were over but then i just got super physically and mentally drained :(

thurs
studied with fiona at the national library!
i got a ride from my dad so i reached there really early at like 8+
had hans breakfast myself while watching gokusen 3 on my ipod
i realise that i quite like spending abit of time by myself actually :D
studied at the study lounge till like 7+ at night HAHA
we had DELICIOUS DUCK RICE/KUEY CHAP for lunch nearby OISHI NEHHHH HAHA.
met minmin!
met my mum for dinner at westmall and rushed home to squeeze in abit more physics

fri
physics mcq!
i was almost late for the paper HAHA
class breakfast at ps long johns after that
then went to zhao loong's house to watch the mummy returns
i only managed to watch like an hour of it then i left to meet joan tay, opy and qian :D

shokudo cine lunch

cine arcade
3 people squeezing in the machine to play basketball HAHA, this never-seen-before but fun aliens (the show) shooting game which i SUCK AT and the drumming machine!
WHOA I HAD NO IDEA THE DRUMMING MACHINE WAS SO FUN HAHAHA
opy and i managed at the standard stage! (beginners was easy peasy HEH HEH HEH)
im going to play that machine more often and maybe i can master the standard stage and pick up some basics drumming coordination :D
and i recognised quite alot of the jap songs that had inside HAHAHAH
they had like most of the lovely complex movie's soundtrack inside HAHA :D

hana yori dango movie, which was VERY LONG AND DRAGGY
some parts were VERY SWEET (domyouji's lines are AWESOME, guys should watch the movie and learn)
but the ending was RIDICULOUSLY RETARDED AND LAMEEEEEEEEEEEE
and the movie just wouldnt end HAHAHA
they squeezed like so much crap and drama into one movie that everyone felt overloaded after the movie HAHA
and the audience were so animated!
this girl screamed in excitement at the end when he gave her a passionate kiss HAHHAHA
and everyone had alot of comments lah, including me! HAHA

went to tiong bahru plaza for dinner and stupid games and i have never and would you rather HUR HUR
went to joan tay's place for some slacking and card playing (MAO IS HILARIOUS HAHA)
damn we didnt play mahjong or wii, no time :(

left at 10+ and opy, qian and i took the train back together (:
qian and i spammed opy with korean boys! HAHAHA
SHE LIKES CHOI JONG HOON TOO HAHAHA.
it was hilarious when i was like telling her that like his screen time was coming and when he popped up she totally like grabbed my hand and squealed HAHAHA.
you have good tastes my friend! <3

today
ive been online ever since i woke up HAHA
shinee reality show episode 7
yasuko to kenji
hotshot (HAHAHA SHIT WHY IS THIS TAIWAN SHOW SO NICE, I USUALLY HATE TAIWAN SHOWS AND WHY IS JERRY YAN SO HOT, I USED TO FIND HIM SO GROSS :()
gokusen 3
puzzle 2008

and currently im searching on how to get rid of whiteheads.
im even making a list!
BECAUSE IM VERY SCARED AND IM PANICKING CAUSE MY SKIN IS VERY BAD AND MY NOSE HAS SO MANY WHITEHEADS AND BLACKHEADS AND IM REALLY VERY TERRIFIED PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO SAVE MY SKIN :(
and i really dont like going for facials!
it so painful and you get these scars after all the whiteheads/blackheads FORCEFUL removals

and just cause i dont like wordy entries, here's a photo that i found on deviantart (;

it says- time goes by
and oh yes it does!
time freaking FLIES by :(

i feel very tired.
very sick of writing and thinking and memorising and reading and JUST PLAIN STUDYING.
the past week ive been drowning in words.
(although yes i do take breaks to gush over korean guys, watch my jap drama and just stone on my bed semi-conscious hur)
from calculus to quantum physics to waves to market failure to inflation.
AH IM TRYING SO HARD TO KEEP ALL OF IT IN MY HEAD.
everytime i read a new set of notes i feel like the addition information will squeeze out old information i read, and it scares me that i may not be prepared at all :(

SIGH SIGH SIGH.
well ANYWAY

friday
went to michelle lai's house
COOKED CREAM OF SPINACH ARGH HAHAHA.
michelle lai was oh so hardworking by surfing recipe websites and deciding to cook cream of spinach and i being a closet wannabe cooking show host couldnt resist not butting into the cooking process :x
so we spent like 2 hours cooking the damn soup, eating it with sunmoulin DELICIOUS grain bread and then puking due to overload of spinach and full cream milk before we started studying :x
was there from 1 to like 11pm, MICHELLE LAI I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS PLEASE STOP BEING RETARDED AND STUDY HAHAHA.
but of course it was damn fun :D:D

took the bus home and listened to 'night songs'
you know those songs that are just so suited for those late night bus rides home where you're like looking out the window and out at the dimly lit streets?
HAHAHHAA ok oops maybe its just me.
listened to things like: arctic monkeys 505, the clientele i cant seem to make you mine, the cranberries wake up and smell the coffee, muse starlight, death cab for cutie tiny vessels and translationism etc etc
<3>

sat
studied with carmen!
but my progress was very slowwwwwwww
stupid nj h1 physics mcq, i wasted like 2 hours on it :(
changed locations alot of time too and i wasted time gushing over jap kids HAHAHA.
I WANT A JAPANESE SON :D:D:D
(why does everyone except me have like jap/korean children running around their estates?!)

tried to go back to our house area for dinner but stupids things happened.
waited at the bus stop before realising the bus isnt in operation on sat?!, trying to court death by jay-ing and climbing over the railings, then walking all the way back to cross the overhead bridge and waiting for like 20 mins for the bus HAHA.
ended up in bukit panjang plaza for dinner and when we were leaving, it was like POURINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
so we squeezed under my umbrella and rushed across to our bus stop while trying to prevent my umbrella from like being deformed by the wind HAHA.
reached home at like 10 :/
WASTED TIME AGAIN AH.
but at least i tried studying till 1+

sun
physics and math tuition with jiajun
BOUGHT THE WATCH OF MY DREAMS AND I AM OVERJOYED, DELIGHTED, OVER THE MOON, BEYOND HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
its a vintage casio watch that i can SWEAR you should not have seen before, i do hope no one in singapore has the same watch as me!

and yes its 7.52pm now and ive got an econs exam tmr but i JUST CANT CONCENTRATE.
and everytime i read about people gushing over korean celebrities i feel like going fangirl too HAHAHAHA.
shinee/ft island! <3

i just feel like taking a break and not studying and just get prelims over and done with...

AH WELL :(

at least im meeting joan tay, opy and qian on fri OHMYFREAKINGGOSHYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYYYYYYYYY
it should be one crazy time WOOHOO.
I WANT TO SING KARAOKE TOO LEH WAH LAO HAHAHAHAHHAHAA.
karaoke with them is like THE ULTIMATE ESTACY PILL OR WHATEVER.
we just go incredibly crazy i loveeeeeeeeeeeee it HAHAHA.

ok off to just slack for the next 4 mins, till 8pm and i shall continue econs!
then ill reward myself tonight with like shinee reality show episode 6 HAHHA

ive ALWAYS wanted a dog.
pity my mum doesnt like them, our flat isnt big enough to have one, we dont have the time to take care of one and we dont have the money to get one :(
i will DEFINITELY get one when i grow up :D

eliza and i made a trip to the pet shop in holland village on wednesday!
came across three very beautiful breeds of dog that ive never heard, but ah shit i forgot the name of one of them.
im like racking my brains and pulling at my hair trying to remember argh :(
i lack knowledge about dogs, especially since i dont own one :(







but anyway, the japanese spitz and shiba inu dogs <3
and no i like them not cause they're japanese HAHA.

but of course my all time favourite- golden retrievers
ive always wanted one since like primary one HAHA




sigh anyway i think i have to call it a night for studying, physics aint going in anymore! :(

yet another one of those 'I JUST FEEL LIKE BLOGGING' entries :D

i finally discovered the joy of studying alone!
very satisfying :D
i woke up at like 11 today and watched one episode of code blue while eating lunch that my dad dabaoed for me YUM.
then tried to study but HA AS IF I CAN STUDY IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER.
so i tried to be determined and turn off the laptop and go downstairs to study but HA AS IF I CAN STUDY WHEN THERE'S KBS WORLD.
i was watching 2 days 1 night which is a super funny korean variety show on kbs world :D

could have went to town to study with fiona but i would have wasted 2 hours of travelling time for just a couplle of hours study time to it didnt work out.
but fiona inspired me to go study outside myself!
and so i followed in her footsteps and went to westmall to study myself.
WOOHOO DAMN SHIOK.
it makes me feel very independent and it was also quite productive.
went from mos burger to burger king and met maple, hello!
wow quite alot of cj people stay in bukit batok eh, YEA WEST PEOPLE UNITE YO HUR HUR HUR.

but i only settled down at like 4+ so alot of time was wasted slacking around at home :(
my mum met me at 8+ and we went to eat sakae yum.
i finally ordered sashimi!
HAHAH im sorry im VERY STINGY so i NEVER order sashimi.
4.99 one plate leh! HAHAHAHAH.
but my mum just looks at me weirdly when im stingy and she's like 'GIRL JUST ORDER LAHHHHH' HAHAHA

and so its 10.20 now AHHH.
got to gain back my momentum and do my physics tys (:

and im still wondering whether to go out and study tmr :/
i cant decide whether to go out and study or study alone hmmm.
IM VERY LAZY TO GO OUT.

but sat im definitely studying out, this time with carmen! :D:D


buy, dont buy?

of course the one i want most is the vintage black casio calculator watch but its pretty common so i was wondering if i should get this instead!
definitely havent seen it around much (:

oh yes and the joys of online shopping!
ive got new slippers from delias, new bag form scarletroom, new wallet from urban outfitters and new top from asos and total price under 100! :D:D:D

just watched constantine for like the fourth time.
thanks channel five, for finally showing a good movie (:
GAHHHHHHH I LOVE THAT MOVIE.
its so intelligent, so hilarious, so amusing, so exciting blahblahblahuegaougnoeuan.
and keannu reeves AHHHH.
i remember speed was one of my first favourite movies (in primary school HAHA)
AND WHY ARE YOU SO COOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
i think constantine owns jack sparrow!
:x
i bet tons of people want to kill me now HAHA.
but i think constantine is a way more badass attitude character yet with clean teeth and nice hair :D

ANYWAY.

sunday:
physics tuition ALONE :(
lunch with qian
math tuition with qian and fiona HAHAHAHHAA
went to buy discounted magazines and cut fringe with fiona

monday:
dabaoed macs breakfast and studied with yihui in rj till like 9pm
SHIOK ITS A DAMN GOOD PLACE TO STUDY.
met lois and jiwei!

tuesday:
extra physics tuition
thai lunch with fiona yummmmmmmm
studied with fiona at starbucks till night

today:
studied with eliza at holland v!
went from coffeebean to burger king to starbucks to bukit panjang plaza mos WHOA.
IT WAS NICE CATCHING UP WITH YOU TODAY ELIZA!
sorry i wasnt very high, was out of sorts today :(

tmr shall be stay at home and study day cause i reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy dont feel like moving out of the house to study anymore.
although i have yet to study with hockey people and michelle lai and jodie ah :(

GAMBATTEH IKIMASHOI EVERYONE :D