Sometimes you will realise that there are some people you don't need to bother about.
At the end of the day, you won't be able to have a true and long lasting friendship with that person anyway.
So don't get worked up
I guess it's a fact of life, you can never get along with everyone out there and don't expect to be great friends with everyone.
Try to maintain a friendly relationship with everyone but identify who are your close friends and treasure them.
Or perhaps it's just my personality, it can be quite easy for me to clash with certain other personalities :/
But regardless, I need to write a mental note to myself to lower my expectations of my relationships with the people around me and treasure my important friends <3
Realised I haven't wrote anything about my trip to Indonesia!
Great trip, took away much from the whole experience and I shall leave it to another time to elaborate (:
Saturday, November 26, 2011
I have a soft spot for 方大同.
He's so humorous and awkward but most importantly, he is so talented and writes wonderful music.
And now, he's showing how good he is with the electric guitar which is one of my biggest weakness *melts*
But I wish he would eat more, well veggie that is since he's vegetarian. :(
The album '15' accompanied me through majority of study week and this is one of my favourite songs off the album <3
I am currently watching a Korean drama called Flower Boy Ramyun Shop. (along with 1 Japanese and 1 Taiwanese drama hehe)
Yes, judging from the name of the show you can tell that I am just a superficial bitch HAHAHAHA.
The drama has not much meaning but its quite funny and doesn't have those cheesy melodrama lines so it's still watchable.
AND, check them out:
You're welcome (:
Yes, judging from the name of the show you can tell that I am just a superficial bitch HAHAHAHA.
The drama has not much meaning but its quite funny and doesn't have those cheesy melodrama lines so it's still watchable.
AND, check them out:
You're welcome (:
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I think I found my favourite movie.
Although many movies have a special place in my heart, but I think this one is definitely one that stands out.
I happened to come across it randomly, it's a new Taiwanese film called Starry Starry Night.
I think it was released around a week ago in Taiwan, and I just found out it is opening in Singapore tomorrow.
How strange yet lucky that I came across it tonight, but I would love to watch it again in the cinemas though (:
Recently, I have been falling in love with quite a few Taiwanese films.
I'm starting to have a soft spot for Taiwanese films just like how I do for Japanese films.
It's quite a short film, not incredibly full of dialogue yet without too many long silent scenes.
It has a great story line, well developed, nicely paced and has a very personal and fragile feel on a whole.
First time I cried within like two minutes of the film :(
Beautifully filmed, my kind of warm lighting, quirky and vibrant colours and every scene is like a well composed photograph.
And there is a very unique magically element to the entire film with gorgeous special effects.
I really thoroughly enjoyed watching the movie and i will remember it for a long long time <3<3<3<3<3<3<3
Although many movies have a special place in my heart, but I think this one is definitely one that stands out.
I happened to come across it randomly, it's a new Taiwanese film called Starry Starry Night.
I think it was released around a week ago in Taiwan, and I just found out it is opening in Singapore tomorrow.
How strange yet lucky that I came across it tonight, but I would love to watch it again in the cinemas though (:
Recently, I have been falling in love with quite a few Taiwanese films.
I'm starting to have a soft spot for Taiwanese films just like how I do for Japanese films.
It's quite a short film, not incredibly full of dialogue yet without too many long silent scenes.
It has a great story line, well developed, nicely paced and has a very personal and fragile feel on a whole.
First time I cried within like two minutes of the film :(
Beautifully filmed, my kind of warm lighting, quirky and vibrant colours and every scene is like a well composed photograph.
And there is a very unique magically element to the entire film with gorgeous special effects.
I really thoroughly enjoyed watching the movie and i will remember it for a long long time <3<3<3<3<3<3<3
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Explaining what 九把刀 wishes to convey through 那些年我們一起追的女孩 movie.
那些年我們一起追的女孩 book is very very different from the movie, in a good way.
I am only half way through so I can't be too sure about how differently or similarly the story will unfold.
Every day I have been reading the book, on the bus home or on my bed before I sleep.
Although some words I have no idea how to pronounce but aga aga can understand the meeting, in fact I'm quite impressed by my actual standard of Mandarin HEHEHEHE.
But anyway, I think I have been immersing myself quite seriously in 九把刀's youth and every day I've have just been extremely touched by his story and his sharing. I have never read a book quite like this before, a very heartfelt and sincere sharing from a very personal level. This makes me go beyond merely enjoying the story but also respecting the author himself and feeling very thankful to him for sharing his thoughts and feelings with readers.
RESPECT.
And I think I will have a soft spot for 九把刀 from now on. (:
Monday, November 21, 2011
I have come to learn that communication is one of the most important thing in maintaining relationships.
Honest and sincere communication is the key.
To the people that matter, we need to share what is on our minds and what we have hidden in the depths of our heart.
Holding back benefits no party, others are left guessing while you keep your true feelings inside and torture yourself with it.
Up till this day, I don't know what you feel about us and about what happened in the end. But not like I told you what I felt about everything either.
I am sorry that I always held back my thoughts and feelings, I am still learning to change my terrible habit of keeping things to myself. When asked about it, I would refuse to reveal anything and just turn away with a muttered 'Nothing.'. And with a determination that I don't see myself displaying during more crucial occasions, I would hold on to my worthless pride and keep my inner thoughts and feelings to myself. So silly really, all I did was make it difficult for you and me. I would like to blame it to being an only child, but I am sure that's not the only reason.
Communication was one of the key things we lacked and sad to say, minimal is left now as well.
I can only wish you the best from the bottom of my heart and I believe you would wish me too (:
Honest and sincere communication is the key.
To the people that matter, we need to share what is on our minds and what we have hidden in the depths of our heart.
Holding back benefits no party, others are left guessing while you keep your true feelings inside and torture yourself with it.
Up till this day, I don't know what you feel about us and about what happened in the end. But not like I told you what I felt about everything either.
I am sorry that I always held back my thoughts and feelings, I am still learning to change my terrible habit of keeping things to myself. When asked about it, I would refuse to reveal anything and just turn away with a muttered 'Nothing.'. And with a determination that I don't see myself displaying during more crucial occasions, I would hold on to my worthless pride and keep my inner thoughts and feelings to myself. So silly really, all I did was make it difficult for you and me. I would like to blame it to being an only child, but I am sure that's not the only reason.
Communication was one of the key things we lacked and sad to say, minimal is left now as well.
I can only wish you the best from the bottom of my heart and I believe you would wish me too (:
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Monday, November 07, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
I pray pray pray that I get my exchange in Year 4.
I want a break, I want to travel, I want to go to Eastern Europe and indulge in food, sights, sounds and music that I have never experienced before.
I want to walk down the streets and feel free like a bird.
I want to do what I want to do and go where I want to go without having to worry about anything.
I think I have been listening to Beirut too much, his music makes me feel so joyful and free.
I can imagine myself plugging into Beirut while in Europe and just hopping and dancing down the streets <3
I want a break, I want to travel, I want to go to Eastern Europe and indulge in food, sights, sounds and music that I have never experienced before.
I want to walk down the streets and feel free like a bird.
I want to do what I want to do and go where I want to go without having to worry about anything.
I think I have been listening to Beirut too much, his music makes me feel so joyful and free.
I can imagine myself plugging into Beirut while in Europe and just hopping and dancing down the streets <3
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
我可能不會愛你 has got to be one of my all time favourite taiwan shows.
I don't watch many, probably can count them on one hand but this is definitely one that stands out.
Core plot is about 2 friends, close friends since high school, college, university and now they are working adults who just turned 30 years old.
The guy has loved the girl for many years but has hidden his feelings and they remain by each others' sides as best friends, listening and helping each other through their ups and downs.
The show covers many issues about family, love, reaching adulthood, marriage, friendship etc, pretty much covering all the essential topics which I think everyone should always ponder about.
One thing that I really like about the show is that it DOES NOT have cheesy lines like the other 99% of taiwan shows which make me hate them oh so much.
The main leads featured in the show also act very well so thank goodness no horrible acting and weird chinese that make me cringe every time I watch them.
And now, just need to look forward to karaoke because I HAVE TO SING THIS SONG (and hopefully not cry like a baby) (:
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Today was a good day.
A good saturday spent doing something different, something meaningful.
Snaps you out of the bubble that you stick your head in during the regular school days.
A day where we are all just humans, regardless of age or race, and merely wishing to help others in need.
My OCIP team went to Lam Soon CC in Choa Chu Kang this morning to carry out our pre-expendition CSP.
We were split into 2 teams, one team would paint murals at the HDB void deck while another team would head to a needy family's home to help clean up the place, paint the walls and bring in some new furniture for them.
I volunteered to go to help the family because it was obviously gonna be more meaningful.
Unfortunately the rest of my team begged to differ and only 3 of us seniors from the team went to help with the home along with other volunteers from the CC, but its ok because the murals turned out beautiful as well :D
The needy family was a family of 4.
Mr Koh was an elderly with a physical condition which caused him to have a lump on his back which inhibited him from getting a proper job.
His younger brother who is also in his mid years is mentally challenged and also suffers from a physical condition which caused his legs to be grown unnaturally and he can't walk properly and also is unable to contribute income to his family.
The younger sister is the sole breadwinner of the family, a lady in her 40s who pretty much sacrificed her time and her youth supporting her family and works as a beer auntie at a coffee shop nearby.
Lastly, the mother of the family is an elderly lady in her 80s who earns some money constructing plastic bags that many shops use by inserting the plastic handles into the plastic bag.
Their home was beyond my imagination.
They must have not done any cleaning at all for years, the floors were black and stained, dust and dirt particles stuck to the tiles and freaking hell loads of age old lizard shit stuck on the walls.
The whole house was cluttered with food donations and old items which perhaps they treasure deeply and don't wish to throw, but to most people it merely looked like trash.
Tons and tons of random old and dirty items that they kept, some because they had no time to clear and throw away and some they just couldn't bear to part with.
Cleaning up was the most difficult.
Rounds and rounds and mopping and sweeping and wiping and scrubbing.
And then came in painting, MOTHER SHAG but I thoroughly enjoyed it :D
Perhaps also cause I have a control freak side that likes to see things neat and like to see walls properly and evenly painted.
We also moved alot of furniture here and there, packed up alot of their items, brought in new cupboards, mattresses, pillows and fans for htem, changed their bedsheets and pillows.
All this was done along with a team of very kind and dedicated people.
Most of us were strangers to each other but there was a telepathic connection amongst us as we knew each of us was putting in our 200% to help make this house a better place for the family to live in and that was the best feeling ever :D
I foresee myself doing more of this in the future (:
Although I ended up skipped my 7pm Ethics make-up class, but seriously I don't need a class to teach me how to be ethical.
A good saturday spent doing something different, something meaningful.
Snaps you out of the bubble that you stick your head in during the regular school days.
A day where we are all just humans, regardless of age or race, and merely wishing to help others in need.
My OCIP team went to Lam Soon CC in Choa Chu Kang this morning to carry out our pre-expendition CSP.
We were split into 2 teams, one team would paint murals at the HDB void deck while another team would head to a needy family's home to help clean up the place, paint the walls and bring in some new furniture for them.
I volunteered to go to help the family because it was obviously gonna be more meaningful.
Unfortunately the rest of my team begged to differ and only 3 of us seniors from the team went to help with the home along with other volunteers from the CC, but its ok because the murals turned out beautiful as well :D
The needy family was a family of 4.
Mr Koh was an elderly with a physical condition which caused him to have a lump on his back which inhibited him from getting a proper job.
His younger brother who is also in his mid years is mentally challenged and also suffers from a physical condition which caused his legs to be grown unnaturally and he can't walk properly and also is unable to contribute income to his family.
The younger sister is the sole breadwinner of the family, a lady in her 40s who pretty much sacrificed her time and her youth supporting her family and works as a beer auntie at a coffee shop nearby.
Lastly, the mother of the family is an elderly lady in her 80s who earns some money constructing plastic bags that many shops use by inserting the plastic handles into the plastic bag.
Their home was beyond my imagination.
They must have not done any cleaning at all for years, the floors were black and stained, dust and dirt particles stuck to the tiles and freaking hell loads of age old lizard shit stuck on the walls.
The whole house was cluttered with food donations and old items which perhaps they treasure deeply and don't wish to throw, but to most people it merely looked like trash.
Tons and tons of random old and dirty items that they kept, some because they had no time to clear and throw away and some they just couldn't bear to part with.
Cleaning up was the most difficult.
Rounds and rounds and mopping and sweeping and wiping and scrubbing.
And then came in painting, MOTHER SHAG but I thoroughly enjoyed it :D
Perhaps also cause I have a control freak side that likes to see things neat and like to see walls properly and evenly painted.
We also moved alot of furniture here and there, packed up alot of their items, brought in new cupboards, mattresses, pillows and fans for htem, changed their bedsheets and pillows.
All this was done along with a team of very kind and dedicated people.
Most of us were strangers to each other but there was a telepathic connection amongst us as we knew each of us was putting in our 200% to help make this house a better place for the family to live in and that was the best feeling ever :D
I foresee myself doing more of this in the future (:
Although I ended up skipped my 7pm Ethics make-up class, but seriously I don't need a class to teach me how to be ethical.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
These few weeks I've pretty much been listening to only Bombay Bicycle Club.
Thoroughly won over by their second album (A different kind of fix) which just got released not long ago.
The first album was awesome enough for me but they just got better and better really.
Such talented young folks.
RESPECT.
They can write extremely catchy tunes with a good dose of rock elements and also write absolutely heart breaking songs.
Thoroughly won over by their second album (A different kind of fix) which just got released not long ago.
The first album was awesome enough for me but they just got better and better really.
Such talented young folks.
RESPECT.
They can write extremely catchy tunes with a good dose of rock elements and also write absolutely heart breaking songs.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
On Wednesday I wasn't feeling too good.
My heart felt heavy and I was just in no mood to do any work.
I decided to take a walk through the lifestyle section in the school library and a book caught my eye.
It was a small beige hard-cover book with a black spine.
It had no title nor design on the cover, and the title of the book could only be found on the spine where the library sticker even covered half of it.
It had no description nor summary and I had no idea what the content would be about.
Picked it up and read a couple of pages, got hooked and borrowed it.
Shame in the blood by Tetsuo Miura.
Very very good read imo.
Shall explore the lifestyle section in the school library more often (:
My heart felt heavy and I was just in no mood to do any work.
I decided to take a walk through the lifestyle section in the school library and a book caught my eye.
It was a small beige hard-cover book with a black spine.
It had no title nor design on the cover, and the title of the book could only be found on the spine where the library sticker even covered half of it.
It had no description nor summary and I had no idea what the content would be about.
Picked it up and read a couple of pages, got hooked and borrowed it.
Shame in the blood by Tetsuo Miura.
Very very good read imo.
Shall explore the lifestyle section in the school library more often (:
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Listen 你現在的感情 從何選擇
看天氣的臉色 還是體溫
幸福不會是牛頓 一顆蘋果成學問
所以 得不到那個人 是否該恨
Listen 你現在的人生 要什麼呢
出門要豪華車 或隨緣份
幸福或許是諸葛 三顧也不見得成
所以 達不到你要的 是否該扔
又或者 永遠是不可能 滿分
You say why 愛讓寂寞像永恆
And why 愛像過客不聞不問
Oh why 愛 似乎總不貼近靈魂
Listen 回憶裡的氣氛 是熱是冷
孤芳得像天鵝 還是風箏
或許就像哥倫布 錯誤點起萬盞燈
所以 是不是還想要 再試再撐
又或者 因為曾有的疼 沉淪
You say why 愛讓寂寞像永恆
And why 愛像過客不聞不問
Oh why 愛 似乎總不貼近靈魂 怎麼能
相聚 分離 光影涼了又溫
想起 忘記 眼淚淺了又深
凡美麗總像是流水逝去不會轉過身
雨水卻在不知名的清晨紛紛
You say why oh 寂寞像永恆
Why 像過客不聞不問
Oh why 愛 不貼近靈魂
I say why 愛讓你充滿疑問
And why 愛總讓你一點不剩
Oh why why 愛只需建立在一個吻 怎麼能
看天氣的臉色 還是體溫
幸福不會是牛頓 一顆蘋果成學問
所以 得不到那個人 是否該恨
Listen 你現在的人生 要什麼呢
出門要豪華車 或隨緣份
幸福或許是諸葛 三顧也不見得成
所以 達不到你要的 是否該扔
又或者 永遠是不可能 滿分
You say why 愛讓寂寞像永恆
And why 愛像過客不聞不問
Oh why 愛 似乎總不貼近靈魂
Listen 回憶裡的氣氛 是熱是冷
孤芳得像天鵝 還是風箏
或許就像哥倫布 錯誤點起萬盞燈
所以 是不是還想要 再試再撐
又或者 因為曾有的疼 沉淪
You say why 愛讓寂寞像永恆
And why 愛像過客不聞不問
Oh why 愛 似乎總不貼近靈魂 怎麼能
相聚 分離 光影涼了又溫
想起 忘記 眼淚淺了又深
凡美麗總像是流水逝去不會轉過身
雨水卻在不知名的清晨紛紛
You say why oh 寂寞像永恆
Why 像過客不聞不問
Oh why 愛 不貼近靈魂
I say why 愛讓你充滿疑問
And why 愛總讓你一點不剩
Oh why why 愛只需建立在一個吻 怎麼能
Wednesday, October 05, 2011
Every time I listen to Tennis's songs, I get so inspired by their love.
A young married couple who pooled all their money together, bought an old sail boat, taught themselves how to sail, spent months out at sea until their money ran out, wrote music based on their journey and experiences and earned money through that.
A young married couple who pooled all their money together, bought an old sail boat, taught themselves how to sail, spent months out at sea until their money ran out, wrote music based on their journey and experiences and earned money through that.
Monday, October 03, 2011
Finally found out what's the song title.
I only heard like a 20 second clip of su da lu performing this song and I was hooked.
Tried finding what was the song title to no avail until a walking music wikipedia friend told me the answer.
Love this song, love this performance, love the lyrics and I personally prefer this to the original.
Now let me listen to it again and :'(
Saturday, October 01, 2011
Friday, September 30, 2011
I really can't get myself to concentrate on studying for mid terms.
I think I'm just going to go and whack for CAT mid terms tomorrow.
My mind has been filled with exchange thoughts, one of the worst decisions I had to make in my life.
This reminds me of the time when I made up my mind to go to NUS Real Estate and then my cousin called me up to have a long talk with me trying to convince me to come to SMU instead.
I remember crying like crazy during that conversation, so troubled by the decision that I had to make.
You know the feeling where you just go ahead and do something for the sake of it.
I applied for my exchange for the sake of applying because everyone applies in summer.
I applied for Europe because it's what people normally do.
What I truly wanted was Japan but I was scared because they were all either 1 or 2 slots and the term period was really bad.
I chose Netherlands not because I really wanted to go there but because I was limited due to constraints like number of slots and term period.
In the end, I led myself into the shit situation that I am in and now I find myself so unhappy I just want to pull out of exchange.
Because I didn't know what I originally wanted, I just did something for the sake of it and now I have to find a way to get out of it.
I know that the only reason why I would proceed with this exchange would be to take up the challenge and prove that I can do it, and it is not because I really want to go to Netherlands nor is it that I really will be happy living myself in a foreign land.
If I were to reapply for fall semester, I won't be guaranteed a place at all but thank goodness at least OIR told me I don't need to resubmit my academic referrals.
I don't want to bluff myself like I will be happy going on my own, I think I am just going to pull out.
I'll reapply again in fall and if I don't get it, so be it.
At least I know I didn't force myself to do something I didn't want to do.
I think I'm just going to go and whack for CAT mid terms tomorrow.
My mind has been filled with exchange thoughts, one of the worst decisions I had to make in my life.
This reminds me of the time when I made up my mind to go to NUS Real Estate and then my cousin called me up to have a long talk with me trying to convince me to come to SMU instead.
I remember crying like crazy during that conversation, so troubled by the decision that I had to make.
You know the feeling where you just go ahead and do something for the sake of it.
I applied for my exchange for the sake of applying because everyone applies in summer.
I applied for Europe because it's what people normally do.
What I truly wanted was Japan but I was scared because they were all either 1 or 2 slots and the term period was really bad.
I chose Netherlands not because I really wanted to go there but because I was limited due to constraints like number of slots and term period.
In the end, I led myself into the shit situation that I am in and now I find myself so unhappy I just want to pull out of exchange.
Because I didn't know what I originally wanted, I just did something for the sake of it and now I have to find a way to get out of it.
I know that the only reason why I would proceed with this exchange would be to take up the challenge and prove that I can do it, and it is not because I really want to go to Netherlands nor is it that I really will be happy living myself in a foreign land.
If I were to reapply for fall semester, I won't be guaranteed a place at all but thank goodness at least OIR told me I don't need to resubmit my academic referrals.
I don't want to bluff myself like I will be happy going on my own, I think I am just going to pull out.
I'll reapply again in fall and if I don't get it, so be it.
At least I know I didn't force myself to do something I didn't want to do.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Today was a good day.
Had lunch with Zhao Loong and Jin Dao at Ah Loy Thai.
Last installment of our Wednesday lunches, bon voyage Zhao Loong (:
3 people, 5 dishes, we were STUFFED. (like a teddy bear hehe)
Continued to test our limits with some Tom's Palette before heading to school.
Unfortunately, cramps got the better of me and I ended up rushing home and knocking out on the bed to fight the cramps.
Woke up past 8 boo.
Then had one of the best suppers ever.
Went to pick up Michelle Lai at Greenwood after her work then spontaneity brought us towards Upper Serangoon Road, then we begin heading down Bartley Road and we decided to pop by Jin Dao's house and ask him if he wanted to hop into the yellow submarine and join us for supper.
First up we decided to head for frog porridge.
Because 1) we wanted something filling 2) I was in the mood to try something I never tried before.
So we set off and we realised, THE SHOP CLOSED DOWN BOOOOOOOOOO.
Neh mind. I give Jin Dao another chance to recommend me something.
So off to Serangoon Central for some fish soup.
Store closed :'(
Got myself some signature ba chor mee instead. Quite meh but it's ok.
Then we decided to try out this little chinese desert shop that we passed by while walking from the car park.
It's run by an elderly couple and the deserts are extremely affordable with a wide variety offered.
We got ourselves some Bubor Hitam and Yam Paste and the elderly lady was extremelyyyyyyyyyyy kind and helpful.
We thanked her for the deserts and water and told her to go home soon to rest, then she shared that by the time she reaches home it'll be 2am :(
Dropped off Jin Dao at his place and headed to Michelle's.
It was nice talking to you in the carpark, thanks for the advice my dear friend :D
After all these years, I am glad to still have you in my life.
Reached home at like 130am.
Didn't get any work done at all the whole day but today has been a good day and helped to refresh my spirits.
Thank you my friends.
And to end of this beautiful night,
Had lunch with Zhao Loong and Jin Dao at Ah Loy Thai.
Last installment of our Wednesday lunches, bon voyage Zhao Loong (:
3 people, 5 dishes, we were STUFFED. (like a teddy bear hehe)
Continued to test our limits with some Tom's Palette before heading to school.
Unfortunately, cramps got the better of me and I ended up rushing home and knocking out on the bed to fight the cramps.
Woke up past 8 boo.
Then had one of the best suppers ever.
Went to pick up Michelle Lai at Greenwood after her work then spontaneity brought us towards Upper Serangoon Road, then we begin heading down Bartley Road and we decided to pop by Jin Dao's house and ask him if he wanted to hop into the yellow submarine and join us for supper.
First up we decided to head for frog porridge.
Because 1) we wanted something filling 2) I was in the mood to try something I never tried before.
So we set off and we realised, THE SHOP CLOSED DOWN BOOOOOOOOOO.
Neh mind. I give Jin Dao another chance to recommend me something.
So off to Serangoon Central for some fish soup.
Store closed :'(
Got myself some signature ba chor mee instead. Quite meh but it's ok.
Then we decided to try out this little chinese desert shop that we passed by while walking from the car park.
It's run by an elderly couple and the deserts are extremely affordable with a wide variety offered.
We got ourselves some Bubor Hitam and Yam Paste and the elderly lady was extremelyyyyyyyyyyy kind and helpful.
We thanked her for the deserts and water and told her to go home soon to rest, then she shared that by the time she reaches home it'll be 2am :(
Dropped off Jin Dao at his place and headed to Michelle's.
It was nice talking to you in the carpark, thanks for the advice my dear friend :D
After all these years, I am glad to still have you in my life.
Reached home at like 130am.
Didn't get any work done at all the whole day but today has been a good day and helped to refresh my spirits.
Thank you my friends.
And to end of this beautiful night,
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
I think this is why I like Japan.
Beautiful scenery.
Good Music.
And this incredibly kind and supportive community spirit.
Although you always read about how the Japanese community is actually very cold and there is a strong case of urban isolation, I feel that they have proven that there have it in them to be united, especially in times of crisis.
I don't know exactly why do I have such a strong interest and I'm not sure if this connection I feel is exactly justified but it's undeniable that Japan has a special place in my heart.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Friday, September 16, 2011
1) I hate being accused of something I didn't do.
2) I hate it when someone else who doesn't understand the situation butts in.
You really don't know when to stop do you.
You think it's very funny but seriously, what's your damn problem.
I am pissed at the same time I'm very disappointed, what an insensitive person.
I am trying really hard to control my feelings, which is why I have to resort to letting it out here.
2) I hate it when someone else who doesn't understand the situation butts in.
You really don't know when to stop do you.
You think it's very funny but seriously, what's your damn problem.
I am pissed at the same time I'm very disappointed, what an insensitive person.
I am trying really hard to control my feelings, which is why I have to resort to letting it out here.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
Sunday, September 11, 2011
I just had this feeling of pure happiness and joy seeing my friend get attached.
(I'm quite surprised at myself HAHA.)
But I think I recognise what is real joy when I see it and it influenced me immediately!
I'm so so so proud and happy for you, I think you got the right one this time (:
May the love between the two of you grow with time and stay strong!
(I'm quite surprised at myself HAHA.)
But I think I recognise what is real joy when I see it and it influenced me immediately!
I'm so so so proud and happy for you, I think you got the right one this time (:
May the love between the two of you grow with time and stay strong!
Saturday, September 10, 2011
I need to declare my love for Foals.
Definitely going into my top favourite bands.
Just based on talent, I give it to them for being a bunch of young english lads writing these awesome tunes and playing so well live.
From the epic emotional Spanish Sahara to sexy tunes like Miami and catchy loud songs like Balloons, I can pretty much turn to them during any mood.
Definitely they are not known for writing meaningful songs that tug at your heartstrings, but I'll leave it to other bands to do that for me (:
And when you have a cute drummer, I give you bonus points hehe.
What an acoustic version, love justified <3
Definitely going into my top favourite bands.
Just based on talent, I give it to them for being a bunch of young english lads writing these awesome tunes and playing so well live.
From the epic emotional Spanish Sahara to sexy tunes like Miami and catchy loud songs like Balloons, I can pretty much turn to them during any mood.
Definitely they are not known for writing meaningful songs that tug at your heartstrings, but I'll leave it to other bands to do that for me (:
And when you have a cute drummer, I give you bonus points hehe.
What an acoustic version, love justified <3
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
Sunday, September 04, 2011
Went for an aunt's wake a couple of nights ago.
She has been battling cancer for a few years along with her husband and only son.
Her son is my age, just turned 21 this year.
While I was helping out at the wake and spoke to him during some moments of the funeral, he seemed to have accepted it so well and had a strong look on his face the whole time.
Since I was young, losing my parents was always my biggest worry.
As an only child with a relatively large age gap from my parents, there was a high probability that I would be on my own in this world at a young age.
I would get these moments where I just panic while I am alone at home and my parents are out and the thought would cross my mind like 'why are they not back yet?', 'what if there was a car accident?' and hurry call them to check.
It is an extremely unnerving feeling that I really hate.
I can only pray for my parents' health and fortune, may they be safe and sound for many years to come, till they see me married and maybe even see their grandchildren.
And when they do pass on, I pray that it would be a natural and painless one.
She has been battling cancer for a few years along with her husband and only son.
Her son is my age, just turned 21 this year.
While I was helping out at the wake and spoke to him during some moments of the funeral, he seemed to have accepted it so well and had a strong look on his face the whole time.
Since I was young, losing my parents was always my biggest worry.
As an only child with a relatively large age gap from my parents, there was a high probability that I would be on my own in this world at a young age.
I would get these moments where I just panic while I am alone at home and my parents are out and the thought would cross my mind like 'why are they not back yet?', 'what if there was a car accident?' and hurry call them to check.
It is an extremely unnerving feeling that I really hate.
I can only pray for my parents' health and fortune, may they be safe and sound for many years to come, till they see me married and maybe even see their grandchildren.
And when they do pass on, I pray that it would be a natural and painless one.
Thursday, September 01, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
As much as it is overplayed, Jie Kou is still one of my all time favorite songs from Jay Chou.
And as I sit on the bus and look around at the people and the couples, I see that some are not even talking to each other, looking away from each other and into space or busy on their respective phones.
I realized that I don't want a relationship that turns stale.
I don't want a love that will become a mere habit or even worse a chore.
But at least I know that I am not someone who will stay in a relationship for the sake of it and settle for something else so I feel a sense of assurance. :)
And as I sit on the bus and look around at the people and the couples, I see that some are not even talking to each other, looking away from each other and into space or busy on their respective phones.
I realized that I don't want a relationship that turns stale.
I don't want a love that will become a mere habit or even worse a chore.
But at least I know that I am not someone who will stay in a relationship for the sake of it and settle for something else so I feel a sense of assurance. :)
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
Sunday, August 07, 2011
I am in love with Solanin's soundtrack.
I foresee this being a soundtrack that I would be putting on repeat for quite a while just like Jay Chou's Secret's soundtrack.
Simple yet beautiful guitar tunes accompanied with piano melodies, adorable xylophone bits, soothing vocals (in surprisingly, English) and an appropriate touch of rock.
Wonderfully filmed movie, wonderfully composed soundtrack and a wonderfully crafted message to convey to the audience.
Perfect for a lovely Sunday afternoon.
I foresee this being a soundtrack that I would be putting on repeat for quite a while just like Jay Chou's Secret's soundtrack.
Simple yet beautiful guitar tunes accompanied with piano melodies, adorable xylophone bits, soothing vocals (in surprisingly, English) and an appropriate touch of rock.
Wonderfully filmed movie, wonderfully composed soundtrack and a wonderfully crafted message to convey to the audience.
Perfect for a lovely Sunday afternoon.
Monday, August 01, 2011
What a dream come true to catch The Cranberries live in concert :)
And also for them to play so many songs from Bury the hatchet and Wake up and smell the coffee.
The lyrics just came flowing out of my mouth <3 (I probably screamed them but they seemed like whispers against the booming music)
Dolores is such a goddess and the band is so damn awesome live just as I expected :)
All these years have not eroded their musical talent and I'm sure they will be producing more great music for many years to come (new album out January say YAY)
They will always have a special place in my heart and be one of my all time favorite bands <3
And also for them to play so many songs from Bury the hatchet and Wake up and smell the coffee.
The lyrics just came flowing out of my mouth <3 (I probably screamed them but they seemed like whispers against the booming music)
Dolores is such a goddess and the band is so damn awesome live just as I expected :)
All these years have not eroded their musical talent and I'm sure they will be producing more great music for many years to come (new album out January say YAY)
They will always have a special place in my heart and be one of my all time favorite bands <3
Sunday, July 31, 2011
An education has merely reinforced my very practical and sometimes sceptical view on things.
I daydream but at the end of the day I know what still needs to be done.
There is a foundation that needs to be laid before you can venture off if you wish to.
But I guess if a seemingly golden opportunity comes along, I wonder how many of us will go for it.
But nice song (:
I daydream but at the end of the day I know what still needs to be done.
There is a foundation that needs to be laid before you can venture off if you wish to.
But I guess if a seemingly golden opportunity comes along, I wonder how many of us will go for it.
But nice song (:
There is just something special about film.
You go around collecting shots from different places of different things and with different people.
You aren't sure how exactly the photos turn out and there's this excitement that grows inside.
And after you have developed your photos, you look back on the memories that you have managed compile in one roll.
(:
You go around collecting shots from different places of different things and with different people.
You aren't sure how exactly the photos turn out and there's this excitement that grows inside.
And after you have developed your photos, you look back on the memories that you have managed compile in one roll.
(:
Thursday, July 28, 2011
And one Korean drama with my allllllllll time favourite Lee Dong Wook.
Normally I die within the first episode when I was Korean dramas cause they are like so naggy, dramatic and full of cheesy lines but this one ain't so bad.
I foresee this drama becoming another My Name is Kim Sam Soon or My Girl YAY.
Monday, July 25, 2011
As the clock strikes 12 and I turn the supposedly big 21, I'm listening to Asian Kung Fu Generatoon's Solanin.
A song about growing up and growing out of your old younger self, a song about self-discovery and making a conscious effort to change and improve.
That is what I want to achieve as I grow older.
I want to be more mindful, learn, mature and gain wisdom.
I also want to be a righteousness and kind person and I wish to never veer off track or lose myself as I enter the adult working world that can be so cold and cruel.
I want to love and be loved, I want to have a happy family and a child that will be a good and sincere person.
I also wish for my parents to stay healthy and happy and I am
grateful for being such fantastic parents despite their humanely flaws.
Wow this is getting a little out of topic.
But well happy birthday to myself :)
21 is just a number but I am definitely at a period of my life where I feel more like an adult than ever before :)
A song about growing up and growing out of your old younger self, a song about self-discovery and making a conscious effort to change and improve.
That is what I want to achieve as I grow older.
I want to be more mindful, learn, mature and gain wisdom.
I also want to be a righteousness and kind person and I wish to never veer off track or lose myself as I enter the adult working world that can be so cold and cruel.
I want to love and be loved, I want to have a happy family and a child that will be a good and sincere person.
I also wish for my parents to stay healthy and happy and I am
grateful for being such fantastic parents despite their humanely flaws.
Wow this is getting a little out of topic.
But well happy birthday to myself :)
21 is just a number but I am definitely at a period of my life where I feel more like an adult than ever before :)
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
You know sometimes it just pops into your head that you really want to hear a song.
A specific song that you love but just have not been listening to for a long time.
So you scroll through your music looking for that old neglected tune and when you play it, you just can't stop listening to it.
I have been listening to Damien Rice's Elephant on repeat for days and I can't stop.
I love it that he breaks my heart <3
A specific song that you love but just have not been listening to for a long time.
So you scroll through your music looking for that old neglected tune and when you play it, you just can't stop listening to it.
I have been listening to Damien Rice's Elephant on repeat for days and I can't stop.
I love it that he breaks my heart <3
Friday, July 08, 2011
I got to the second round of interviews for the HR scholarship.
This time round, it's 3 males vs the previous interviews with 3 females.
And it is all CEO level vs Director level in the previous round.
FREAKING NERVOUS.
Don't know what to expect sia.
These days I've just been so busy.
From handball to OCIP to scholarship preparation, finding it hard to catch my breath and have some time for myself.
I have a feeling the next term is going to be like that too but I will persevere.
GO GO GO.
On a side note, many nice new Japanese dramas coming out YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
This time round, it's 3 males vs the previous interviews with 3 females.
And it is all CEO level vs Director level in the previous round.
FREAKING NERVOUS.
Don't know what to expect sia.
These days I've just been so busy.
From handball to OCIP to scholarship preparation, finding it hard to catch my breath and have some time for myself.
I have a feeling the next term is going to be like that too but I will persevere.
GO GO GO.
On a side note, many nice new Japanese dramas coming out YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Life is strange.
Sometimes you find yourself in situations and environments that you never ever expected yourself to be in.
Nothing is as unpredictable as life.
And so, now I find myself shortlisted for the National HR Scholarship with CapitaLand.
Interview next Friday and I don't know what to expect.
Never applied for a scholarship before nor have I been to a scholarship interview, I am sure it'll be different from a normal internship interview.
I have already failed one internship interview so this is nerve-wrecking stuff for me right now.
My grades are also not fantastic, my track record is not fantastic, I am not fantastic and I don't know how am I going to get the scholarship but I will give it my best shot and we will see how it goes.
I will leave it to the hands of fate like I always do.
I wanted to apply as an attempt to find a direction for me to head towards from this point forward.
So if I get it, that would be a big help but if I don't, at least I tried to do something about my life (:
And back to Hana and Alice.
I randomly felt like watching it today.
It's a queer Japanese movie I remember seeing when I was in secondary school, barely remember much of it and I only recall feeling like this was such a weird dreamy movie but hey years later, it suddenly pops out in my memory and I felt like watching it again.
Sometimes you find yourself in situations and environments that you never ever expected yourself to be in.
Nothing is as unpredictable as life.
And so, now I find myself shortlisted for the National HR Scholarship with CapitaLand.
Interview next Friday and I don't know what to expect.
Never applied for a scholarship before nor have I been to a scholarship interview, I am sure it'll be different from a normal internship interview.
I have already failed one internship interview so this is nerve-wrecking stuff for me right now.
My grades are also not fantastic, my track record is not fantastic, I am not fantastic and I don't know how am I going to get the scholarship but I will give it my best shot and we will see how it goes.
I will leave it to the hands of fate like I always do.
I wanted to apply as an attempt to find a direction for me to head towards from this point forward.
So if I get it, that would be a big help but if I don't, at least I tried to do something about my life (:
And back to Hana and Alice.
I randomly felt like watching it today.
It's a queer Japanese movie I remember seeing when I was in secondary school, barely remember much of it and I only recall feeling like this was such a weird dreamy movie but hey years later, it suddenly pops out in my memory and I felt like watching it again.
Right.
Whenever I get so affected and I just want to get things off my chest, I forget whatever else I said before and did not even use my capital letters.
Very often I find myself always forgetting the little promises I make to myself.
I injured my arms during training.
Fucking stupid really.
I wanted to challenge myself and push myself, properly doing the whole routine with Kailing and in the end, I strained my arms.
Thought it was no big deal and went for training again on Saturday.
Over-exerted and now it's just fucking painful.
Never felt such pain in my arms, ever.
Can't brush my teeth proper, can't even take off my shirt without it hurting like fuck and can't even eat properly.
CAN'T EVEN EAT PROPERLY, OH THE HORRORSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS :'(
*Michelle Lai, remember breakfast at Provence? I was in pain trying to put the damn Egg Toast in my mouth :(
But still, although it hurts like fuck and I can't stop saying fuck, I know i gave it my all.
I did every single step of the routine properly and without cheating.
I am proud of Kailing and myself for completing the routine with integrity and determination and now I just hope my body will stop being so damn weak and recover NAOZ.
In the time being, I will laze around the house, drink from a straw cause I can't even lift up a cup to my lips without cursing and read my book.
I just looked out my window and realised today is such a beautiful day, a perfect day to listen to The Cranberries.
One of those sunny days where the sky is a clear blue, the clouds are opaque, the trees are extra green, the wind is blowing my curtains and I am sipping on ice cold drink.
This reminds me of my secondary days, when there was a period nearing exams where I would go home every day, pop in The Cranberries into my cd player and take a nap in my school uniform.
Lazy habits are the best habits imo.
And today I felt like a little kid again, my parents had to take care of me, check on me and bring me to the sensei. I feel embarassed but nonetheless still very grateful. <3
Whenever I get so affected and I just want to get things off my chest, I forget whatever else I said before and did not even use my capital letters.
Very often I find myself always forgetting the little promises I make to myself.
I injured my arms during training.
Fucking stupid really.
I wanted to challenge myself and push myself, properly doing the whole routine with Kailing and in the end, I strained my arms.
Thought it was no big deal and went for training again on Saturday.
Over-exerted and now it's just fucking painful.
Never felt such pain in my arms, ever.
Can't brush my teeth proper, can't even take off my shirt without it hurting like fuck and can't even eat properly.
CAN'T EVEN EAT PROPERLY, OH THE HORRORSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS :'(
*Michelle Lai, remember breakfast at Provence? I was in pain trying to put the damn Egg Toast in my mouth :(
But still, although it hurts like fuck and I can't stop saying fuck, I know i gave it my all.
I did every single step of the routine properly and without cheating.
I am proud of Kailing and myself for completing the routine with integrity and determination and now I just hope my body will stop being so damn weak and recover NAOZ.
In the time being, I will laze around the house, drink from a straw cause I can't even lift up a cup to my lips without cursing and read my book.
I just looked out my window and realised today is such a beautiful day, a perfect day to listen to The Cranberries.
One of those sunny days where the sky is a clear blue, the clouds are opaque, the trees are extra green, the wind is blowing my curtains and I am sipping on ice cold drink.
This reminds me of my secondary days, when there was a period nearing exams where I would go home every day, pop in The Cranberries into my cd player and take a nap in my school uniform.
Lazy habits are the best habits imo.
And today I felt like a little kid again, my parents had to take care of me, check on me and bring me to the sensei. I feel embarassed but nonetheless still very grateful. <3
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Ello.
Ok I realised I am always too damn lazy to type properly so from now onwards, I shall type with proper capital letters.
I realised while having done report after report in SMU that I am not entirely sure when do I use capital letters.
BIG UH OH.
So yes, this is the start of a new good habit.
Been just living life one day at a time.
Concentrating on work during the weekdays and then concentrating on enjoying during the weekends.
Clocking way too little sleep for my liking but I like to feel like I am utilising my time to the fullest (:
And now just for gushing:
Impossible project.
HQ in Austria, factory in Netherlands.
Saved the last Polaroid production plant and sells awesome Polaroid cameras and newly created Polaroid films online.
opened a project space in Tokyo, Japan.
I WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
SO BEAUTIFULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
More reason to <3 Tokyo.
Ok I realised I am always too damn lazy to type properly so from now onwards, I shall type with proper capital letters.
I realised while having done report after report in SMU that I am not entirely sure when do I use capital letters.
BIG UH OH.
So yes, this is the start of a new good habit.
Been just living life one day at a time.
Concentrating on work during the weekdays and then concentrating on enjoying during the weekends.
Clocking way too little sleep for my liking but I like to feel like I am utilising my time to the fullest (:
And now just for gushing:
Impossible project.
HQ in Austria, factory in Netherlands.
Saved the last Polaroid production plant and sells awesome Polaroid cameras and newly created Polaroid films online.
opened a project space in Tokyo, Japan.
I WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
SO BEAUTIFULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
More reason to <3 Tokyo.
Sunday, June 05, 2011
when you read, you reflect and you question.
and i am at a point in my life where i can't help but question my future.
my future career-wise, love-wise, family-wise and also on a much deeper and personal level.
i honestly don't know what to expect and because i don't have any lofty ambitions nor concrete goals, i feel as though i am floating in an ocean and just being swept wherever by the waves.
all along i have always unconsciously yet loyally held on to the belief that everything will work out alright in the end but now that i am older and closer to being pushed out into the working world, i realised that clinging on to such a thought can be just plain silly.
time to make your own decisions, put in the extra effort and think long term.
as i write this i realised i am torn between being idealistic and being realistic.
i feel like i have to do what i am supposed to do, go out and get a proper job and work for years and years.
and yet, i feel like there is no way i am going to be satisfied and there's a much deeper level of happiness and self-fulfillment that i need to ultimately obtain.
how am i going to do so, i have no idea and i worry that i will be like those characters in books where a sort of mid-life crisis hits and you realised that your life is meaningless.
ok crap i think i have been too much murakami but as much as it troubles me, i know its the right kind of thing to put more thought into.
and i am at a point in my life where i can't help but question my future.
my future career-wise, love-wise, family-wise and also on a much deeper and personal level.
i honestly don't know what to expect and because i don't have any lofty ambitions nor concrete goals, i feel as though i am floating in an ocean and just being swept wherever by the waves.
all along i have always unconsciously yet loyally held on to the belief that everything will work out alright in the end but now that i am older and closer to being pushed out into the working world, i realised that clinging on to such a thought can be just plain silly.
time to make your own decisions, put in the extra effort and think long term.
as i write this i realised i am torn between being idealistic and being realistic.
i feel like i have to do what i am supposed to do, go out and get a proper job and work for years and years.
and yet, i feel like there is no way i am going to be satisfied and there's a much deeper level of happiness and self-fulfillment that i need to ultimately obtain.
how am i going to do so, i have no idea and i worry that i will be like those characters in books where a sort of mid-life crisis hits and you realised that your life is meaningless.
ok crap i think i have been too much murakami but as much as it troubles me, i know its the right kind of thing to put more thought into.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
looking back at my pictures from all the way since year 1 of uni, it kind of hit me.
did i lose myself along the way?
i think i've come to a point where i think too much, i try to predict too much, i try to plan my actions too much.
i remember when i used to take on whatever came my way with this enthusiasm that was oblivious to consequences.
and i was so much happier then i think.
so maybe it's time to be myself again (:
did i lose myself along the way?
i think i've come to a point where i think too much, i try to predict too much, i try to plan my actions too much.
i remember when i used to take on whatever came my way with this enthusiasm that was oblivious to consequences.
and i was so much happier then i think.
so maybe it's time to be myself again (:
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Sunday, May 08, 2011
And work starts tomorrow.
I don't know why but I am feeling quite nervous, way more than I did during my temp job at Citibank.
But we shall see how it goes (:
And all employees' hand phones need to be left at security because they are afraid the radiation will get to them.
So no phone with me at all I bet I will be very efficient :D
And while I enjoy my last few hours of freedom, I am online being a fan girl.
I have not been such a fan girl since my JC days with Yiting.
This time it's a Korean boy band- Beast.
HEHEHEHEHE.
Why they so good looking, can dance so well, can sing so well and all around my ageeeeeeeeee.
Especially Lee Ki Kwang <3
Saranghaeyo wor HAHAHHA.
I don't know why but I am feeling quite nervous, way more than I did during my temp job at Citibank.
But we shall see how it goes (:
And all employees' hand phones need to be left at security because they are afraid the radiation will get to them.
So no phone with me at all I bet I will be very efficient :D
And while I enjoy my last few hours of freedom, I am online being a fan girl.
I have not been such a fan girl since my JC days with Yiting.
This time it's a Korean boy band- Beast.
HEHEHEHEHE.
Why they so good looking, can dance so well, can sing so well and all around my ageeeeeeeeee.
Especially Lee Ki Kwang <3
Saranghaeyo wor HAHAHHA.
Tuesday, May 03, 2011
Because I always have an irresistible urge to share things that I like yet it breaks my heart when people don't like it too.
So, here is where a blog comes handy and I can consolidate all the wonderful things I came across for my own viewing pleasure :D
To Kill a King - "Maps" (Acoustic Cover) by To Kill A King
What a cover of Maps <3
So, here is where a blog comes handy and I can consolidate all the wonderful things I came across for my own viewing pleasure :D
To Kill a King - "Maps" (Acoustic Cover) by To Kill A King
What a cover of Maps <3
Monday, May 02, 2011
Sunday, May 01, 2011
レミオロメン ３月９日 ~ending ver~ 『LIVE』
Art is the product or process of deliberately arranging items (often with symbolic significance) in a way that influences and affects one or more of the senses, emotions, and intellect. It encompasses a diverse range of human activities, creations, and modes of expression, including music, literature, film, photography, sculpture, and paintings.
I love Japanese Art then.
There's just something about the Japanese and I don't believe I'm giving them more credit than they deserve.
Got back from the 'Lands of Sinful Food'- Taiwan and Hong Kong yesterday.
Drank more milk tea than water HEHE.
On my way back from Hong Kong, I suddenly had a strong urge to buy a book to read on the plane ride back.
By the way I love plane rides, especially when it's a night flight. When the lights are turned off and everyone around me are asleep, I love it when I have my little reading light turned on and it's like I have created my own little world while still having the people by my side.
So I set off in search of a book and I knew exactly what I was looking for and I finally found in at the FIFTH bookshop I went to in the airport TSK.
There's just something about Haruki Murakami.
Maybe it's the Japanese blood.
But I have read other books by Japanese authors that I have not liked as much as his.
There's something very simple, honest, thoughtful and effortlessly elegant in his words.
And he sure knows how to write chapter endings that just leave you dying for more more more now now now.
I am only a few chapters through the thicker-than-a-hamburger The Wind-up Bird Chronicles but I have a feeling I am going to really enjoy this book.
I don't know what to exactly, as always of his books, but even if the ending does not meet my expectations I know at least I will at least enjoy the process of reading very very much.
Friday, April 22, 2011
going overseas with a head full of worries.
worries about internship, about exchange, about what mods to take next term.
after supper i got home and did some last min packing, there was 3 hours left to catch some sleep but i struggled to keep my mind off things.
like that how to enjoy sia.
but seriously what bad bad bad timing, how am i going to settle my internship now when ill only be back in sg on 30 april.
but ok, things are supposed to work out (right michelle?) so ill just hang in there.
ontrac better send my applications in!!
worries about internship, about exchange, about what mods to take next term.
after supper i got home and did some last min packing, there was 3 hours left to catch some sleep but i struggled to keep my mind off things.
like that how to enjoy sia.
but seriously what bad bad bad timing, how am i going to settle my internship now when ill only be back in sg on 30 april.
but ok, things are supposed to work out (right michelle?) so ill just hang in there.
ontrac better send my applications in!!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
corinne oh corinne.
what a woman.
you sing with all your heart, you sing about your hurt and your happiness so honestly, you look like a woman wise beyond her years who has loved, lost and learned without regrets.
i remember this was the first song i liked off the album.
i can proudly say i love every single song of that album, it will always have a special place in my heart.
Someone to love is bigger than your pride's worth.
It's bigger than the pain you got for all it hurts, outruns all of the sadness.
Monday, April 18, 2011
Monday, April 04, 2011
Friday, April 01, 2011
if there was a g-spot for music, spanish sahara sure hits it every single damn freaking time.
heard the best live version of spanish sahara from their daytrotter sessions <3<3<3
i think they really going becoming one of my all time favourite bands.
not to mention they are freaking awesome live, in the ranks of muse for me <3
heard the best live version of spanish sahara from their daytrotter sessions <3<3<3
i think they really going becoming one of my all time favourite bands.
not to mention they are freaking awesome live, in the ranks of muse for me <3
Monday, March 28, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
finished norwegian wood, glad that i ended up watching this in the middle of the night i think it really suits the feel of the movie.
thumbs up.
my favourite part about it was the ending, it respected the open ended ending that haruki marukami wrote but yet guided many lost and wondering readers towards the likely explanation.
but it was one long movie, my heart almost couldnt take it.
time for me to go read the book again (:
thumbs up.
my favourite part about it was the ending, it respected the open ended ending that haruki marukami wrote but yet guided many lost and wondering readers towards the likely explanation.
but it was one long movie, my heart almost couldnt take it.
time for me to go read the book again (:
Sunday, March 20, 2011
koukuhaku.
one fucking twisted movie.
but with damn impressive and artistic cinematography that makes you go omg how did they manage to capture such scenes and a good soundtrack (it was the last place i was expecting to hear fantasy by the xx wow)
actually, ive been quite disappointed with the movies that i have wanting to watch for so long: tokyo sonata, akunin and kouhaku.
but nonetheless, japanese movies are still my favourite (:
one fucking twisted movie.
but with damn impressive and artistic cinematography that makes you go omg how did they manage to capture such scenes and a good soundtrack (it was the last place i was expecting to hear fantasy by the xx wow)
actually, ive been quite disappointed with the movies that i have wanting to watch for so long: tokyo sonata, akunin and kouhaku.
but nonetheless, japanese movies are still my favourite (:
Saturday, March 19, 2011
you know those questions celebrities always get asking them 'which part of you are you most satisfied/disatisfied with'.
well im not a celebrity but im going to answer one myself.
i am fucking dissatisfied with my teeth :(
seriously if there is a teeth god in this world, why have you been so fucking against me since i was born. :( :( :(
first got both my front teeth knocked out, had gum covering the new teeth that tried to grow out afterwards, extra canine tooth growing on top of my other innocent tooth and then braces to push down that damn canine and then the braces failed to make my teeth straight at all :( :( :(
ok back to reading ramen blogs woohoo :D
well im not a celebrity but im going to answer one myself.
i am fucking dissatisfied with my teeth :(
seriously if there is a teeth god in this world, why have you been so fucking against me since i was born. :( :( :(
first got both my front teeth knocked out, had gum covering the new teeth that tried to grow out afterwards, extra canine tooth growing on top of my other innocent tooth and then braces to push down that damn canine and then the braces failed to make my teeth straight at all :( :( :(
ok back to reading ramen blogs woohoo :D
Thursday, March 17, 2011
social media is fun and interactive.
it gives you an outlet to share your thoughts and update your statuses.
but at the end of the day, what channels are left for you to put up anything private.
there are the things you put up with the intent to share with your friends and then there are the things you dont want to tell everyone.
maybe the only way to get something off your chest while still keeping it private would be just talking to yourself in your head.
its 11.39pm now.
ive got a morning class tmr and i hate getting little sleep.
i have a 5% quiz tmr and i have not started studying.
the textbook is flipped open in front of me but between sleep and studying, sleep > studying.
well ok i shall read for an hour and then sleep.
the national will accompany me.
this band has successfully sung its way into my heart.
when i first saw this video, immediately i knew this song was going straight up to the top <3
and at the beginning, matt went 'this song is for carine'.
aww matt why are you so sweet and go about wearing your heart on your sleeve <3
sorry terrible love but about today is just so heartwrenching.
and two more songs to add to my favourite the national songs: think you can wait and runaway.
just 4 more days.
why.
my heart couldnt take it come back ok?
pinky promise.
now back to performance evaluation and management... zzz...
it gives you an outlet to share your thoughts and update your statuses.
but at the end of the day, what channels are left for you to put up anything private.
there are the things you put up with the intent to share with your friends and then there are the things you dont want to tell everyone.
maybe the only way to get something off your chest while still keeping it private would be just talking to yourself in your head.
its 11.39pm now.
ive got a morning class tmr and i hate getting little sleep.
i have a 5% quiz tmr and i have not started studying.
the textbook is flipped open in front of me but between sleep and studying, sleep > studying.
well ok i shall read for an hour and then sleep.
the national will accompany me.
this band has successfully sung its way into my heart.
when i first saw this video, immediately i knew this song was going straight up to the top <3
and at the beginning, matt went 'this song is for carine'.
aww matt why are you so sweet and go about wearing your heart on your sleeve <3
sorry terrible love but about today is just so heartwrenching.
and two more songs to add to my favourite the national songs: think you can wait and runaway.
just 4 more days.
why.
my heart couldnt take it come back ok?
pinky promise.
now back to performance evaluation and management... zzz...
Sunday, March 13, 2011
i dont normally read the papers but today when i saw that the quake and tsunami was on the front page, i decided to take a look.
page after page of articles on how things seem to be getting worse for japan.
after the killer twin combo, now there's a huge threat of radiation leakage which can lead to diseases and birth defects for the future generation.
why oh why it breaks my heart :(
and damn tsunami, you took the national after from me!!
3 more days and i would have seen them live! :( x2
but well, i was youtubeing as i normally do and i saw new remioromen live videos being uploaded (remioromen is my all time favourite japanese band)
and wow this video is like an explosion of energy and its a very pick-me-up song.
so positive and enthusiastic, so much love from the crowd.
i wouldnt expect anything less from the japanese.
japan, you can do it <3
page after page of articles on how things seem to be getting worse for japan.
after the killer twin combo, now there's a huge threat of radiation leakage which can lead to diseases and birth defects for the future generation.
why oh why it breaks my heart :(
and damn tsunami, you took the national after from me!!
3 more days and i would have seen them live! :( x2
but well, i was youtubeing as i normally do and i saw new remioromen live videos being uploaded (remioromen is my all time favourite japanese band)
and wow this video is like an explosion of energy and its a very pick-me-up song.
so positive and enthusiastic, so much love from the crowd.
i wouldnt expect anything less from the japanese.
japan, you can do it <3
omg why does it seem like im so emo when i come and see my own blog.
ok people i am actually not suicidal, its only when unhappy stuff happens then i bother to blog.
but on a lighter note, i am sunburnt.
like a freaking freshly cooked lobster.
during the past 10 weeks of school, i think the handball team has never experienced a day without being sunburnt/cao ta.
first: handball carnival at ntu
second: waikiki
third: round 2 of handball carnival at ntu
my mum was complaining to me this morning that i look like bao jing tian now :(
btw: i used to love the bao jing tian dramas (cant rmb if its hong kong or channel 8 though :/)
ok people i am actually not suicidal, its only when unhappy stuff happens then i bother to blog.
but on a lighter note, i am sunburnt.
like a freaking freshly cooked lobster.
during the past 10 weeks of school, i think the handball team has never experienced a day without being sunburnt/cao ta.
first: handball carnival at ntu
second: waikiki
third: round 2 of handball carnival at ntu
my mum was complaining to me this morning that i look like bao jing tian now :(
btw: i used to love the bao jing tian dramas (cant rmb if its hong kong or channel 8 though :/)
Sunday, March 06, 2011
sometimes i feel like whats the use of being so strong and independent.
at the end of the day, people may just think that i can handle it when actually i cant.
and it really pisses me off how some girls are so weak and attention seeking sometimes, what about that is attractive at all?!
ok i seriously need to learn how to stop projecting my own standards and values onto others, people are different and i cant expect people to think and feel the way i do.
times like these are when i feel the most lonely and different from everyone :(
at the end of the day, people may just think that i can handle it when actually i cant.
and it really pisses me off how some girls are so weak and attention seeking sometimes, what about that is attractive at all?!
ok i seriously need to learn how to stop projecting my own standards and values onto others, people are different and i cant expect people to think and feel the way i do.
times like these are when i feel the most lonely and different from everyone :(
Sunday, February 27, 2011
one of the best things ive read in a long time (:
狮子不是一个平常的星座,
狮子座的女孩抑不是平常的女孩,
她充满阳光的气息,
常喜欢指示别人,
她的家庭不一定很是富裕,
但她都是习惯了养尊处优,
她很优秀,
也习惯了掌声.
她五官或许不是很精致,
但却有一种想让人多看一眼的独到气质.
她喜欢热闹,
总会成为聚会的焦点,
她也享受孤独,
静座在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐.
或会有人对她嗤之以鼻,
她也总是一笑而过.
她总是习惯在人前伪装的很坚强.
其实她很脆弱,
也很善感,
看到电视剧情节的感人之处,
听着伤感的音乐,
或是读到了小说里的别离时刻,
她的眼泪都总是情不自禁的掉下来.
她经常会觉得孤独,
寂寞,
抑是想一个人.
她从不轻言爱,
她的爱很沉默,
那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气,
在她的心里有一到栅栏,
那就是自尊,
她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊.
如过有一个狮子女孩对你说她爱你,
那么,请你好好珍惜她.
即使你不爱她,要拒绝,也请你委婉点,
因为当有一个狮子女孩向你说她爱你的时候,
那就代表在她的心里你的分量胜过了她的自尊,
甚至,她的生命.
反之，
当他说恨你时，
那就是真的恨你了，
不必有太多的对比起，
因为当她一旦恨了，
就不会有喜欢的余地了，
就是因为她的心真的受伤了.
写给狮子座的女孩,
我欣赏狮子女孩的坚强,
欣赏她的果敢,
欣赏她的淡然.
有时我也为她而心痛,
她的心脏时常会痛,
就象那些碾转在自尊下的爱,
疼了痛了哪怕心都要死了,
也说不出口.
但我不觉得不值,
因为我也是狮子座的女孩
狮子不是一个平常的星座,
狮子座的女孩抑不是平常的女孩,
她充满阳光的气息,
常喜欢指示别人,
她的家庭不一定很是富裕,
但她都是习惯了养尊处优,
她很优秀,
也习惯了掌声.
她五官或许不是很精致,
但却有一种想让人多看一眼的独到气质.
她喜欢热闹,
总会成为聚会的焦点,
她也享受孤独,
静座在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐.
或会有人对她嗤之以鼻,
她也总是一笑而过.
她总是习惯在人前伪装的很坚强.
其实她很脆弱,
也很善感,
看到电视剧情节的感人之处,
听着伤感的音乐,
或是读到了小说里的别离时刻,
她的眼泪都总是情不自禁的掉下来.
她经常会觉得孤独,
寂寞,
抑是想一个人.
她从不轻言爱,
她的爱很沉默,
那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气,
在她的心里有一到栅栏,
那就是自尊,
她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊.
如过有一个狮子女孩对你说她爱你,
那么,请你好好珍惜她.
即使你不爱她,要拒绝,也请你委婉点,
因为当有一个狮子女孩向你说她爱你的时候,
那就代表在她的心里你的分量胜过了她的自尊,
甚至,她的生命.
反之，
当他说恨你时，
那就是真的恨你了，
不必有太多的对比起，
因为当她一旦恨了，
就不会有喜欢的余地了，
就是因为她的心真的受伤了.
写给狮子座的女孩,
我欣赏狮子女孩的坚强,
欣赏她的果敢,
欣赏她的淡然.
有时我也为她而心痛,
她的心脏时常会痛,
就象那些碾转在自尊下的爱,
疼了痛了哪怕心都要死了,
也说不出口.
但我不觉得不值,
因为我也是狮子座的女孩
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
went for laneway yesterday!
in some ways, it didnt meet my expectations but in some ways, i had loads of fun.
mostly had loads of fun dancing and singing along to FANTASTIC MUSIC <3
warpaint was up first.
I LOVE THEM, THEY ARE TOO AWESOME.
one of the best girl bands around? :D
girl power hehehe!
but the crowd was like not reacting to them at all? WTF MAN PEOPLE.
maybe they should perform at night, the atmosphere would be much more suitable for their music.
but the girls were great on stage, enjoying themselves on stage nonetheless.
my favourite song from warpaint set would be beetles, 10x better live damn shiok :D
ladyhawke was next, i sat down and didnt bother.
beach house was after that, moved slightly more in front but i think they are not festival music.
better off in some intimate setting like esplanade!
deerhunter was 4th.
AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
performing live really gives their music bonus points, their music is like a build up of magical full sounds enveloping you hehe.
and when my favourite nothing ever happened kicked in, SHIOK MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.
and a very polite band!
holyfuck was good just as i expected but it really blew my mind that it sounded so good and so shiok!
maybe it was like the good sound system or smth but holy fuck sure knows how to produce good good good music to get us enjoying ourselves :D
then we skipped !!! for dinner :x
came back for yesayer, and the whole time i was just waiting for them to end and for foals to come on :x
and then FOALSSSSSSSSSS.
BEST. PERFORMANCE. OF. THE. NIGHT.
FREAKING LOVE THEM <3
every single song they played was awesome.
best songs were probably cassius and balloons, got the crowd going crazyyyyyyyyyy.
got to hear my spanish sahara <3
but whats up with singaporeans, too lazy to sing along or what tsk HAHA.
and the night ended with temper trap!
some bits were abit boring, they had veryyyyyyyyyy long transitions.
but of course if your songs are good, it makes up for everything :D
fader and down river got the crowd going the most and love lost and sweet disposition were the singalongs <3
down river was surprisingly good live, i normally skip down river when i listen to temper trap :x
and omg the lighting effects were damn awesome lah, totally made the performance even more up HAHA.
but they didnt play soldier on, COME ON MAN WHY NOT :(
whole thing ended at like 130am, drenched muddy and tired.
my jc class was playing tong xiao mahjong but i skipped that and decided to go home instead, totally knocked out in the cab HAHAHA.
ok off to catch up on work zzzzzzz
in some ways, it didnt meet my expectations but in some ways, i had loads of fun.
mostly had loads of fun dancing and singing along to FANTASTIC MUSIC <3
warpaint was up first.
I LOVE THEM, THEY ARE TOO AWESOME.
one of the best girl bands around? :D
girl power hehehe!
but the crowd was like not reacting to them at all? WTF MAN PEOPLE.
maybe they should perform at night, the atmosphere would be much more suitable for their music.
but the girls were great on stage, enjoying themselves on stage nonetheless.
my favourite song from warpaint set would be beetles, 10x better live damn shiok :D
ladyhawke was next, i sat down and didnt bother.
beach house was after that, moved slightly more in front but i think they are not festival music.
better off in some intimate setting like esplanade!
deerhunter was 4th.
AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
performing live really gives their music bonus points, their music is like a build up of magical full sounds enveloping you hehe.
and when my favourite nothing ever happened kicked in, SHIOK MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.
and a very polite band!
holyfuck was good just as i expected but it really blew my mind that it sounded so good and so shiok!
maybe it was like the good sound system or smth but holy fuck sure knows how to produce good good good music to get us enjoying ourselves :D
then we skipped !!! for dinner :x
came back for yesayer, and the whole time i was just waiting for them to end and for foals to come on :x
and then FOALSSSSSSSSSS.
BEST. PERFORMANCE. OF. THE. NIGHT.
FREAKING LOVE THEM <3
every single song they played was awesome.
best songs were probably cassius and balloons, got the crowd going crazyyyyyyyyyy.
got to hear my spanish sahara <3
but whats up with singaporeans, too lazy to sing along or what tsk HAHA.
and the night ended with temper trap!
some bits were abit boring, they had veryyyyyyyyyy long transitions.
but of course if your songs are good, it makes up for everything :D
fader and down river got the crowd going the most and love lost and sweet disposition were the singalongs <3
down river was surprisingly good live, i normally skip down river when i listen to temper trap :x
and omg the lighting effects were damn awesome lah, totally made the performance even more up HAHA.
but they didnt play soldier on, COME ON MAN WHY NOT :(
whole thing ended at like 130am, drenched muddy and tired.
my jc class was playing tong xiao mahjong but i skipped that and decided to go home instead, totally knocked out in the cab HAHAHA.
ok off to catch up on work zzzzzzz
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
yesterday, i went for the tarot card reading thing at the univantage bazaar.
i originally wasnt interested, i told myself i wont go for such things again after the retarded palm reading.
but you know how in life things always dont turn out the way you expect to.
so i got a message from yihui in the afternoon saying she went for the reading and reserved the last slot at 350pm for me.
well ok so i went.
first time going, didnt really know what questions to ask.
but i think i should record down the stuff i was told so that i can look back and be like 'wah so true' or 'wah so rubbish' HAHA.
- new people in my life may not stay, just coming and going
- there are some conflicts right now, be in with others or within myself
- some people are hiding things from me, perhaps monetary concerns
- there probably wont be anyone soon
- i am logical and fair in relationships
- relationships arent my first priority
- head over heart (i beg to differ)
- should channel my energy somewhere else and excel in that area instead
- queen of swords, ace of swords, guy carrying swords
- stable and peaceful family, perhaps boring
- page of wands: child like, likes things to be done quickly, likes a constant flow of new events, outgoing
- career will be tough in the beginning
- but i am emotional strong so ill tide through it
- bad times will end at a particular point
-
i originally wasnt interested, i told myself i wont go for such things again after the retarded palm reading.
but you know how in life things always dont turn out the way you expect to.
so i got a message from yihui in the afternoon saying she went for the reading and reserved the last slot at 350pm for me.
well ok so i went.
first time going, didnt really know what questions to ask.
but i think i should record down the stuff i was told so that i can look back and be like 'wah so true' or 'wah so rubbish' HAHA.
- new people in my life may not stay, just coming and going
- there are some conflicts right now, be in with others or within myself
- some people are hiding things from me, perhaps monetary concerns
- there probably wont be anyone soon
- i am logical and fair in relationships
- relationships arent my first priority
- head over heart (i beg to differ)
- should channel my energy somewhere else and excel in that area instead
- queen of swords, ace of swords, guy carrying swords
- stable and peaceful family, perhaps boring
- page of wands: child like, likes things to be done quickly, likes a constant flow of new events, outgoing
- career will be tough in the beginning
- but i am emotional strong so ill tide through it
- bad times will end at a particular point
-
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
all time favourite albums:
where i love the whole album from track 1 to the end and i like it as a collection.
and in no particular order,
1) the cranberries's bury the hatchet
2) imogen heap's ellipse
3) the temper trap's conditions
4) death cab for cutie's transatlancticism
5) corinne bailey rae's the sea
6) both of damien rice's 0 and 9
7) rachel yamagata's happenstance
8) travis's the boy with no name
9) the xx's xx
10) muse's black holes and revelations
wow i just went on and on.
since young ive always liked making lists, makes myself feel good. (:
where i love the whole album from track 1 to the end and i like it as a collection.
and in no particular order,
1) the cranberries's bury the hatchet
2) imogen heap's ellipse
3) the temper trap's conditions
4) death cab for cutie's transatlancticism
5) corinne bailey rae's the sea
6) both of damien rice's 0 and 9
7) rachel yamagata's happenstance
8) travis's the boy with no name
9) the xx's xx
10) muse's black holes and revelations
wow i just went on and on.
since young ive always liked making lists, makes myself feel good. (:
i think i can pretty much conclude that imogen heap's ellipse was the soundtrack of my summer.
awesome awesome album.
i practically forgot about it till i was on the plan to korea.
i was surfing through the music and i came across ellipse and listened to the album on repeat.
i remember during the days in ubc, half life, canvas and wait it out were absolute stuck in my head HAHAHA.
i think half life will probably be one of my favourite songs by imogen heap (:
awesome awesome album.
i practically forgot about it till i was on the plan to korea.
i was surfing through the music and i came across ellipse and listened to the album on repeat.
i remember during the days in ubc, half life, canvas and wait it out were absolute stuck in my head HAHAHA.
i think half life will probably be one of my favourite songs by imogen heap (:
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
i will stay strong and independent through trying times.
because i know things will be good and i wont be denied from the happiness i deserve.
and i need to stay grounded and remind myself that all i need is simple happiness, nothing more nothing complicated.
but sometimes, i cant help but feel lonely.
in a much much much greater sense.
but that's not to take the smile off my face, or the laughter from mouth, or the strength from my heart and mind (:
because i know things will be good and i wont be denied from the happiness i deserve.
and i need to stay grounded and remind myself that all i need is simple happiness, nothing more nothing complicated.
but sometimes, i cant help but feel lonely.
in a much much much greater sense.
but that's not to take the smile off my face, or the laughter from mouth, or the strength from my heart and mind (: