wowzzzzzzzzzz.
stomach infection (stomach flu?)
my absolutely favourite when i can be out there going vivo and sentosa with yihui and going holland v with qian.
ABSOLUTELY SPLENDID.
but here i am at home for the second day in a row, tossing and turning in my bed trying to get some rest while i feel damn heaty and my stomach hurts.
but hey at least the lao sai stopped!
:(

but tmr i'll probably still go over to joan's place.
at least its a house, means theres a toilet, means i can sit there forever if need be.
(:

and being online can be so boring sometimesssssssssssss.

well my friends, hope i get well soon and finally get to see your faces!!! :D

well yes hello my friends im back in singapore!
landed on dec 28 at 8 plus in the morning.
really grateful to jaime, divya, alex and lorraine for coming to see up at the airport!

went to popeyes to have 'breakfast', we've been planning that since we were in nepal HAHAHA.
cabbed home, bathed, cleared all my emails zomg painful process then went to meet namaste people for avatar and glutton's bay <3

the almost one month spent over in nepal has been wonderful.
i really feel like i left a piece of my heart in nepal <3

over in nepal we worked, ate, played, learnt slept, woke up together, shared our hearts and soaked up the experience together.
i think our team has really gotten well together and it really warms my heart to have made all these friends through this trip <3

our R&R was also really fun, sometimes i felt like i was on holiday or something HAHA.
shopping in pokhara, buying presents and writing letters for our angel mortal game, the sunrises, poon hill trekking with the extension people which was amazinggggggggggggg, all the dvds we bought to watch every night and the days spent in kathmandu.
very super duper mega awesome <3

returning back to singapore seems kind of strange and sometimes i wish we were back in nepal having the time of our lives together.
but im afraid but sure that we'll soon successfully convert back to our lives here in singapore and perhaps we may forget how we felt back in nepal.
but i shall try and keep the experience in my heart for as long as i can and remember how project namaste <3

well around one more week till school starts SIANZZZZZZZZZ.
first lesson on tues SIGH.
but well i shall try and catch up with friends and enjoy myself till then :D

bye going out for dinner with my parents! <3

konichiwaaaaaaaaaa.
omg im like super in the speak-japanese-to-irritate-all-my-friends around me mood HAHAHHA.

ANYWAY.
will be leaving for nepal on dec 3, thurs.
flight is at 1025 so i'll be in the airport like at 8.

will probably be uncontactable cause were going to go over to nepali and get their sim cards, so that it'll be cheaper.
but yes please feel free to leave me messages or whatever, will check when i get back.
AND IM GOING TO START CALLING PEOPLE WHEN I GET BACK.
MEET UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP <3<3<3

will be back in singapore on dec 28, dont know what day HAHAHA.
will be arriving at the airport at 830.
where i will promptly proceed to cab home and knock out on my bed.
then wake up and call you people HAHHA.

anyway these few days exams have been barely on my mind and this song has.
and of course along with the cardigan's for what it's worth (zomg loveeeeeeeee this <3<3<3), mr children's shirushi and david guetta's remix of ive got a feeling <3

so take care all my dear friends and i will see you all when i get back woohoo :D

i want to pluck my eyebrows.
HAHAHAH.
sian need to find time to go down to far east :/

ok time to go back to twc and statssssssssssssssssssss zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

meeting up with the class was funfunfunfun <3
and we had a feast for dinner woohoo, feels nice to have 11 people squeezing around the table and sharing food like a family :D

wow talk about playing as though my exams are over zzzzzz.
today was epic failure studying with banglin and eugene.
had a 2hr lunch down at good old bukit timah (miss it so much <3) where had the yums chicken rice next to coro and GOOD OLD ISLAND CREAMERYYYYYYYYYYY.

and sometime in the afternoon i was like damn tired seriously so i HAD to take a nap.
ive never taken a nap while studying before HAHA.
perhaps it was because of the bird and the bee, perfect sleeping music :D

later other namaste people joined us and it was xin wang hong kong cafe (bloody hell i misplaced the card for the SECOND TIME) then cathay ben and jerrys.
then watched new moon arghhhhhhhhh waste of my moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :(
seriously lah the plot was like non-existent and i dont know why bella is like constantly in pain or at least making zombie like noises all the time and scrunching up her face like she's having constipation.

but yes jacob looks much hotter with short hair.
I LOVE HIS HAIR.
veryyyyyyyyy nice.
well yes nice abs too but im not attracted to that HAHAHA.

so yea waste of my 10 bucks and 2 hours where i was like fidgeting in my seat and wondering when will it ever end.
but of course there were little bits of edward cullen in a suit which were gooddddddddddddddddddddd <3

then went to eat rochor tau huay (zomg AGAIN THIRD TIME IN PRACTICALLY A WEEK) before cabbing home to home sweet home :D

tmr, going to meet the class for mahjong.
this time its going to be daytime mahjong interestingggggggggggg, looking forward to it (:
we normally play tong xiao mahjong HAHAHA.

then sunday we're going to celebrate my dad's birthday so wow where does the studying come in! :(
2 more papers, on monday and wednesday then i flyyyyyyyyyyyy on thurs.

when does the packing and last min shopping come in! :(

because my blog is boring and my life is full of music <3



we each listened to our hearts beating to different tempos
as if things were meant to be this way from the start

no matter what words I choose, it sounds insincere
I crumple up the letter I wrote with the left side of my brain
and throw it away

do you hear the voice of my heart?
It’s in this silent song…

darling, darling, I’ve seen you from many different angles
all of them exquisite, you’ve shown me what love is
now you’re trying to show me by way of subtle techniques
that your uncertainty is a precautionary border
to keep you from getting hurt.

someone makes fun of our picture, “you two make such a pair”
Do we look alike? Or is it that we’ve started to?

we faced one another with such seriousness
that it was almost a burden to get on with it
so much so that it makes me jealous of the thoughtless guy I used to be.

no one will hear the voice of my heart
I’m ok with that, it’s better that way.

Darling, Darling,
I know you have many faces.
no matter what I do,
when I remember you, it pains me so.
more than all those memorable days on my calendar
my memory is filled completely by vivid memories
of every second of every day with you. *3
we cry, we laugh
it’s a precarious sort of feeling but
it is proof of you and me.

Darling, darling
I’ve seen you from so many different angles
even if the day we can no longer be together comes our way
I don’t think it matters because I can’t help loving you.

Darling, Darling
Oh my darling
Maddeningly, and vividly
you fill in my memories completely
Darling, Darling.


lack of sleep these few days.
you know youre stupid when you sleep at 3am when your paper is at 9am.
NOT BECAUSE YOURE STUDYING.
but youre just msning and catching up with people zzzzzzzz.

been talking alot with joan over msn these few days, miss you my dear <3
feels good to catch up with you!
AND I WILL SEE YOU WHEN I COME BACK FROM NEPAL :D

ONE DOWN THREE MORE TO GO.
i realise my blogging rates always increase tremendously during exam periods when im like NOT SUPPOSED TO BLOG.
and when im like bloody free and going out and enjoying my youth, blogging is like always forgotten :x

well yup fa down, left with bgs twc and stats.
well yea im REALLY REALLY REALLY SCARED OF STATS.
cant imagine going through the feelings of despair, hair-tearing, defeat and epic sianness like i did during the mid terms.
i was like sitting there stoning seriously cause i couldnt do so many questions, and i cant imagine going through that X2 THE AMOUNT OF TIME (stats paper is 3 hrs zomgggggggggg)

but well yesterday was a celebration of being one step closer to freedom, 7 DAYS TO NEPAL MY FRIENDS <3
today i managed to get my hands on like super mega awesome music so woohooooooooooo.
and the always disciplined banglin decided to play l4d at like 9pm.
WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
so banglin, me and david took turns to play ARGH.
but yes with left4dead and the cardigans, what more do you need <3
academic knowledge ftl!
FOR THE LOSE HAHAHAHAHA :DDDDDDDDD

so today we've decided to implement a slight change, going to bring our hopefully not so futile studying efforts to clarke quay, basically just a couple of bus stops away from school HAHAHHAA.
and hope all goes well, got to do bgssssssssssssss.
you know i think business government and society is like very interesting to read and listen about BUT DOING THE QUESTIONS FEELS VERY SHIT.
im the type who like doesnt really have opinions like on the spot.
i either have already though of this matter longggggg time ago and has some life-value on it or youve got to give me 5 mins to think through it first before i can give you a proper opinion HAHAHA YEA I KNOW VERY PHAIL.

ok bye people i think exams have driven me pretty mad, got to get out of my house and get my ass to clarke quay man.
bye! :D

the cardigans- daddy's car

We took off that sunny day
packed our things and went away
me and friends in daddy's car
to find out how summers are
found a card to send from wherever we went

From Luxembourg to Rome
from Berlin to the moon
from Paris to Lausanne
from Athens to the sun
our car became a spacecraft
flashing through the world
crashed down in Amsterdam
We'll take off some rainy day
pack our things and go away
families and hotelbars
to find out how summers are
find a card to send to some really old friends

From Luxembourg to Rome
from Berlin to the moon
from Paris to Lausanne
from Athens to the sun
our car became a spacecraft
flashing through the world
crashed down in Amsterdam

i would love to experience something like this, PENG YOUS WE NEED TO TRAVEL THE WORLD AND HAVE THE TIME OF OUR LIFES <3

this is like the funniest song ever HAHAH.
GO STREAM THE SONG.
and it actually sounds damn cute HAHA.

the bird and the bee- fucking boyfriend

There is something wrong
And there is something right
When you can take me by the hands
And I will close my eyes
When you lay down with me
You took the other side
When you lay down with me
You never slept that night

Are you working up to something?
But you give me almost nothing
Keep me helpless
Up to something on my knees
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?

Are you an amateur?
Or is it you're unkind?
To torture all the other girls
You keep me by your side?

Are you unsatisfied?
You can't make up your mind
When you can take me by the hand
And I will close my eyes

Are you working up to something?
But you give me almost nothing
Keep me helpless
Up to something on my knees
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?

I would be so winning
So absolutely winning
A guarantee in melody
A promise in the sky

Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever be my
Would you be my fucking boyfriend?
Would you ever?

SING ALONG ITS DAMN FUN.



seriously how many bloody acts have come to singapore and ive missed them.
im such a LOSERRRRR.
missed out on all these awesome acts :(
damien rice, rachael yamagata, mystery jets, the rapture, travis (but i refused to go for singfest just for them :(), lifehouse, bird and the bees, franz ferdinand
i need to be more updated about the gigs in singapore man!

it should be a crime to stay in school for so long.
ive been in school on monday, tuesday (OVERNIGHT SOMEMORE ZZZZ), wed, thurs, sat and sun.
ZOMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
ill make sure i'll run out of school after my last paper just to soaked up the fresh air outside this hellhole.

ok but then again its not that bad.
i love my school, i love the facilities, i love the location.
and i love to explore the good food around smu <3
and after being brain fried from all the work, you can step up and go have some fun woohoo.

and with friends, i know i can pull through anything <3
ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS AND TAKE CARE MY FRIENDS.
no matter where you all are scattered over singapore and going on our different paths, you all will always be in my heart <3

ok totally spammage of the heart icon, time to go back to fa...
its really ridiculous how little i get done even though i spend like 2/3 of my day in school HAHAHA.

OH YEAHHH PLEASANT SURPRISE WHEN I WEIGHED MYSELF TODAY.
after like dont know how many months of ignorant binging with no regard of my weight, im suprised i actually LOST weight.
HURRAY.

misconceptions.
takes whatever you thought was true, tear it apart and throw it out the window.
leaving you stunned, leaving you disappointed.
tsk things are never as simple and genuine as you think they are.

yihui, remember what the palm guy said about you helping me judge and giving me advice HAHAHAA.
IM SO SHINGZ SOMETIMES.



been hooked on this song the wholeeeeeeee day <3
studied in the library with namaste people, grace's kitchen, astons, rochor tau huay, cab OUCH EXPENSIVE, home sweet home <3

quote from a friend: people who laugh the most usually keep a lot inside.

ditto that (:

wow im starting to panic.
too little time, too many things to cover.
but im having a blast <3

past 2 days have been spent in the school library.
it's nice to see like different friends all just gathering together, nice and cosy at the SUPER AWESOME CIRCULAR SOFAS, and studying together <3
and of course slacking together HAHAHA.
my favourite slacking activity is definitely checking out the other mac users' itunes libraries <3
i think i'm getting used to the lifestyle of plopping down at the sofas at 830 in the morning, lazing around then start work, bingeing, awesome music and in the company of great people as we make it through this hell together :D

yesterday was slightly more exciting.
EPIC FAIL ATTEMPT AT SEEING THE METEOR SHOWER AT FORT CANNING.
but i think i like staying over in the library (along with the shitloads of other freaks like us), after awhile you dont give a shit that its a library and start talking real loud and playing videos HAHAHA.

macs breakfast then cabbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb home woohoo.
knocked out from 9am-6pm ZOMG.

the only thing i probably dont like about my current lifestyle is THE AMOUNT OF MONEY I SPEND ON FOOD.
damn it cant i get anything cheap and edible around here! :(

oh yes and yesterday morning i was talking to joan tay on msn and it was at 3am over in uk.
then joan tay went to sleep and talked to me on msn after coming back from dinner the next day it was like 5am over in singapore.
i had no slept a wink since she last talked to me HAHAHA.
i think i was severely incoherent then though joan HAHAHAHA.
but miss you my dear :(
WAIT FOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (dec 28) <3

CANT STOP LISTENING TO LIFEHOUSE <3333333333333333333

im in school like now to 'start studying'.
smugger mode, ACTIVATE!

here's some good morning music, although it makes me want to sleep more GAWDDDDD.

Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
And be a team with me

So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me

Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me

Oh yeah, that would be so nice
I could see you and me, that would be nice

FUCK.
left my fa file at home :(

its 2.56 and im not feeling sleepy, strangeeeeee.
shit better not be yet another phase of sleeping problems! %*^%&#$^

oh well at least the internet is keeping me very much preoccupied :D
and some good old classics, cue lene marlin!

term is almost coming to an end, im almost going to be done with my last report!
then its going to be study week before the exams.
i dont know why but im like looking forward to study week imagining all the fun we can have studying in smu HAHAHAHA.

past week has been bittersweet, all my lessons are over so i'll probably never see my profs again :(
i may miss the atmosphere of some classes, i may have regretted not performing well enough for some but all in all i think this term has been pretty awesome <3

didnt have training this week which was mega weird but good food with the team made up for it!
went to eat dim sum with karen and agnes on tues, dinner with the handball girls at sarah's kitchen (HAHAHHA) on wed <3
also managed to spend some quality time with yihui on mon where i went down to far east after lesson for dinner, haircut and just having a nice walk around town <3
havent been to the main part of town for leisure is soooooooo long my gawddddddddd.

went back to school today to study with shreeya and yihui at our nice soe gsr woohoo.
i realised i suck so bad at using word/excel, i totally dont know how to operate alot of things arghhhhhhhh.
technology drove me nutsssssssss today while i was trying to get my fa report done :(
stayed in school till like 11, my god this day needs to be noted down in history!
and got our free tau huay and you tiao from bondue hoorayyyyyyyy :D:D:D

ok lah wah lao shit let me feel sleepy soon! :(

this replaces the other awesome shit :D

you know what is fucking frustrating.
when you know what exactly is wrong, and what exactly you need to do.
but you just cant find the initiative and bravery in you to put it to action.

so many many many times have i missed out on chances and failed myself.

sucks so bad.

i cant believe this is hitting me in the middle of watching america's next top model what a jokeeeee.

alot of new jap dramas to watch, I LIKE.
:D

gosh weeks always fly by just like that.
everytime im free to blog, around one week has passed.
as we approach the end of the term, workload is increasing, deadlines are reaching and sleep may become luxury but im still having a good time (:

cleared all my presentations this term, NO MORE WOOHOOOOOOOOO.
ive been shit lucky to have my presentations quite well spread out and not like all at the end of the term.
LUCKYYYYY <3

these few days it has been raining.
twice ive had to cab from city hall mrt to the library for my meetings.
3 BUCKS DOWN THE DRAIN.
there goes 1 ban mian HAHA.

this morning was nothing unordinary, woke up to the sound of pouring rain outside my window.
then had my driving, TEST ON SAT PANIC PANIC.
and now im nice and warm in the comfort of my home and indulging in some bossa nova to match the weather.
joao gilberto <3
he's how awesome serious, THE FATHER OF BOSSA NOVA.
and still going strong at an old age with great performances.





and of course lisa ono!
and i think she's really gorgeous HAHA.
dont really like olivia singing bossa nova but im super in love with her cover of love fool.
big thank you to karen for telling me about it.
ITS FREAKING AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3<3

i realise i only seem to blog about music nowadays HAHAHA.
cause everytime i blog is cause im shit bored with doing work so i turn to good music and i get so excited about such awesome music that i just have to blog about it HAHAHA.

monday:
fa, met denise leong for lunch and chiong our mc individual presentation at treehouse, twc (slackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ah i like :D), koped AWESOME MOVIES from keng leong woohoo woohoo.

fight club, once, before sunrise, initial D (HAHAHAHA I LIKE JAY CHOU LEH) etc etc.
ive also got insider and the enron documentary (which is actually REALLY INTERESTING) from bgs prof to watch.
so many movies to watch and so little time.
maybe during study week when i get real sian of studying, i'll take a movie break halfway :D

tuesday:
stats (SHIT I SLEPT ARGH ARGH ARGH)
i realised its not prof, ITS THE SEMINAR ROOM CHAIRS.
i swear you just try leaning back and putting your hands comfortably in front of you, AND YOU KNOCK OUT INSTANTLY.
then it was mc where i was the LAST SPEAKER (30th speaker) for the day omggggggggggggggg.
all the braindead faces scared the shit out of me, but of well its overrrrrrrr!

then shreeya opy and i managed to get some SIS gsr before going to screme where we satisfactory our starving selfs and tried to get some work done.
opy went for her meeting then shreeya and i went to pomo to eat, YOU KNOW I TOTALLY FORGOT I ATE SO MUCH AT SCREME ALREADY.
so went for another round for dinner omgggggggggggggg.

came back to soe benches to talk cock/htht then yihui joined us before we left at 10+
<3

wednesday:
bgs meeting, library, subway with desiree and cynthia and handballlllllllllllllllll :D

ok wah lao eh 3.39 already.
BYEZ.

time flies when we're having fun, HAR HAR HAR.
but really thank goodness for handball, namaste and friends be it new or old if not school would suckkkkkkkk HAHA.

i seriously cant do work in front of the com :(

but have a break, watch a youtube video HAHA.



time to go back to fa...

then i must create/produce/fluff up a management comms individual presentation by tonight!! :( :(

I HATE DOING FA CASE STUDY.
and i have like an hour left to finish it before i have to go out with my parents.
argh i really really really dont know how to do fa case studies and i always take forever to complete one :(

oh well but the past few days have been gooddddd :D

friday:

project meeting in school.
meet shreeya to study, BUT FAILED.
cause we were exchanging music HAHAHA.
we have like such similar music taste!!
and you know how i can get so excited over the music i love <3

so burned a couple of hours koping music from each other's computer than it was off to watch my sister's keeper.
surprisingly good movie, both of us cried shitloads.
i burst out laughing when i heard shreeya sobbing over the same thing as me HAHAHA.
its a really touching movie!
although cameron diaz's character was my least favourite but the 3 children in the family, the father, the judge and the lawyer were such awesome characters <3

saturday

lunch with ocip people at sugu's house.
delicious indian food yum <3
left at like 6 and went down to clarke quay to meet the class.
the train was packedddddddddd my god :(

manhattan fish market at central, tcc along the river, almost watched the hurt locker (I SO WANT TO WATCH THIS) at ps but in the end we rather go to jin dao's house for mahjong HAHAHAHA.
gathering around jin dao's snail speed computer to facebook was hilariousssssssss.
then started our mahjong, ended up winning 7 bucks.
better than nothing luhh can win jin dao's money can already HAHA.

finished our game at like 5 and we died on jin dao's super comfy sofas/floor <3
i think his sofas are the most comfortable sofas to sleep on ever HAHA.
i managed to stay awake for abit to exchange ridiculous comments on some morning cooking shows with hari before we all knocked out.

shared cab with the guys after that and dived into my bed when i reached home <3
but shit my flu and sore throat was working up nooooo :(
shit lah should not have ate all the ice cream and chips yesterday :x
woke up at 3 plus, had lunch, cant take my eyes of the com HAHA and now great im left with less than an hour to finish my case study :( :( :(



artic monkeys shall accompany me through this torturous case study :(

its so nice to hear that the cranberries may be back on tour <3
i have to admit i've never listened to any of Dolores O'Riordan's solo works after the band moved in individual directions.
cant wait to see videos of them back together.

its such a lovely song, and what simple sad lyrics.
no wonder its a classic <3

If you, if you could return
Dont let it burn, dont let it fade
Im sure Im not being rude
But its just your attitude
Its tearing me apart
Its ruining everything

And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong

If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldnt be so confused
And I wouldnt feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

wowzzz another week flew by just like that.
uni is really so fast-paced, now its already week 10 CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.
im shocked really.

but it makes me realise that i cant afford to hesitate or procrastinate anymore in such an environment, i need to grab on to chances when i see them and make good use of them.
smu isnt as relaxed as cj man :(

monday:
twc presentation.
SIGH DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF.
but ok whatever its over yay yay yay.
then it was stats mid term OMG KENA CHOPPED LEFT RIGHT CENTER.
keng leong and i were like just dying and stoning after awhile, like 2 zombies slouching in the chairs wondering HOW THE HECK to do the questions!
the multiple choices were KILLER.
and i couldnt stop blowing my nose during the test sigh :(

but i just checked my results and like er i think i got a 72.
WTF.
how did i even get a 72?!
now i wonder if he posted the right result cause i seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyy didnt know how to do so many of the questions.

tuesday:
stats where keng leong and i fell asleep AGAINNNNNNNNN.
shizerrrrrrrrr.

then it was chillax mc, tap tap battle with opy then met shreeya to study in the library.
MAJOR FAIL.
5th floor is just such a wonderful place to relax with your laptop!
and when we went to eat, shreeya the woman who takes like 1 min to chew each mouthful of her food took FOREVERRRRRRRRRR to eat her food so we always waste so much time eating HAHA.

wednesday:

driving
came to school early to study with the biatch shreeya HAHA.
took an hour to have lunch at the treehouse HAHA.
CHEW YOUR FOOD FASTER LAH.
then had bgs, the only thing enjoyable was prof playing damien rice during break!

then met handball people, didnt run HEH HEH.
so desiree and i stayed back in the SR to watch like some handball video, but i was just physically accompanying her but my mind was on the net HAHA.
and got some awesome music recommendations from karen <3
runners came back then went to astonsssssssssssssss.
damn my fish was super salty!!
but still love that place HAHA.
then took the bus home, yay for westies in handball :D

today:
I AM NOT IN SCHOOL WOOHOO.
awesome ive got no lessons OR meetings :D:D
what a rare opportunity to rot around at home.
although i do have FA work to do butttttt, let me take a break first HAHA.

i was trying to watch the proposal but halfway through megavideo decided to be an ass and say what bandwidth exceeded, ive reached my limit of the number of hours i can watch.
SHIT YOU MEGAVIDEO :(
im dyinggggggggggg to complete the proposal movie, i keep watching bits of it then something cocks up :(

its ok next monday im going to bring my hard disk to school and kope keng leong's awesome movies!!
BEFORE SUNRISE <333333333333
I WANT TO WATCH IT.
before sunset was so lovely!

ok adios amigos.
shit i feel like taking a nap HAHA.
being sick makes you feel like you can fall asleep anywhere anytime :(

and yes qian ive got my man voice again :(

i just want to say, friends i love you all so much.
every single one of you have an equal place in my heart.
besides my family, friendship is the next thing that is driving me in my life <3

james morisson makes me cry HAHAHA.

im worried for my stats mid term monday.
but i cant seem to get started on studying for it.
ARGH.

goshhhhhh my flu is killing me!
ive used like shitloads of tissue to blow my nose.
but at least my sore throat aint so bad now.
i woke up yesterday with a bad sore throat and i was praying that i wont lose my voice (like i usually do) if not how am i going to present on monday.

anyway wow another week has passed.
you know even though university is like tiring and everything and WHO THE HECK SAID UNIVERSITY WAS EASY PEASY.
i remember we used to hear things like uni is like so much easier than jc and its going to be so chillax but who the heck are you kidding man uni is toughhhhh.
but i somewhat i like this hectic lifestyle, i think im lucky that im having fun at the same time <3

this week consisted of:
hilarious twc project meeting on monday.
i dont think ive stayed in school till so late JUST FOR WORK ARGH.
but there's really no way to not get distracted when there's food, music and random pacman cut outs to camwhore with.

tuesday study sessions with yihui.
this is like the only time i ever get to study in school?!
love spending time with you my dear <3
of course you're also useful to teach me stats HAHAHA.

wednesday recre training which was relaxedddddd.
and karen told me like my 2 new favourite jokes HAHA.
ask me and i'll tell you :D

I DID NOT GO TO SCHOOL ON THURSDAY :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
had driving, GOSH ARGH MY TEST IS ON 7 NOV IM SO SCARED.
then went to holland v for lois's belated birthday dinnerrrrr.
had super delicious food at da paolo pizza bar then proceeded to provenance and the void decks <3

friday was like twc project meeting where we finally made progress HAHAHA.
then met yihui and shreeya to attempt to study at soe HAHA.
then went for dinner at manhattan with namaste people :D
I HATE PATTERN GAMES.
does anyone know the game where like you move around 3 cups and guess which cup it is in the end? HAHA.

and today was beach handball then lunch/dinner at ps.
knocked out on the train, PRAISE THE LORD I ACTUALLY GOT A SEAT :D
beach handball was funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn <3
except the soles of my feet hurt like shit thanks to the BURNING sand.
at like 11 it was still alright but once it was past noon, the sand burneddddddddddddd.

i remember back in cj we went to sentosa so many times and we would be there from like 11 till 5 but god knows why it wasnt as hot as today :/

now im clearing my fa so that tmr i can cram stats and go for my project meeting.
I HAVE A MEETING IN SCHOOL ON SUNDAY AT NIGHT WTH.
:(
im so scared for stats mid term :(

and btw thank you to keng leong for introducing me to weheartit.com
BEST WEBSITE ON EARTH?!
they have so many gorgeous photographs that i cant help but kope heh heh heh.
i kope loads and love them all but this is my current phone wallpaper :D

my favourite form of alone time:
walking along peaceful streets (especially the west) on a cool windy day, with a cup of old-fashioned ice cream (mixed flavours) and my ipod plugged in and blasting.
especially when im blasting the 500 days of summer soundtrack!!!

bought it yesterday :D
500 days of summer soundtrack, check.
eternal happiness, check.
HAHA.

anyway wow this week has been freakingggg hectic for me, cant even get decent amounts of sleep.

saturday: first aid course, met shahida at amk hub, bought fondue ingredients, went to kailing's house for post sunig gathering, semi lap sup karaoke bar at serangoon till 2.30 (BEST KARAOKE OFFER IN THE WORLD. 5 bucks each only and we still had beer and snacks woohoo) <3
although it meant that i slept at like 4 :((((((((((

today: first aid course, HOME SWEET HOME.
MY GOD IM FINALLY HOME THIS WEEK.
got work to do but i cant be bothered, i want to take a nap now HAHA.
I NEED SLEEP.
fa mid terms tmr and must prepare for the twc project meeting tmr ARGH.
i shall panic after i wake up and have dinner.
and other work that can wait a couple of days, bgs project stuff and MY STATS MID TERM AH DIEEEEEEEEE.

ok goodnight i want to escape from reality by going to sleep HAHA.

i think music is such a big part of my life.
and recently i can put a song on replay on and on and on and get wrapped up in it.
at first it was jet's she's a genius.
then it become alicia keys and jay z's empire state of mind.
and now its the 500 days of summer soundtrack.
havent got my hands on it but i sure am going do so DAMN QUICKLY.
the temper trap's sweet disposition is what an awesomeeeeeeeeee song.
i can get so lost in the song, screw fa man HAHAHA.

Sweet disposition
Never too soon
Oh reckless abandon,
Like no one's watching you


A moment, a love
A dream, a laugh
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs

go to the 500 days of summer official site or soundtrack site to listen to some songs heh.

and here's something real cute.
(totally dont feel like doing any work mannnnnnnn)



sex works wonders sometimes HAHHAA.

really want the 500 days of summer soundtrack.
love the movie, love the music <3
took sometime for me to accept it cause the movie actually broke my heart.
i greatly felt for tom and totally cried for him but i think it captures contemporary romantic sensibility really well.
its not about fate and destiny.
not everyone is meant to be together, you need to work at it and sometimes the person who you think is the one is actually not.
and zooey deschanel is really such a beauty!!
and i loved the way the movie was made, very unique :D

yesterday was 2 project meetings and then 500 days of summer with yihui and shreeya.
sleepyyyyyyyy.
dabao-ed like rice into the cinema to eat HAHA.
chillaxed around cathay till like 11 then went back with yihui to SOA to get stuff from her locker.
LIKE WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING IN SCHOOL AT 11 MAN?!
but hey people were still hanging around HAHA.
love htht with yihui then took the bus home :D

totally dont feel like doing work AT ALL TODAY.
MEGA SIANZ REALLY.
just got home from ocip stuff since 9am today.
i feel like watching the proposal online now HAHA.
its like the only comedy ive been wanting to watch recently but busy busy busy and i couldnt watch it :(
sandra bullock is so funny i love her.
shall go watch it now HAHA.

wow what a hectic 'past three days'.
I NEED SLEEP.
which i shall get in a couple of minutes after i get all this off my chest.

monday:
went to nus to study with qian and lois <3
MAJOR FAIL.
im sorry qian i hope you were more successful in your mugging :D
why their yong tau foo so niceeeee :(
but i still like our smu campus <3
it was raining when i was making my way to meet qian and wah lao getting around nus in the rain is such a pain!
love our smu concourse :D

then at 6 i made my way to the nus handball courts for our matches.
both the guys and girls team lost to nus, it was demoralising, it was tiring but hey nus are strong and at least we know what we need to work on now.
this time round we didnt really hang around much after the match HAHA.
but still reached home late and what the heck ended up sleeping only at like 4.
couldnt sleep :(

tuesday:
had to be at tan tok seng at 8am to get our ocip vaccinations.
had 3 jabs, the most ive ever had at one shot!
and i have to admit i was scared when i was sitting there waiting to be jabbed.
but the whole process was real fast!
except i told the guy like i had a handball match the next night so please just have 1 injection on my right arm and let it be the mildest.
so on my right arm, i had my influenza jab.
then on my left arm, i had my hep A and typhoid jab.
HOWEVER, in the end i now have a bruise on my right arm while my left arm is completely fine.
SUEYYYYYYYY.

then it was off to our ocip chalet.
ok it was brain-draining, tiring yet fun.
had a good time, had like 4 hours sleep and i wished we utilised the mahjong table :(
i think we all got to know each other better after this chalet :D

today:
woke up at like 8 plus in the morning, couldnt have just rotted in my sleeping bag but i told myself i had to get my lazy ass out of there.
hanged around till 10 plus where we checked out and made our way to take the shuttle bus out of the ulu NSRCC.
but due to some events HAHAH we missed the bus!!
so we ended up killing like 1 hr at the shuttle bus area playing indian poker with a varity of forfeits HAHA so hilarious omg :D

then it was off to the airport to eat popeyes (my throat is going to dieeeeee) and more 'i've never', which was game of the chalet.
mahjong with money would have up-ed that though HAHA.
took the train home, stood the whole way where i pretty successfully slept standing up and reached home at like 3.
then i hadddddd to clear through all my damn emails.
i dont use the com for 2 days and 1 night and my inbox gets flooded argh.
then i got like a 1/1.5 hr nap before it was off to nus to play our last match against sim.

unfortunately the guys lost by 15-14 but we all know how awesome the guys are and what they are capable of.
they will always be winners to us.
i guess the guys' loss kind of drove the girls to want to win more too.
and we did yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
ok i felt like i didnt do much but im so super duper proud of the team <33333333
screamed, shouted, jumped around, hugged, taupoked and took tons of pictures before we calmed down, washed up and made our way to bukit timah for supper HAHA.
car ride there was hilarious, 6 girls squeezed in the back of the car and singing around to backstreet boys over the radio <3

supper was not fantastic, regret my fried rice man.
prata is always the safe choice DAMN IT.
but it was nice to see like 20 people filling up half a shop and making shit loads of noise :D:D
left at like 1, thank goodness for the west people who tong pang me home yay.
now I SHALL SLEEP.
I NEED SLEEP SO BAD IM SO TIRED.
tmr, 2 project meetings + 500 days of summer woohoo (only for the movie part HAHA)

ok correction.
fa and stats mid terms on different days.
WOOHOO YAY YAY.

but well still mid term break is not a break for me, no time to do the work i need to produce by the end of my break :( :(

today was wasted cause i was out and only reached home for dinner.
then after that htht with yihui on the phone <3
although the hours spent talking to her about everything and anything going on in our lives meant i didnt do any work but it was soooooooo worth it.
i think we both feel much better HAHA I LOVE YOU MANZZZZ :D
you're seriously someone i can trust and turn to <3

yesterday we had our first sunig match against ntu.
honestly i dont think we played well, we were unable to show what we are capable of.
lost 18-12 but definitely good jobs to the rest of the team for at least reaching this scoreline (:
ok my mind is full of loads of different thoughts about the match so i cant organise and articulate this well but all i wish is for the team to win because we deserve it <3
then hanged around the pitch at nus till like 1am.
it was an awesome experience lighting lanterns, running around, singing, telling stories, eating mooncakes, lying around, swearing, crying, talking bullshit, taking pictures etc.
cynthia came over to stayover at my house after that, htht till 4am over cup noodles and chocolates HAHA.

then today we went down to training today woohoo (:

ok time to go do fa :(
shit lah no mood to do fa homework, i know if i were to complete it i'll end up sleeping at like 3 im tireddddddddddd :(

i just realised that my fa and stats mid terms are ON THE SAME DAY (monday after term break)
DIEZZZZZZZZZ.
omg my mid term break is so not a break argh.
no time to study for my TWO HARDEST MID TERMS :( :( :(

im terrified of stats :(

while watching the last episode of buzzer beat, (yet another japanese drama yes with the ever expressionless and over-rated yamapi which is qian's number one favourite man on earth even over her bf) it brought back memories of the national b div basketball championships back when we were like sec 2.
that feeling was so freaking awesome my god, cheering our lungs out, running around and when your school wins its like YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
those were the glorious days back in scgs HAHA.
sc is not the best at many sports hur hur.

actually quitting basketball was one of the biggest regrets i had back in sc.
even though i may not have done well in basketball and i dont know whether i could have clicked with the team, but beyond that i regret that i quit cause i was gave up too easily.
i guess im that sort of person, cower in a corner when im afraid HAHA.

OK ANYWAY, wow that sounded kind of emo.
time to go to school now!
bgs mid terms wah lao eh.
and i really hate class discussions, i never have things to say! :(

justice's remix of mgmt's electric feel is greatttttttttt for studying!

even though ive been stuck at like the same chapter for 2 hours :/
im going to finish the last chapter before i sleep yo :D

argh i want to buy dresses!
bonitochico is really such an awesome blogshop, their self manufactured items are so gorgeous!
they ALWAYS succeed in tricking me to buy 32 inch dresses :(
no wonder they are so popular and everyoneeeeee buys stuff from there so you're going to see tons of people on the street wearing the same thing as you.


BUT.

i find it so hard to resist the 2 dresses that have already caught my eye!
unfortunately, ive noticed that their clothes are more towards the 24/25 age group where they are like young corporate professionals etc.
and some are cocktail dresses so im like when will i ever get the chance to wear them soon mannnn.
HELLO IM ONLY 19 AND IM STILL SCHOOLING.
and i wear damn cui to school cause there's usually training afterwards :(

i shall just hang around the blogshop for the next couple of hours (while i study my damn bgs) and see whether i end up buying it/them :/


ANYWAY yay yesterday was happy happy day where i met up with fiona!!
I HAVENT SEEN HER IN LIKE 2.5 MONTHS.
ever since my birthday to be exact.
miss the dear girl <3<3
all the best my friend!

after my morning lesson i went down to far east to get my hair cut and my eyebrows plucked (FINALLY MY GOD) and when i was done i checked my phone and omg got a message from fiona!!
turns out she was in the area (woohoo thank god i study in town and not like in some jungle cause fiona sure wont be hanging around there) and we went to ishi mura for lunchhhhhhhhhhhh <3
then talktalktalktalktalk until wah lao realised i had to go for twc but awesome time catching up with you!

then after twc was training where i admit i was DAMN LETHARGIC.
felt very heaty and sleepy wow zuennnn this morning i woke up with a sore throat argh.

and i realised i cant seem to stop sleeping in classes!
omg its only the 7th week.
ok im just going to hope its cause there's so many trainings every week :x

today

slept during stats again shit shit shit shit.
im definitely lagging behind in stats and i really have no face to see prof after he bought chocolates from me and im like sleeping in all his classes!
but i swear he's a good prof and explains everything clearly :D

management comm was slackkkkkkkk.
cause we've already presented HAHA.
so it was like an overload of all the other groups while i was... doing my bgs sample mid term test HAHA.
i got like 12 out of 20 questions correct, MAJOR FAILZ.
:(

then it was like major exercise time where i was running around campus, sob to soe, to prof's office where i got damn lost, to soa to sob wah laoooooo.
then went to collect the stuff i bought to support another ocip.
so i was like lugging freaking heavy bags of chocolates and running around distributing them to the people who bought from me.
really sai kang warriors man.
should just have a booth to collect the chocolates!

OH WELL ANYWAY.
so time to hit the books for bgs!
its never too late yo, ive still got till tmr afternoon.
JIA YOU HAHA.

damn it cant believe i didnt stretch before training yesterday ouch.
aches man, especially my right hip and shoulder.

well its a sunday woohoo time flies i seriously cant differentiate between weekdays and weekends sometimes.
yesterday definitely didnt feel like a weekend.
had training, then twc make up lesson where i had my MID TERM.
ok but then again im glad its over, 1 down 3 more to go! HA HA HA :(

thursday, we had our friendly against ntu.
I IS CUI.
but yay for the team, drew 7-7.
at least we didnt lose HAHA.
but still grateful im in the team, one more week to go till our first match.
MUST UPGRADE FROM CUI TO PRO! :/

friday, had training in the afternoon then rushed for ocip meeting where my brain was frieddddddddd.
fund raising is stressful i must say :(
and i think being the cook is equally stressful.
i need to come up with the recipes and i doubt i can even guarantee the food is going to come out tasting fine :(
then went for handball steamboat yay yay.
of course the old marina steamboats own the bugis one we went.
come on man back then it was 10 bucks (although no prawns, crabs & free flow drinks) + a variety of cooked food.
bugis one costs 18 bucks btw what the heck right? HAHA.

seriously miss the marina steamboats, it used to be a regular place for class gatherings man.
failure kite flying + arcade + steamboat + rushing for last train = AWESOME? HAHA :D

by the time i reached home and bathed it was like 1/1+ already and i haddddd to do my DAMN FA WORK (while being distracted online of course) so i ended up sleeping at 4 plus WAH LAO EH.
contemplated skipping training but thanks to the smses coming in at ungodly hours in the morning (basically before my alarm at 11.30) i ended up going :(
but hey training with the team is always fun :D

ok enough got to watch the bgs documentaries for my bgs mid term next wed cause i know i wont have time to study on weekdays.
one thing i realised is that back in jc all we had were like notes etc but now in university there are so many online resources, CAN YOU BLAME US FOR BEING DISTRACTED ONLINE? :(

omg its been quite a while since i last stayed up to 3am (and later) doing work.
these few weeks ive been too tired and busy to give a genuine shit about homework but here i am freaking out because i have fa case study 10, fa chapter 10 hw, trainings, twc mid term tmr, bgs mid term next wed and ocip 'homework' to deal with.
fa work takes damnnnnnnnnn long to finish, freaking ma fun!

i can say goodbye to sleep today, although i must say im not feeling tired yet.
maybe cause the past week ive been slacking around too much or only spending time on training that i have accumulated backlog again.

time to put jet's she's a genius on repeat.
THIS CAN PSYCHO ME THAT I AM A GENIUS AND I CAN PULL THROUGH THIS.
just need to sacrifice sleep :D

i hate to be wrongly accused.
it pisses me off so bad and my blood is boiling now argh.

and shit twc and bgs midterms lahhhh no time to study and i still have fa homework to do.
seriously staying at home doesnt help me cause i just idle around.
then im like leaving the house in an hour for handball training then ive got ocip stuff later.
i think im going to be so pissed i'll be throwing the ball real hard.

ok whatever i cant think straight when im irritated.
going to go back to going through the twc slides argh and listen to jet (<3)
loving their new songs like she's a genius, black hearts, KIA.
kick ass album.

im watching the taiwan variety show i was watching last week HAHA.
its called da xue shen li mei.
wah i love the recent episodes, i absolutely agree with some of the things they say!
especially with the psychologist that has been on the recent episodes.

the psychologist said something in today's episode like how parents tell their children 'bei ai bi ai bie ren gen xing fu' (translation: being love is more fortunate then loving someone, WHICH IS WHAT MY MUM ALWAYS TELLS ME) and how that is actually WRONG.

hmph need to show my mum this cause i always disagree with her on that point.
i would never be with someone that i dont like, seriously.
there's no way two people can truly be happy unless there is mutual affection.
and you definitely cant win people over with money and 'si chan lan da' tactic cause you're just burdening the poor girl and you'll become the nightmare in her life.

and this episode is pretty funny cause you get to hear the girls' horror stories at being wooed.
some are pretty freaking i must say!

anyway ok shit i need to study for my twc mid terms ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
totally dont feel like man :(
i wonder why im still in such a heck care stage about exam while everyone is like super stressed out.
die :(

shall study for the next 3 hours before our handball friendly!
scareddd :x
but that makes me more driven to beat them HAHA.

and shit you opy your stupid song is stuck in my head.
oh oh oh oh my love my love my loveeee
:(

the past few days have been sleep depriving but funnnnnnn :D
and i totally find myself sleeping in classes already omg so fast!!

sunday met up with some class people at ps!
thai express lunch, the ugly truth movie (WAH LAO SO MUCH SEXUAL INNUENDO DAMN IT I SHOULD HAVE WATCHED THE PROPOSAL I LOVE SANDRA BULLOCK) and hilarious arcade games before going down to jin dao's place for mahjonggggg.
yangyang and shijing helped da bao chomp chomp for us and we enjoyed our hokkien mee, carrot cake, satay, chicken wing, sting ray, oyster omelette at jin dao's place before xbox and mahjong!!
wow first time playing soccer on xbox i think im not bad HAHAHAHA.
although i couldnt score a single goal but hey i did some awesome passes alright! HAHA
won like 2 bucks in mahjong HAHHAA.
jin dao the biggest loser! heh heh heh.
eh not bad man 2 bucks i never even take ok!
got a ride to serangoon mrt then took the longgggggggg train ride home and slept at like 2 plus wah lao ehhh.

monday morning i woke up feeling EXHAUSTED.
was totally sleeping the whole way in the car while my parents drove me to school for my morning project meeting.
meeting was draggy but yay we managed to get things done (:
went home where i proceeded to die on the bed before i found out training was cancelled!
but some of the handball people met up in cathay for some food + desert yummm (:
reached home at 11 plus, settled some presentation things and knocked out at 12 plus.
however i think i didnt sleep well cause i was worrying about our management communication presentation today HAHA.

today
i absolutely couldnt stay awake during intro stats i feel so bad cause i really like prof and he's really good but i kept falling asleep!
damn it tues mornings are always damn tiring :(
then had management comm and woohoo im so glad our presentation is over!!!!!!!!

spent some time in the library with desiree then met opy, qian and michelle lai and we went to relakkkk at treehouse.
oh man no ham & cheese baked pasta! :(
tried to study my twc, got through 1.5 chapters but ive got mid terms this sat! :(
played some bridge HAHAHA and totally slacked online before going to meet joan tay at city hall at 6.

had ding tai feng dinner, went blazer shopping (wah lao one blazer why so exxxxxx) before settling at jco donuts to sit back, relax and talk cock <3
absolutely loved catching up with you guys man, will miss you joan tay!
cant wait till you get back again :DDDDDD

freaking funny!!!!
muse went on some italian programme and cause they could not perform live (wth seriously muse plays live OK.) they decided to switch places and it became such a jokeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3<3
matt on drums, dom on bass and vocals and chris on keyboard and guitar!
hilarioussssssssss, love them :D



here's a proper kick ass one (:

ooh its 1.11am now hur hur.

reached home at 12 plus after sending jodie off at the airport!
to be honest i didnt expect to cry but burst into tears at the airport wah lao.
you all have been a really great bunch of classmates!
jodie we will really miss you omggggggggggg, it'll feel so odd without you when we meet up.
its been awesome meeting more these few weeks, like our september babies birthday celebrations, karaoke yesterday and today at the airport!
take care my friend :D

just finished some slides needed for my presentation next tues argh hate presentations.
but got to deal with it lah smu is full of presentations WAH LAO HAHA.

today i had make up fa class from 9-12 cause monday is a public holiday.
then rushed for project meeting.
then rushed for training.
then went to peninsula to settle some jerseys.
then went to makan at funan food court.
then went down to the airport to meet lois.
enjoyed some local delights at wang cafe HAHAHAH (eh the horlicks and chicken macaroni is nice!) while shun yee, michelle lai and denise leong joined us.

wow T3 was a congregation of 1990 students!
so many people flying off possibly even to the same country at the same time.
and tons of rj people HAHHA.

yesterday

was in school for twc project meeting, always slack and fun with my twc group yo!
did ocip stock taking which was a pain but somehow i find weird pleasure in sorting out things and recording them down :/ HAHAHA
then rushed over to meet denise leong, shun yee, jodie, lois, jasmin and michelle lai for some cheap karaoke at cuppage HAHAHA.
ok im sorry i was super not in the mood for karaoke, can you believe it?!
but it was still nice belting out english oldies/classics :D

then had dinner at meridien food court with michelle lai and lois.
miss the thai food there!!
i used to always eat there after my sun tuitions with fiona/jia jun omg old timesssssssss.
shared jumbo cup of peach yogurt + strawberries + granola which is like THE BEST COMBINATION EVER? :D

and through out both days there was always photobooth madness HAHAHA <3
tmr, shall meet some of my class people at dhoby area.
catch up with the army boys and catch a movie.
probably will end up eating shitloads too since they always become starving spendthrift animals when they book out.
I HAVE NOT WATCHED A MOVIE IN SO LONG.
wah lao its pathetic considering school is IN town :(

ok shit i need to get more sleep man!
daily dose of 5 hours sleep is REALLY not enough for me to function well and remain cheerful HAHA.

oh yes and if anyone is interested in buying chocolate/sweets from cocoa tree at below store price (VERY CHEAP CHEAP YO) to support my ocip's fund raising please let me know!
we have 16 types woohoo :D
any amount of help would be greatly appreciated!

got my hands on the new muse album this afternoon at holland village.
BETTER LATE THAN NEVER :D

to be honest, it didnt really give me a kick.
but then again black holes & revelations was not an instant favourite for me till the lives came along.
the lives are always awesome, muse keeps some tricks up their sleeves :D

watching their teignmouth gig on youtube now, AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME.
better hurry watch them before they get taken off.
and its great quality too i must say :D

they went back to their hometown to hold the gig and played some of their new songs.
just heard their a couple of new songs live, loved them man!
i can imagine uprising being a kick ass gig starter :D:D:D:D:D:D

MUST COME TO SINGAPORE AGAIN SOON OK.

im watching a variety show now and the topic is about guys who like girls who are 'zuo zuo' and 'you xin zi' (basically girls who are fake and full of acting bullshit) and how girls can see through them and hence do not like them.

well i agree HAHAHA.
although girls who do not resort to those moves probably will end up being viewed as 'unfriendly', 'not feminine', 'not cute' and plain not attractive, i refuse to be such a fake shit and rather remain unwanted forever HAHA.

i think like all my life, ive always wondered why some guys just cant see through some girls' true colours or why some of the awesome-est sweetest natural girls ive met remain unattached.
WASSUP MANNNNNNN HAHAHA.

but i guess if you're pretty, you can get away with anything.
some one sponsor me plastic surgery please HAHAHAHA.

ok shit ive got my pile of work waiting to be cleared but i have yet to get started on it ahhhhhhh.
but later i'll be going down to holland v to meet yiting!
OMG DEAR GIRL I MISS YOU SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <3
here's an example of a super awesome girl!
then later there's handball team dinner woohoo <3

shall try and squeeze in some fa hw while im with yiting heh heh heh.

feels pretty good to be home early.
come to think of it i really dont remember coming home straight after school.
SOMEHOW there will be training/meeting/just go out to eat.
and on days like monday and wed where i have school + training, i reach home like past 11 wah lao shag ah.

and gosh starting to feel the workload but i shall persevere to balance my mods, trainings, project meetings, ocip meetings and HOMEWORK.
HOMEWORK IS A PAIN IN THE ASS.
havent had to do homework in a longggggggggg time and now its here to haunt me :(

time to do project research and complete my damn bgs readings.
when will i ever catch up on my bgs readings!!! :(

i think im starting to feel stressed.
i feel stressed because its 4am and i just turned to my right and saw my bgs book sitting there with my highlighter still in between some pages in chapter 2 and i was supposed to finish the damn chapter like 2 hours ago.
but somehow unconsciously, my arm moved on its on accord and put the book aside and i got absorbed surfing the net ARGH.
and why the heck is the bgs textbook so thick, i need to read up to chapter 5 but im not even done with chapter 2!

ok im going to sleep :(

some people say time flies when you're having fun.
i beg to differ.
i think that time flies when you're trying to do your damn fa while being online, and then you realise you've only done two pathetic questions.

:(

i so wish i was there!!!!
i know i'll be jumping, singing, swinging my arms, sharing the balloons and enjoying the the atmosphere man <3
singapore needs summer music festivals like this.
and since its hot all the damn time here, we should have them all the time :DDDDDD
and we need people to be more willing about showing their enthusiasm yo!



omg what a fucking awesome intro.
i felt so touched then freaking excited HAHAHAHHAA.
but then i would totally endure the rain for remioromen too!
and when the bass kicked in i was like whoaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrhhhhh!
love lives love lives love lives <3

ok GOT TO STOP.
WHATS WRONG WITH ME.
i need to clear all my damn fa and bgs backlog arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

ahhhhhh omg i just went nuts and bought 1 dress, 1 top, 1 hoodie and 2 bangles withing like half an hours and the bill is going to total up to 90+ omggggggggggggggggggggggg.

I NEED TO GET RID OF THE OTHER STUFF I BOUGHT BUT ENDED UP NOT WEARING :( :(

but anyway came back from ccab handball training not long ago.
wah im very impressed and proud of all of us for doing 2 rounds warm up then proceeded to do 8 rounds interval, 2 mins each round.
of course during the 2nd last round i died i overshot by 30 seconds im sorry i suck :(

i remember last time during pe we used to run interval around our rectangular 300+++ metre track, 2 mins per round also but we used to dieeeeeeeeeeee HAHA.
miss the old times man <3
although i have to say uni is a new and I GUESS interesting experience that i think im getting used to unconsciously heh heh.

ok i shall do fa hw (OMG IM SO HARDWORKING WOOHOO) before i sleep.
got to be in school tmr at 10 for meetingggggggggggggggggg :(



very good goodnight song HAHA <3
ok must control myself and stop spamming videos heh heh :D

FAILEDDDDDDDDDDDD.
freakkkkkkkkkkk.
but acutally im sprouting all the vulgarities now.

damn sian you know cause i really thought i had a shot at passing this time.
cause somehow over the last lesson and the lesson i had just before the test, my driving showed miraculous improvement and i was like yea i may be able to pass!!!!

but then somehow during parallel parking i knock pole WTFFFFFFFFF.
everything else before that i do nice nice and only left parallel then i knock pole WTFFFFFFFFF.
and i seriously dont know why i reversed so much, damn damn damn damn stupid mistake.

and because i thought knock pole was an immediate failure i was damn sian during the rest of the test.
like damn zone out and heck care and just keep thinking 'wah lao fail already sibei sian wah lao fail already sibei sian'
BUT TURNS OUT KNOCK POLE IS NOT AN IMMEDIATE FAILURE?!
ok i didnt know that :(

so that led up to some very serious errors like change lane at bend 6 points and almost knocking down a cyclist 6 points HA.
ok its not funny but it was just so ridiculous how i was just zoning out while driving and failed to see this guy cycling across the zebra crossing arghhhhhhh.

but of course i had more errors like wide turn, veer off course, too slow for traffic condition, change lane aruptly and turn steering whilst vehicle is stationary but seriously arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

i want to pass so badly :(

im too sian to do any shit right now.
i cant be bothered to do fa/bgs like this :(

i dont even know if i fail like going for handball later anymore.
unless i use it as a chance to vent my frustrations, like THROW THE BALL FREAKING HARD :(
but there will probably be alot of running later so im kind of too sian to look forward to that :(

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((



good song to listen when you're feeling sian.
i feel SOMEWHAT better hur.
remioromen <3

oh man today is going to be wasteddddd.
omg i actually feel guilty for not doing any work today!
i guess cause work is piling up :(

woke up today at 2 plus, getting my much treasured 12 hours sleep to make up for my lack of sleep during the week.
and ive been slacking online for the next 2 hours and now ive got to go out to meet michelle lai they all :D

met up with qian on thurs! :D
cafe cartel lunch, 9.50 for soup, free flow bread, main course, desert and drink WORTH IT.
went massive bra shopping HAHA.
cause john little was having a cardmember's sale and wonderful qian ahd the card woohooo.
we spent like 1-2 hours there i swear.
ended up getting 3 sets of underwear, and the total price was ONLY 31.68 WTHHHHH CHEAPPPPPPPPP HAHAHAA.
and they came in all these lovely colours and i wanted to buy more colours but no size :(
only sizes for big boobs left :(

then rushed down to meet yihui in school, htht <3

then it was off for drivingggggggg.
wah lao it was a record long 2.5 hours lesson HAHAHA.

fri was fa project meeting that frieddddddddd my brain.
fa is so bad thank goodness im not in accountancy.
i take back whatever i said about wanting to me in accountancy HAHA.

then it was independent new me killing time at the library yo!
then at like 6 i got abit restless so i decided to go ps myself :D
bought fang da dong's cd and had dinner before i realised i was going to be late for my namaste meeting so i chiongedddddddddddddddd back to school HAHA.

very grateful for being selected for the ocip and i wonder if i am going to be overloaded this term, but i will give my best and hopefully namaste is going to turn out great for all of us :D
im in the logistics team, sai kang warriors woohoo :D
and im also a medic omg ive got to go spend 3 days on a first aid course, QIAN LEND ME YOUR CERT HAHA.
then ive also got to settle the menu, ehhhh i wonder what should we eat :/
i have to admit i feel quite lost cause this is my first ocip but shall give my 200% :D

sat was driving in the morning.
MORNING DRIVINGS LESSONS ARE BIG NONOS :(
then it was off for handball training but i felt reallyyyyyyyyy dead dont know why goshhhhh :(
then it was home to get ready for jodie's farewell dinner at firestation hillside gastrobar.
GREAT AMBIENCE i would loveeeee to go back there another time <3
but i need to scrimp and save before i can do so HAHAHA.
the food is too ex for a bunch of school kids man!
and with the alcohol that we ordered ystd, my wallet was totally emptied there :(
but i think its possible to have a 20+ meal there lah (:

ok gtg to city hall now bye! :D

ALL GEARED UP.
sept 14 <3

super in love with square big bucket now.
love his music!
totally melts my heart <333333333333333333
IM GOING TO BUY HIS CD.



omg primary school song!
ive loved this song since young man.
what wonderful lyrics <3

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

i have abnormally cold feet and hands :(
i swear the ends of my body get cold super super super easily, some massage guy once told me i have bad blood circulation.
sucks real bad cause my feet are cold like 24/7 i think :(
when im in school, airconnnnnn.
when im at home at night, airconnnnnnn.
my feet really never gets to thaw :(

OK ANYWAY, RANDOM ISSUE ASIDE.
school yea ok whatever, i think its pretty easy to get of get wrapped up in school.
not in a super stressed way but uni just requires this min level of consistent effort so somehow you're spending that little bit of your time everyday doing something related to school.
but its still at a level that i can cope with so yay (:
quizzes, graded assignments and projects are all increasing in volume but i guess school has still remained pretty fun for me (:
still able to go eat/slack around before/between/after lessons and try out the diff ccas and see what interesting activities are going on around campus (:

and gosh im like on the laptop 24/7.
in school use laptop, at home use laptop, omg i swear its going to die on me real soon HAHAHA.

super in love with this mv and this song right now.
but bloody baidu wont let me kope it heh heh.
so sweetttttttttttttt <3

give me courage.
so that i will be able to do the things i truly want to do without giving a shit about anything else.
so that i will be able to conquer my fear of being judged or criticised.
so that i will be able to be myself anywhere anytime and with anyone.

mraz is therapeutic i tell you HAHA.

i would like to credit yihui for some fantastic words:

it's nice to be with good people
because you can be whoever you are and have fun around them without being judged
<3

TOTALLY AGREE :D

had freshmen bash last night/this morning and although i have to admit that i was not thoroughly satisfied cause i guess i was still quite energetic but it was a blast <3

FA group meeting tmr and after that i'll probably go for some talk/meeting.
so many things going on tmr: bondue fondue (which i totally dont feel like going anymore so im going to waste my 8 bucks), gourmet club meeting, barworkz meeting, recreational gaming meeting, cambodia ocip meeting.
all going on tmr at around 3.30 sian :(

i just realised i can think about something for so damn long.
i remain so bothered by something until i feel like im going crazy.
regret really kills me, this terrible feeling fills me up so full and i feel like i cant take it anymore.
and sometimes over the smallest littlest seemingly insignificant things.
sigh and thus i am worrywart wanyin.



listening to this right now while trying to complete my FA case study which is like totally gibberish to me, cant understand a shit its trying to say dieeee :(

i just spent like the last few hours crying over youtube videos HAHAHAHA.
my bloody FA book is wet oops.
ok whatever but i really like watching xin guang da dao, there are some great singers in there man.
and they pick the awesome-est songs :D
started off by watching ni shi wo de yan sang by the original singer who is blind damn damn damn damn touching.

and during the recent episodes of xin guang da dao 5 there is this american guy who is here to like pk them and DAMN HE SINGS SO WELL.
i cried when he sang ni shi wo de yan omg damnnnnnnnnn touching.

johnnychan898
GO WATCH HIS VIDEOS OMG.

yay second week of school is overrrrrrrr!
actually i think it feels pretty good to have a 3 day week even though im taking 5 mods and the projects are piling up.

ANYWAY.

monday was FA where i struggled so damn hard to stay awake and i was mega confused by the content.
sorry prof i tried!!
then went to sis treehouse which is like my new favourite place in smu with yihui and zihao (:
twc was quite dry but quite interesting lah!
then it was off with yihui to explore substation before having dinner at timbre.
we went into this like art exhibition HAHAH DAMN INTERESTING :D
reached home at like 12 sian damn tired :(

tuesday was intro stats and management comm which passed really quickly actually!
then went to 'study' with yihui HAHAHA.
at first we found a gsr that was empty and wah damn shiok ah aircon, blast laptop music and read FA but then turns out people booked it and we had to leave :(
in the end we went to some table outside the library where i proceeded to fall asleep on my FA book HAHAHAHA.

then had dinner at koufu before going for netball clinic!
it was fun and the seniors were real nice (:
but i think i'm more interested in handball :x

thank goodness my parents fetched me back from kallang netball centre, big thank you <3
then proceeded to get hooked onto this new japanese drama called otomen HAHAHA.
shit lah the first 3 episodes just came out and i finished damn too fast and now i have to watch for like eternity for the next episode :(
yesyes its another one of those funny sweet teenage based on the manga japanese dramas HAHAHA.
if you like mei chan no shitsuji/hana kimi you'll surely like otomen HEH.

i would say wednesday was the day i found direction.
bgs was enjoyable!
cause class is super relaxed and prof is so nice can.
prof even plays nice music during break! <3
finally presented out debate so woohoo its over!!!!!
and debate damn relax lah just sit at our chair and talk.

had dinner at koufu where i realised wow the world is so small sometimes HAHA.
went for project namaste talk, I WANT TO GO SO BADLY!!!!!!!!
ok i admit i didnt find out much about the other ocips but after hearing from a member's personal experience last year i want to go so so so so badly.
although i totally crapped for my form cause my mind blanked out but i hope they give me a chance!

then ran over to admin building for handball HAHA.
ok embarassed myself to the max but im used to it HAHA.
i always freak out when im nervous and make the stupidest mistakes argh.
then i get damn wtf wtf wtf why did i do thatttttttt :(

i just hope everyone forgets whatever they saw HAHAHA.
cause i think im serious about handball and im going to join it!
i suck but i want to learn it :D

so if all goes well, i would have handball and namaste to focus on :D

sian driving this afternoon again.
i swear my instructor hates me.
im so freaking hopeless at the circuit.
i dont even feel like showing my face anymore for lessons or even taking the damn test :(

on a happier note, met up with the class yesterday!
miss our tong xiao mahjong so much!
and of course i miss my whole class in general, its so damn comfortable with them and i feel like i dont have to worry a shit about anything else.
went down to jin dao's house after my handball clinic which was quite fun i think im going to join handball HAHA.
so more than 12 hours of mahjong + delicious home-cooked dinner kindly provided by jin dao's family + xbox + wii was very enjoyable :DDDDDDDDDDDD
left at like 6 plus in the morning and cabbed home.
walking along the quiet misty road at some part of serangoon in the nice cool weather gave me a strange sort of peace, loved it man!
although the super bloody loud bullfrogs in the longkang opposite the road grossed me out so bad.


sian now i feel so demoralised i dont even feel like doing no shit.
but ive got financial accounting homework due tmr to dooooooooo :(
just feel like lying on my bed and rotttttttt while spamming videos that im not going to really absorb.

well goodbye!
and i dont know why but i really like this picture :/

hello!

yesterday i was pretty traumatised when i closed my eyes to try and get some sleep and all i saw were hordes of zombies, tanks, smokers, boomers and hunters not good not good :(
met joan tay yesterday for lunch at xin wang!
we always freaking go there omg HAHAHA.
then qian and opy came and it was l4d till 9 HAHA.
then it was more xin wang for late dinner, stuffed ourselves silly followed by silly games <3<3<3

today it was vivace in school which is like our cca fair, damn crowded man!
walked back and forth and back and forth and put my names for loads of things but obviously not going to join us.
i'm still pretty stubborn on only taking 1 cca but i may change my mind and have 2, the second one being in super inactive mode.
put my name down for like floorball, handball, barworks, gourmet club, netball, wakeboarding, smux for more info on one-off activities, women's connection.
think thats it!

then it was off for my bgs project meeting but omg went to the wrong venue siannnnnnnnnnnn.
rushed from econs building to business building only to realise they were at econs building OH MY GOD.
then while i was rushing out of business building i slipped on the way down the escalator HAHAHHA.
gosh :(
brain blanked out during meeting DIE.

then it was off to meet leon gim and guan min :D
we were happily enjoying ourselves out of school at cathay there when i realised i was supposed to meet my faci to take freshmen bash tickets!!!
screamed in shock then proceeded to rush back to econs building sian :/

then it was off to cine in hopes of getting a good timing for the movie orphan but FAILED.
damn it just cause its a friday people are willing to watch whatever and everything is selling fast :(
ended up watching the house on the left.
its those of murdering thrillers, i would say its not bad lah!
its meant to be one of those yet another horror movie but i think it was pretty good at it yo.
i really loved the song during the credits!
but turns out i dont know what its called wah lao trying to find nowwwwww :(
we stayed till like the end of the credits just to find out the song title but i think we didnt wait long enough, we left after seeing a few and we thought that was it :(
ok actually not sure if it was the end but we wait so damn long anyway!
we were like the only ones left, i think the cleaners were already done cleaning HAHA.
then we had our takopachi and teh c peng before going off :D

tmr shall go for handball clinic, sigh im usually very bad at this trying new stuff thing but i shall try my best!
check it out and see how its like :D
then its off to jin dao's house to meet t26 <333333333333333333333

SIGHHHHH.
I AM GOING TO FAIL MY DRIVING.
just came back from my driving lesson.
first time driving at night.
first time i got a different instructor.
first time i was taught new instructions and procedures i never heard before from my previous instructor.
OH MY GOD.
first time went into BBDC circuit.
turn wrong lane, knock down pole while doing the ram SHIT and my SAI parking die die die.

on another note, however not a happier one, i learnt that it was impossible to bring your laptop PLUS books to school because you will just break your arm seriously.
freaking heavy man :(
so now books shall be kept at home FOREVER (ok maybe not) while i only bring my laptop to school :D

today i experienced my 5th and last mod for the term: business goverment and society (bgs)
loved it!
my prof is awesome yay for nice profs and the content is interesting lah though it reminds me of human geog.
but we were thrown into project mode real fast, ive got a debate to prepare for next week ahhhhh.
i shall have my first taste of project work reallllllllll soon.

then rushedddddddd home for driving, gobbled down char siew sio ba rice and rusheddddd back to gombak mrt for driving :(
and wah lao first time having 2 hr lesson too, SIAN.

yesterday had intro stats and management comm.
love my intro stats prof he teaches intro stats so clearly and tries to make it interesting (:
management comm made me freaking nervous cause im so bad at oral presentation really but i know its going to be a useful course (:

then met yihui to go funan for some fooddddddd and check out laptop sleeves.
proceeded to lug all our crap and attempt to find sim lim square on foot.
dropped by bras basar popular where i decided to just buy their damn laptop sleeve, for 12.90 only i must add!!
and in a very in-your-face colour, a mix between neon pink and red HAHAHAHA.
but thats going to help me identify my laptop and spot it if i dropped it somewhere.
by then it was 7 and popular was closing and we rushed back to funan to get yihui's damn laptop sleeve.
JUST IN TIME before the store closed woohoo.
then slacked at macs for mcflurries (the oreo and cornetto one) and htht till 9 plus <3
TOOK THE TRAIN HOME ARGH, WHAT PAIN MY FOREARMS HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING DURING THE PAST DAYS.

but alas, wednesdays are my fridays and tmr no school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shall be meeting qian, opy and joan tay before meeting the class <3<3<3

adios!

first day of school was... tiring HAHA.

wah lao lesson from 8.30 to 11.45 then lesson from 3.30 to 6.45 plus i slept for like 4 hours so i was DAMN SLEEPY HAHAHA.
but i think my profs are very nice and funny so im happy with my monday classes :D

had dinner at pasta mania and bought all my books today, OH MY HOLY SHIT.
FREAKING FREAKING HEAVY.
ITS THE HEAVIEST CRAP IVE EVER CARRIED HOME.
stuffed my 5 fat books + my file into 2 flimsy plastic bags and lugged them home sigh it was really quite bad.
my fingers feel very raw HAHA.

and omg i feel damn studious im reading through my financial accounting now!! :DDDDD
reading through chap 1 cause i had not even bought the book yet and neither did i bring my laptop so i was just sitting there and absorbing info using brain power (which is how failure)

yay omg this is quite a good start to uni life!
of MGMT and FA woohoo :D
luckily today twc was slack and interesting + no homework yayyyyyyy.
intro stats and management comm tmr also like nothing so yayyyyyyyy dont have to do anything.

can go play my hard boiled eggs on miniclip later HAHAHAHA LOVE THAT GAME.
just aim and throw eggs at enemies HAHA.

i realised im someone that really treasures a sense of security.
which is something that disappears as you change your environment and surroundings.
as i enter smu i dont feel a sense of belonging or dont really know where to go or who to turn to when im in need of comfort or direction.
i think smu has this warped up mix of independence and gang mentality.
ok but then again i wonder if its just the same everywhere else so i ought to not look at smu so harshly.
10 years in scgs was so safe and comfortable that entering cj was tough for me at first but it was such a comforting feeling watching things unravel and work out and at the end of my cj life, i can look back and say wow that was such an awesome time in cj :D
i really hope my smu life will be like that too.

yes yes to end of this weird emo-ness (HAHAHA), here's my ALL TIME FAVOURITE POEM.
i remember someone showed it to me in sec 3, was it tina neoh? HAHA.
LOVE HER LIT LESSONS OK.
although her eng lessons are you know :x

A.S.J. Tessimond - Day Dream

One day people will touch and talk perhaps
easily,
And loving be natural as breathing and warm as
sunlight,
And people will untie themselves, as string is unknotted,
Unfold and yawn and stretch and spread their fingers,
Unfurl, uncurl like seaweed returned to the sea,
And work will be simple and swift
as a seagull flying,
And play will be casual and quiet
as a seagull settling,
And the clocks will stop, and no one will wonder
or care or notice,
And people will smile without reason,
Even in winter, even in the rain.