need to control my snide comments sigh sigh sigh

And If I stumble, and if I stall
And if I slip now, and if I should fall
And if I can't be, all that I could be
Will you? Will you wait for me?

pride cant earn me money nor can it feed me when im hungry, yet i hold on to it so tightly.
baka desune.

finished norwegian wood, glad that i ended up watching this in the middle of the night i think it really suits the feel of the movie.
thumbs up.
my favourite part about it was the ending, it respected the open ended ending that haruki marukami wrote but yet guided many lost and wondering readers towards the likely explanation.
but it was one long movie, my heart almost couldnt take it.
time for me to go read the book again (:

koukuhaku.
one fucking twisted movie.
but with damn impressive and artistic cinematography that makes you go omg how did they manage to capture such scenes and a good soundtrack (it was the last place i was expecting to hear fantasy by the xx wow)



actually, ive been quite disappointed with the movies that i have wanting to watch for so long: tokyo sonata, akunin and kouhaku.

but nonetheless, japanese movies are still my favourite (:

you know those questions celebrities always get asking them 'which part of you are you most satisfied/disatisfied with'.

well im not a celebrity but im going to answer one myself.

i am fucking dissatisfied with my teeth :(

seriously if there is a teeth god in this world, why have you been so fucking against me since i was born. :( :( :(
first got both my front teeth knocked out, had gum covering the new teeth that tried to grow out afterwards, extra canine tooth growing on top of my other innocent tooth and then braces to push down that damn canine and then the braces failed to make my teeth straight at all :( :( :(

ok back to reading ramen blogs woohoo :D

social media is fun and interactive.
it gives you an outlet to share your thoughts and update your statuses.
but at the end of the day, what channels are left for you to put up anything private.
there are the things you put up with the intent to share with your friends and then there are the things you dont want to tell everyone.
maybe the only way to get something off your chest while still keeping it private would be just talking to yourself in your head.

its 11.39pm now.
ive got a morning class tmr and i hate getting little sleep.
i have a 5% quiz tmr and i have not started studying.
the textbook is flipped open in front of me but between sleep and studying, sleep > studying.

well ok i shall read for an hour and then sleep.
the national will accompany me.
this band has successfully sung its way into my heart.



when i first saw this video, immediately i knew this song was going straight up to the top <3
and at the beginning, matt went 'this song is for carine'.
aww matt why are you so sweet and go about wearing your heart on your sleeve <3

sorry terrible love but about today is just so heartwrenching.
and two more songs to add to my favourite the national songs: think you can wait and runaway.

just 4 more days.
why.
my heart couldnt take it come back ok?
pinky promise.

now back to performance evaluation and management... zzz...

i dont normally read the papers but today when i saw that the quake and tsunami was on the front page, i decided to take a look.
page after page of articles on how things seem to be getting worse for japan.
after the killer twin combo, now there's a huge threat of radiation leakage which can lead to diseases and birth defects for the future generation.
why oh why it breaks my heart :(

and damn tsunami, you took the national after from me!!
3 more days and i would have seen them live! :( x2

but well, i was youtubeing as i normally do and i saw new remioromen live videos being uploaded (remioromen is my all time favourite japanese band)

and wow this video is like an explosion of energy and its a very pick-me-up song.
so positive and enthusiastic, so much love from the crowd.
i wouldnt expect anything less from the japanese.



japan, you can do it <3

omg why does it seem like im so emo when i come and see my own blog.

ok people i am actually not suicidal, its only when unhappy stuff happens then i bother to blog.

but on a lighter note, i am sunburnt.
like a freaking freshly cooked lobster.

during the past 10 weeks of school, i think the handball team has never experienced a day without being sunburnt/cao ta.

first: handball carnival at ntu
second: waikiki
third: round 2 of handball carnival at ntu

my mum was complaining to me this morning that i look like bao jing tian now :(

btw: i used to love the bao jing tian dramas (cant rmb if its hong kong or channel 8 though :/)

sometimes i feel like whats the use of being so strong and independent.
at the end of the day, people may just think that i can handle it when actually i cant.
and it really pisses me off how some girls are so weak and attention seeking sometimes, what about that is attractive at all?!

ok i seriously need to learn how to stop projecting my own standards and values onto others, people are different and i cant expect people to think and feel the way i do.

times like these are when i feel the most lonely and different from everyone :(