Guilt.
Building up in me and making my heart ache each time I think about my mother.
She gives me the freedom to do what I wish, to spend my time with my friends every day, to escape for months to a foreign land and to spend the money she has been saving up all her life.

She is independent, she does not complain, she does not splurge on herself, she shys away from words and actions of affection and always maintains a strong front.

I should start by spending more time by her side (: