i never knew i was such a failure at judging people.
being blinded and neglecting what should truly matter to you.
im seriously disappointed but thats my motivation to let go and move on.
yes move on and come out of this a better person.
that is what i need to do.

everytime i listen to hot hot heat's middle of nowhere, i delve deep in thought.
its an oddly cheerful sounding song but yet this song always get me contemplating.
thats why i avoid listening to it, but i just put my itunes on shuffle and it got played.

the past week has been pretty uneventful that ive even forgotten what i did HAHA.
well i only remember econs enrichment on thurs.
although it made me stay back all the way till 5 for it, i actually enjoyed it alot.
i learnt alot actually and i really enjoy econs :D
then took the bus home with carmen!

then yesterday we had a gp lecture on happiness.
amidst trying to cram for my econs test the period after the lecture, i managed to learn some interesting things.
the big 7 factors affecting personal happiness:
family relations
financial situation
work
community and friends
health
personal freedom
personal values

i agree (:
my family's importance to me has been growing.
i used to be on rather bad terms with my family but they have always been there and has offered me some of the best advice i ever had and especially since jc, ive been much closer to my family (:
and i think sometimes when you get back a piece of work that you were satisfied with and you got a good score to back up that satisfaction, the feeling is incredible :D
and to me, community and friends is the most important.
i think people around me have the biggest influence on me EVER and my happiness is so very dependent on people, and sometimes i hate that it is.
after coming jc, i think ive realised that personal values are very essential.
maybe cause of the new environment for ive not been as lucky as others to meet people that are just like them, i have met many clashes with my personal values and that was when i realised that how much of your personal values is retained very much affects happiness.

but ANYWAY, (HAHA i can get very carried away when talking about such stuff)
after school killed time playing bridge with nigel again HAHA.
play frisbee with the competition people then went for dinner at fish and co.
oh gosh i was feeling real tired and anti social HAHA.
my bad :(
AND IVE GOTTEN DARKER.
THIS IS DISGUSTING.
my hockey tan was finally fading and when i met my relatives who havent seen me in months, they were like wow you're lighter!
but NOOOOOOO NOW IM LIKE A FREAKING RED INDIAN.
shiro! (i hate it in jap/korean i forgot HAHA)

came home and dozed off HAHAHAH.
then woke up at like midnight and decided to just use the computer.
watched shinee videos again HAHAHAA.
i have to blame the youtube account shineesubs who subs shinee videos damn freaking fast HAHA.
and everytime i see shinee i starting thinking of the hockey card and yiting's present and i just cant help but smile HAHAHA <3<3
currently my favourite korean artists are: epik high, shinee, big bang and wondergirls HAHA.
just to clarify cause everyone is like YOU LIKE SO MANY FREAKING PEOPLE HAHAHA.

i would like to recommend epik high's umbrella.
very touching lyrics HAHA.
and i love the mv, its so pretty and at least it has a somewhat happy ending.
i love rainbows <3
btw the guy in the video is tablo, part of epik high.
i like him!
recently ive been into dorks HAHAA.
and he's a super talented musicians, love his creations and his lyrics.
and i think the random female lead is very pretty heh (:





and this is their performance on music bank on 25 july, my birthday
yay what a coincidence HEH.
look at tablo!
i think he looks adorable with like vintage round glasses