i realised im someone that really treasures a sense of security.
which is something that disappears as you change your environment and surroundings.
as i enter smu i dont feel a sense of belonging or dont really know where to go or who to turn to when im in need of comfort or direction.
i think smu has this warped up mix of independence and gang mentality.
ok but then again i wonder if its just the same everywhere else so i ought to not look at smu so harshly.
10 years in scgs was so safe and comfortable that entering cj was tough for me at first but it was such a comforting feeling watching things unravel and work out and at the end of my cj life, i can look back and say wow that was such an awesome time in cj :D
i really hope my smu life will be like that too.

yes yes to end of this weird emo-ness (HAHAHA), here's my ALL TIME FAVOURITE POEM.
i remember someone showed it to me in sec 3, was it tina neoh? HAHA.
LOVE HER LIT LESSONS OK.
although her eng lessons are you know :x

A.S.J. Tessimond - Day Dream

One day people will touch and talk perhaps
easily,
And loving be natural as breathing and warm as
sunlight,
And people will untie themselves, as string is unknotted,
Unfold and yawn and stretch and spread their fingers,
Unfurl, uncurl like seaweed returned to the sea,
And work will be simple and swift
as a seagull flying,
And play will be casual and quiet
as a seagull settling,
And the clocks will stop, and no one will wonder
or care or notice,
And people will smile without reason,
Even in winter, even in the rain.