why cant i have the courage to go out there and get what i want instead of losing it to others.
i am such a complicated person, pretending to dislike what i truly desire.
jealousy is also such a terrible emotion and i hate it that sometimes im so filled with it.
and why am i so anti-social, always closing up and surpressing myself.
i promise that i wont be like this anymore.
ill make sure ill make an effort to take initiatives and open up my true self.
no more giving up what i want and becoming sad over the loss.
Monday, May 19, 2008
i swear, being an only child can be so boring sometimes.
i promise ill never put my child through such torture HAHA
and thats why i want to have one older son and one younger daughter plan (:
ill name my son nathan and my daughter emma HUR HUR.
oh yes and i forgot to mention that qian's sis treated me to lunch again yesterday!
had lunch with qian and her sis after tuition at bakerzinn
she even offered that i went with them for their pedicure and it would be free but of course im not so thick skinned yea? HAHAHA
eat free food still want to have free pedicure HAHA
thank you very much qian and qian's sis! :D
anyway, met qian to 'study' today at serene.
STUDY MY ASS.
SHE'S SUCH AN IRRITATING PERSON OMG WHOLE DAY DISTRACT ME LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HAHA
we met at like 12.30 and omg we couldnt settle down to study until like 2 HUR
ok lah its also my fault cause i brought my laptop but we had no idea how to connect to the internet.
so we took super long to FINALLY manage to open a website :(
we also spend alot of time having HEART TO HEART TALKS <3
although im not very proud of it HAHA, i realise qian and i are very similar.
so it felt very good to have someone who has the same ideas as me and is actually going through the same things im going through <3
AND ALSO SOME ONE TO WATCH GERMANY MATCHES DURING EURO 08 WITH YAYYYY
you will see two teenage girls camping at some random kopitiam at 2.45am just to watch the germany vs poland match HAHA
qian had to go for tuition so i came home (:
fell asleep on the bus sigh, thank god i randomly opened my eyes and saw that the bus had reached my stop.
decided to treat myself to seventeen magazine and some sweets and wasted like 1 hr after i reached home reading the magazine :/
IM SUPPOSED TO BE HALFWAY THROUGH HUMAN GEOG TODAY AND IM ONLY AT PAGE 2 OF LECTURE 1 OMG.
and school tmr, HOW DISGUSTING.
pe tmr has been replaced by a talk and there's double gp.
OH MY FREAKING GOD HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE^*^$%#$#@%
oh well but what can i do right, i shall just go study geog now :(
i promise ill never put my child through such torture HAHA
and thats why i want to have one older son and one younger daughter plan (:
ill name my son nathan and my daughter emma HUR HUR.
oh yes and i forgot to mention that qian's sis treated me to lunch again yesterday!
had lunch with qian and her sis after tuition at bakerzinn
she even offered that i went with them for their pedicure and it would be free but of course im not so thick skinned yea? HAHAHA
eat free food still want to have free pedicure HAHA
thank you very much qian and qian's sis! :D
anyway, met qian to 'study' today at serene.
STUDY MY ASS.
SHE'S SUCH AN IRRITATING PERSON OMG WHOLE DAY DISTRACT ME LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HAHA
we met at like 12.30 and omg we couldnt settle down to study until like 2 HUR
ok lah its also my fault cause i brought my laptop but we had no idea how to connect to the internet.
so we took super long to FINALLY manage to open a website :(
we also spend alot of time having HEART TO HEART TALKS <3
although im not very proud of it HAHA, i realise qian and i are very similar.
so it felt very good to have someone who has the same ideas as me and is actually going through the same things im going through <3
AND ALSO SOME ONE TO WATCH GERMANY MATCHES DURING EURO 08 WITH YAYYYY
you will see two teenage girls camping at some random kopitiam at 2.45am just to watch the germany vs poland match HAHA
qian had to go for tuition so i came home (:
fell asleep on the bus sigh, thank god i randomly opened my eyes and saw that the bus had reached my stop.
decided to treat myself to seventeen magazine and some sweets and wasted like 1 hr after i reached home reading the magazine :/
IM SUPPOSED TO BE HALFWAY THROUGH HUMAN GEOG TODAY AND IM ONLY AT PAGE 2 OF LECTURE 1 OMG.
and school tmr, HOW DISGUSTING.
pe tmr has been replaced by a talk and there's double gp.
OH MY FREAKING GOD HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE^*^$%#$#@%
oh well but what can i do right, i shall just go study geog now :(
Sunday, May 18, 2008
my closest cousin didnt come for the family dinner(which was one of the best family gatherings(:) today so i got the chance to get to know my younger cousins :D
they are so adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
my ABSOLUTELY CUTE 8 month old cousin emmanuel (:
he has the most gorgeous eyes everrrr
and my 6 year old cousin rico who i never really got to talk to :(
but after getting to know him today, he is such an adorable sunshine boy :D
although he's chubby, he has such a good looking face and im starting to reallyreallyreally like him
<3
they are so adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
my ABSOLUTELY CUTE 8 month old cousin emmanuel (:
he has the most gorgeous eyes everrrr
and my 6 year old cousin rico who i never really got to talk to :(
but after getting to know him today, he is such an adorable sunshine boy :D
although he's chubby, he has such a good looking face and im starting to reallyreallyreally like him
<3
today i met a kind old man on the bus.
he was sitting in front of me on the bus when he suddenly turned around and asked me if i could spare him some water.
at first i thought the request was odd but obviously i gave him the bottle of water i had for him to drink.
then during the rest of the bus ride, he would turn around and talk to me and sometimes ask for more water.
he told me many interesting facts like how an underground mrt is being built at farrer road and singapore has an underground reservoir at bukit timah, i had no idea!
i like such warm-hearted conversation with a strangers especially with elderly people.
ive never had a grandfather cause both my grandfathers passed away before i was born and i only have one grandmother left.
i remember i had a conversation with an old lady once on 945 and she was the cutest old lady ever (:
anyway, it was also surprising how he opened up after we talked for just one bus ride.
he told me his personal story about how he got into an accident and the doctors said he would die after 4 days but after 10 days, he was still alive.
and in the end he woke up from a 1.5 month coma and he says it was thanks to god.
well im not christian and i admit i dont believe in god.
but sometimes hearing such stories make me feel more secure that maybe there is a god looking out for all of us after all.
the old man even shook my hand and blessed me before he got off the bus.
i had the urge to look down from my seat from the double decker bus and he also looked up after alighting and we smiled and waved at each other (:
i felt like it was such a pleasant encounter :D
he was sitting in front of me on the bus when he suddenly turned around and asked me if i could spare him some water.
at first i thought the request was odd but obviously i gave him the bottle of water i had for him to drink.
then during the rest of the bus ride, he would turn around and talk to me and sometimes ask for more water.
he told me many interesting facts like how an underground mrt is being built at farrer road and singapore has an underground reservoir at bukit timah, i had no idea!
i like such warm-hearted conversation with a strangers especially with elderly people.
ive never had a grandfather cause both my grandfathers passed away before i was born and i only have one grandmother left.
i remember i had a conversation with an old lady once on 945 and she was the cutest old lady ever (:
anyway, it was also surprising how he opened up after we talked for just one bus ride.
he told me his personal story about how he got into an accident and the doctors said he would die after 4 days but after 10 days, he was still alive.
and in the end he woke up from a 1.5 month coma and he says it was thanks to god.
well im not christian and i admit i dont believe in god.
but sometimes hearing such stories make me feel more secure that maybe there is a god looking out for all of us after all.
the old man even shook my hand and blessed me before he got off the bus.
i had the urge to look down from my seat from the double decker bus and he also looked up after alighting and we smiled and waved at each other (:
i felt like it was such a pleasant encounter :D
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
bittersweet day
lessons were boring as per usual, barely managed to stay awake
wasted 4 hours after school doing nothing much besides sitting in class, listening to music, eating at the canteen, playing the piano at the foyer, checking out the hip hop lesson in the hall
went to eat at around 6+ at toa payoh with guan min, yangyang and shijing
i guess it was obvious i was feeling down then
thanks yuling for cheering me up with your goofiness and spamming me with bubble pop oldies <3
but i hope you all could tell that i was trying very hard to control my mood and not to let my unhappiness show on my face, but its hard you know
but as the hours past, i felt much better :D
thanks guan min and shijing for the famous amos cookies :D
guan min bought me famous amos cookies first cause he knew what i was going through and he was trying to cheer me up
then shijing went to buy me cookies as a cheer up gift too just before we went home
and neither of them knew that the other person bought famous amos cookies too
YOU TWO ARE TOO SWEET AND ADORABLE THANKS SO MUCH :D
well at least tmr there's pe and double break, the only reason why i look forward to school :D
and the guys' hockey match!
GO CJ HOCKEY <3
lessons were boring as per usual, barely managed to stay awake
wasted 4 hours after school doing nothing much besides sitting in class, listening to music, eating at the canteen, playing the piano at the foyer, checking out the hip hop lesson in the hall
went to eat at around 6+ at toa payoh with guan min, yangyang and shijing
i guess it was obvious i was feeling down then
thanks yuling for cheering me up with your goofiness and spamming me with bubble pop oldies <3
but i hope you all could tell that i was trying very hard to control my mood and not to let my unhappiness show on my face, but its hard you know
but as the hours past, i felt much better :D
thanks guan min and shijing for the famous amos cookies :D
guan min bought me famous amos cookies first cause he knew what i was going through and he was trying to cheer me up
then shijing went to buy me cookies as a cheer up gift too just before we went home
and neither of them knew that the other person bought famous amos cookies too
YOU TWO ARE TOO SWEET AND ADORABLE THANKS SO MUCH :D
well at least tmr there's pe and double break, the only reason why i look forward to school :D
and the guys' hockey match!
GO CJ HOCKEY <3
Sunday, May 11, 2008
I hate school and studying and the 'A's.
I have zero motivation to do my work, I really wonder how I'm gonna get through the year and do well for my 'A's.
):
i couldnt have said it better qian
qian and i always have similar feelings <3
spent the day finishing up the sky of love movie
it was too sad for me but it was really sweet
really good lines and the people inside are so visually pleasing heh
and i googled the accuracy of death japanese movie featuring takeshi kaneshiro
i saw the poster at the amk hub and fiona told me abit about the movie
Adapted from the bestselling novel by Kotaro Isaka “The Accuracy of Death”. Chiba (Takeshi Kaneshiro) appears seven days before a person dies an unexpected death. His job is to observe the person for seven days, and then decide either to ‘execute’ or ‘pass over’.
The 115-minute movie is made up of three interconnected stories which protagonists are targets of the attractive Grim Reaper. There’s a meek girl whose job is to receive complaint calls, a crime committing mafia leader who has a faithful follower and an old hairdresser who lives alone in the countryside.
it's been getting really good reviews, at least 4 stars and its said to be a beautifully visualized on screen
my type of show :D
list of movies i want to watch:
narnia
accuracy of death
the happening
(:
today
physics tuition
lunch with qian and her sis at ding tai feng
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE FREE LUNCH
i wish i had an older sister too!
math tuition
didnt managed to stay awake :(
mother's day dinner (:
i got my mum a set of cutlery
it was really cute and came in a box that said super mum with adorable drawings all over it
the utensils were in unusal shapes and had like smiley faces cut out of the metal handles
anyway, i should be doing geog :/
school starts again tmr SIGH
ok adios amigos
I have zero motivation to do my work, I really wonder how I'm gonna get through the year and do well for my 'A's.
):
i couldnt have said it better qian
qian and i always have similar feelings <3
spent the day finishing up the sky of love movie
it was too sad for me but it was really sweet
really good lines and the people inside are so visually pleasing heh
and i googled the accuracy of death japanese movie featuring takeshi kaneshiro
i saw the poster at the amk hub and fiona told me abit about the movie
Adapted from the bestselling novel by Kotaro Isaka “The Accuracy of Death”. Chiba (Takeshi Kaneshiro) appears seven days before a person dies an unexpected death. His job is to observe the person for seven days, and then decide either to ‘execute’ or ‘pass over’.
The 115-minute movie is made up of three interconnected stories which protagonists are targets of the attractive Grim Reaper. There’s a meek girl whose job is to receive complaint calls, a crime committing mafia leader who has a faithful follower and an old hairdresser who lives alone in the countryside.
it's been getting really good reviews, at least 4 stars and its said to be a beautifully visualized on screen
my type of show :D
list of movies i want to watch:
narnia
accuracy of death
the happening
(:
today
physics tuition
lunch with qian and her sis at ding tai feng
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE FREE LUNCH
i wish i had an older sister too!
math tuition
didnt managed to stay awake :(
mother's day dinner (:
i got my mum a set of cutlery
it was really cute and came in a box that said super mum with adorable drawings all over it
the utensils were in unusal shapes and had like smiley faces cut out of the metal handles
anyway, i should be doing geog :/
school starts again tmr SIGH
ok adios amigos
gosh its like 3am and im still up watching shows online sigh
and ive to wake up at 9 tmr and i have 2 tuitions!
how am i going to stay awake during the 2 tuitions :(
and ive got myself hooked onto merry christmas mr lawrence by ryuichi sakamoto
you would recognise it as the song used in the trailer of the leap years (such a waste)
its a piano and violin instrumental song that was performed during the rj piano ensemble concert that i went to today (:
very touching
friday
had to go school by 715 cause of some award ceremony
it was so tough for me to wake up earlier :(
played 2-man bridge with shijing during the whole ceremony (50 rounds? HAHA)
supported the guys' hockey match against rj after school
rj was really damnnnnnn good and they totally dominated the ball possession but i think we put up a good fight!
just like sa, we also lost to rj 4-0
i reallyyyyyyyyy hope we can win sa next week!
rushed back to school to meet fiona and watch abit of the sepaktakro competition (kenneth and yangyang's team won yay!)
went down to amk for leon gim and zhao loong's birthday dinner (:
pepper lunch, standing outside the movie and watching tons of trailers, macs and playgrounds
blind mice, swings, climbing the high ropes and drawing in the sand, made me feel like a child again.
i wish time stopped then
it was a hell load of fun :D
today
read through 1 chapter of geog :/
youtubed like crazy sigh, downloading tons of videos into my ipod
started alot of dramas too!
but i came across this cute jap actor thats my age
seriously the superstars are all getting younger and younger!
met michelle lai at queenstown
went down to bishan
dinner at s11
met jodie and we went to support shun yee at the rj piano ensemble concert
i also supported you sujun!
IT WAS A DAMN LONG CONCERT.
like 2.5 hours omgggggggggg
i have to admit that there were times i felt like sleeping but i couldnt cause the place was so packed there wasnt even enough seats
i had to like stand/sit on the foldable table between the chairs/squeeze with michelle lai in her seat (made my ass hurt like crap :()
ok its past 3, i should sleep :(
but im not even halfway through the jap movie sky of love
i remember zhao loong telling me that it is my type of show, and it really is HAHA
well geog is in less than 2 weeks, STOP GETTING DISTRACTED :(
and ive to wake up at 9 tmr and i have 2 tuitions!
how am i going to stay awake during the 2 tuitions :(
and ive got myself hooked onto merry christmas mr lawrence by ryuichi sakamoto
you would recognise it as the song used in the trailer of the leap years (such a waste)
its a piano and violin instrumental song that was performed during the rj piano ensemble concert that i went to today (:
very touching
friday
had to go school by 715 cause of some award ceremony
it was so tough for me to wake up earlier :(
played 2-man bridge with shijing during the whole ceremony (50 rounds? HAHA)
supported the guys' hockey match against rj after school
rj was really damnnnnnn good and they totally dominated the ball possession but i think we put up a good fight!
just like sa, we also lost to rj 4-0
i reallyyyyyyyyy hope we can win sa next week!
rushed back to school to meet fiona and watch abit of the sepaktakro competition (kenneth and yangyang's team won yay!)
went down to amk for leon gim and zhao loong's birthday dinner (:
pepper lunch, standing outside the movie and watching tons of trailers, macs and playgrounds
blind mice, swings, climbing the high ropes and drawing in the sand, made me feel like a child again.
i wish time stopped then
it was a hell load of fun :D
today
read through 1 chapter of geog :/
youtubed like crazy sigh, downloading tons of videos into my ipod
started alot of dramas too!
but i came across this cute jap actor thats my age
seriously the superstars are all getting younger and younger!
met michelle lai at queenstown
went down to bishan
dinner at s11
met jodie and we went to support shun yee at the rj piano ensemble concert
i also supported you sujun!
IT WAS A DAMN LONG CONCERT.
like 2.5 hours omgggggggggg
i have to admit that there were times i felt like sleeping but i couldnt cause the place was so packed there wasnt even enough seats
i had to like stand/sit on the foldable table between the chairs/squeeze with michelle lai in her seat (made my ass hurt like crap :()
ok its past 3, i should sleep :(
but im not even halfway through the jap movie sky of love
i remember zhao loong telling me that it is my type of show, and it really is HAHA
well geog is in less than 2 weeks, STOP GETTING DISTRACTED :(
Thursday, May 08, 2008
today consisted of:
heart to heart talk
conscious efforts
40 push ups and 100 crunches (KILLED ME)
class basketball
movie during gp
slacking in school
accompanying the siao zar bor yiting
tennis in the evening with shijing, yangyang and guan min
pms security guards
heartwarming conversations with strangers: 1 ang moh and 1 grandma
thank you for the advice and i really tried hard today to control my mood (:
and i had a really happy day today <3
and i think tennis is reallyyyyyyyyyyy fun
heart to heart talk
conscious efforts
40 push ups and 100 crunches (KILLED ME)
class basketball
movie during gp
slacking in school
accompanying the siao zar bor yiting
tennis in the evening with shijing, yangyang and guan min
pms security guards
heartwarming conversations with strangers: 1 ang moh and 1 grandma
thank you for the advice and i really tried hard today to control my mood (:
and i had a really happy day today <3
and i think tennis is reallyyyyyyyyyyy fun
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
the past few days have been filled with regret and tears but i thank my friends who cared for me and showered me with love and concern to build me up again (:
yiting, qian, michelle lai, guan min, fiona, big thank yous to you all especially (:
sunday
met michelle lai in the morning to run to train her for her 2.4
came over to my place
went for math tuition while michelle lai studied herself in town
met michelle lai after tuition (:
monday
cj guys' hockey game against aj at ccab
deciding game affecting whether they make it to the next round or not, and they did!
watched the ac-sa, ib-rj rugby games too (:
met jessica tan, michelle lai and qian!
OHMYGOD IT WAS THE BEST FEELING EVER.
didnt expect to meet them there at all!
mr prata with fiona and guan min (:
there's a really unglam picture of qian so i shall be nice and not put it up, QIAN STOP MAKING SUPER DISGUSTING FACES.
tuesday
im sorry for being so down.
yesterday was just screwed up, i felt soooo miserable the wholeeeeeeee day
sorry for the black faces and the weird emotions.
thank you michelle lai for coming down to cj to meet me (:
went to city hall to eat and meet shun yee
went for the rj choir concert at esplanade :D
met deniseleong at marina square! OHMYFREAKINGGOD IT WAS A DAMN GOOD SURPRISE <3
reached home at like 11+ and i was sooooooo tired
today
i tried real hard to not get affected but i didnt manage to last the day
sorry for the weirdness after school again
sigh im really getting sick and tired of myself and all my stupid thoughts and feelings argh
but thank you all for listening yet again <3
school is seriously giving me a hard time sigh.
yiting, qian, michelle lai, guan min, fiona, big thank yous to you all especially (:
sunday
met michelle lai in the morning to run to train her for her 2.4
came over to my place
went for math tuition while michelle lai studied herself in town
met michelle lai after tuition (:
monday
cj guys' hockey game against aj at ccab
deciding game affecting whether they make it to the next round or not, and they did!
watched the ac-sa, ib-rj rugby games too (:
met jessica tan, michelle lai and qian!
OHMYGOD IT WAS THE BEST FEELING EVER.
didnt expect to meet them there at all!
mr prata with fiona and guan min (:
there's a really unglam picture of qian so i shall be nice and not put it up, QIAN STOP MAKING SUPER DISGUSTING FACES.
tuesday
im sorry for being so down.
yesterday was just screwed up, i felt soooo miserable the wholeeeeeeee day
sorry for the black faces and the weird emotions.
thank you michelle lai for coming down to cj to meet me (:
went to city hall to eat and meet shun yee
went for the rj choir concert at esplanade :D
met deniseleong at marina square! OHMYFREAKINGGOD IT WAS A DAMN GOOD SURPRISE <3
reached home at like 11+ and i was sooooooo tired
today
i tried real hard to not get affected but i didnt manage to last the day
sorry for the weirdness after school again
sigh im really getting sick and tired of myself and all my stupid thoughts and feelings argh
but thank you all for listening yet again <3
school is seriously giving me a hard time sigh.
Saturday, May 03, 2008
thursday
holiday (:
yihui came over to my place yay!
i havent met you in so long, miss you :D
i love pouring out all my feelings to you.
friday
sports carnival
oh well we didnt do well in basketball cause somehow we werent playing well and yangyang was sick.
its ok at least i had fun cause i enjoy playing basketball (:
although i hated it when i kept getting slapped in the face during one game
class outing to city hall
lunch at burger king
shopped around, topshop 20% storewide discount! OH MY GOD
i was eyeing this white dress for 47.20 after discount but i hesitated so much that when we leaving marina square, topshop was already closed so i couldnt buy it :(
arcade
dinner at some random open air shop
iron man (i reallyyyyyyyy like it!)
rushed out of marina square to get on the last train
luckily we made it 1 min before the last train :D
oh yes and i really want to watch the new narnia movie that is coming out!
and so im going to watch the first narnia movie cause i didnt manage to watch it when it came out last time
the older brother looks cute HUR :D
and im so sorry qian and leon gim, for not being able to meet you all :(
"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"
You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream
Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me
You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven
holiday (:
yihui came over to my place yay!
i havent met you in so long, miss you :D
i love pouring out all my feelings to you.
friday
sports carnival
oh well we didnt do well in basketball cause somehow we werent playing well and yangyang was sick.
its ok at least i had fun cause i enjoy playing basketball (:
although i hated it when i kept getting slapped in the face during one game
class outing to city hall
lunch at burger king
shopped around, topshop 20% storewide discount! OH MY GOD
i was eyeing this white dress for 47.20 after discount but i hesitated so much that when we leaving marina square, topshop was already closed so i couldnt buy it :(
arcade
dinner at some random open air shop
iron man (i reallyyyyyyyy like it!)
rushed out of marina square to get on the last train
luckily we made it 1 min before the last train :D
oh yes and i really want to watch the new narnia movie that is coming out!
and so im going to watch the first narnia movie cause i didnt manage to watch it when it came out last time
the older brother looks cute HUR :D
and im so sorry qian and leon gim, for not being able to meet you all :(
"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"
You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream
Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me
You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
WE WON THE HOCKEY MATCH AGAINST JJ, 2-0
wow i feel so proud of the team for finally achieving our goal :D
everyone played very well!
but i felt like i played like shit.
seriously, my worst match performance but the best match for the team.
so it doesnt matter cause as long as the team does well im happy (:
serene with hockey people till like 10
took a bus down to queenstown with yiting (ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR THAT SILLY GIRL)
reached home feeling real tired and knocked out after i bathed and squeezed 1 episode of my jap drama HUR
did 'class' cip at lee kong chian gardens school today
it was such a meaningful experience :D
the kids were sooooooooooo adorable and it feels really good when they open up to you
i was especially attached to a little girl named nadia today (:
she was rather cold at first but after she opened up to me, she was the sweetest thing ever :D
i miss them!
dinner at queensway and nigel, kenneth and fiona joined us.
killed a few hours at queensway cause of the t27 class shirt, but i felt like it was pretty fun helping their class (:
tmr is a public holiday YAY
but plans for sentosa/movie fell through so i guess i shall be relaxing at home!
maybe thats a good thing after all (:
i need to bloody get some work done.
but of course tmr is for waking up late oh yeaaaaa.
sports carnival on fri (:
wow i feel so proud of the team for finally achieving our goal :D
everyone played very well!
but i felt like i played like shit.
seriously, my worst match performance but the best match for the team.
so it doesnt matter cause as long as the team does well im happy (:
serene with hockey people till like 10
took a bus down to queenstown with yiting (ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR THAT SILLY GIRL)
reached home feeling real tired and knocked out after i bathed and squeezed 1 episode of my jap drama HUR
did 'class' cip at lee kong chian gardens school today
it was such a meaningful experience :D
the kids were sooooooooooo adorable and it feels really good when they open up to you
i was especially attached to a little girl named nadia today (:
she was rather cold at first but after she opened up to me, she was the sweetest thing ever :D
i miss them!
dinner at queensway and nigel, kenneth and fiona joined us.
killed a few hours at queensway cause of the t27 class shirt, but i felt like it was pretty fun helping their class (:
tmr is a public holiday YAY
but plans for sentosa/movie fell through so i guess i shall be relaxing at home!
maybe thats a good thing after all (:
i need to bloody get some work done.
but of course tmr is for waking up late oh yeaaaaa.
sports carnival on fri (:
Sunday, April 27, 2008
thursday
supported guy's hockey match against jj
cj won 3-0 good jobbbbbbbbb
it was a really good match :D
island creamery and macs afterwards with yiting (:
forgot to bring my wallet so i lived off borrowed coins for my bus rides, it was horrible having to dig out all my loose coins everytime i get on the bus and explain to the uncles why i didnt bring my card over and over again.
friday
i hate cramps to the coreeeeeeeeeeee
was supposed to go down to the ac aj hockey match at delta but i was reluctant cause i rather go watch soccer :x
but then we decided to watch tennis instead!
WOW SO EXCITED HAHA
but yay good job cj tennis guys, won all their matches again yj (:
dinner at toa payoh with guan min fiona yangyang and hari
slackedddddddd at home on the computer omg
sat
ALL I DID WAS BLOODY USE THE COMPUTER.
even found new jap dramas to watch :/
what happened to doing my 3 math tutorials and gp essay huh sigh
physics tuition, i feel so lonely with you deniseleong :(
dinner at omu rice in taka with my mum cause ive been watching this jap drama about cooking and omu rice was featured in one of the episodes HEH
bought a new pull and bear top, feels good to shop after so long (:
sunday
chionged part of my gp essay in the morning
met qian to pass her some stuff
took 174 down with her but i dropped at dempsey to meet michelle lai
jones the grocer to met jessica tan while she's working there (:
WAH EVERYTHING SO EX LAHHHHHHHHHHHH.
but we bought a drink to support jessica tan HAHA
lunch at ben and jerry house's ranch home
yumyum salmon sandwich <3
and it wasnt like really expensive like all the other high end restaurants at dempseys
didnt go for tuition in the end cause turns by i called too late for make up lesson and the class was all full :/
wth all 52 seats were taken?!
went to town with michelle lai
shop eat shop eat shop eat
havent went out with michelle lai in so long, felt real good <3
it's already 9.30 and im halfway through my gp essay.
and obviously my 3 math tutorials are incomplete.
ARGH.
i suck omg.
but oh well, goodnight (:
supported guy's hockey match against jj
cj won 3-0 good jobbbbbbbbb
it was a really good match :D
island creamery and macs afterwards with yiting (:
forgot to bring my wallet so i lived off borrowed coins for my bus rides, it was horrible having to dig out all my loose coins everytime i get on the bus and explain to the uncles why i didnt bring my card over and over again.
friday
i hate cramps to the coreeeeeeeeeeee
was supposed to go down to the ac aj hockey match at delta but i was reluctant cause i rather go watch soccer :x
but then we decided to watch tennis instead!
WOW SO EXCITED HAHA
but yay good job cj tennis guys, won all their matches again yj (:
dinner at toa payoh with guan min fiona yangyang and hari
slackedddddddd at home on the computer omg
sat
ALL I DID WAS BLOODY USE THE COMPUTER.
even found new jap dramas to watch :/
what happened to doing my 3 math tutorials and gp essay huh sigh
physics tuition, i feel so lonely with you deniseleong :(
dinner at omu rice in taka with my mum cause ive been watching this jap drama about cooking and omu rice was featured in one of the episodes HEH
bought a new pull and bear top, feels good to shop after so long (:
sunday
chionged part of my gp essay in the morning
met qian to pass her some stuff
took 174 down with her but i dropped at dempsey to meet michelle lai
jones the grocer to met jessica tan while she's working there (:
WAH EVERYTHING SO EX LAHHHHHHHHHHHH.
but we bought a drink to support jessica tan HAHA
lunch at ben and jerry house's ranch home
yumyum salmon sandwich <3
and it wasnt like really expensive like all the other high end restaurants at dempseys
didnt go for tuition in the end cause turns by i called too late for make up lesson and the class was all full :/
wth all 52 seats were taken?!
went to town with michelle lai
shop eat shop eat shop eat
havent went out with michelle lai in so long, felt real good <3
it's already 9.30 and im halfway through my gp essay.
and obviously my 3 math tutorials are incomplete.
ARGH.
i suck omg.
but oh well, goodnight (:
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
monday
one of the most disappointing defeats ever.
we had yet to settled during the first few mins of the game and boom aj scored 2 very good goals, 1 from a weird angle at the side D and another from a short corner.
but we fought very hard after that, dominating them for the rest of the game.
it was seriously one of the best games we ever played but we just failed to finish off the manyyyyyyyy chances we got.
went to island creamery and macs after the game with hockey people
then went down to cityhall with yiting, you're awesome dear (:
i was supposed to meet fiona but she was late so we roamed around raffles city and i sent yiting off.
met fiona and went to preena's birthday dinner at new york new york :D:D
yumyum and the dinner was just hilarious :D
left at like 10, reaching home late and tired and gross from the match so i just bathed and slept (:
tueday
didnt do my essay at all during double gp cause i was so damn tired so i need to do it sometime at home by thurs :/
i doubt ill have the time and the will to do it
training
met my mum for dinner
reached home late againnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
no homework done once again.
wednesday
worst match ever.
played rj and lost 3-0
we were playing so well during the first like 15 mins but somehow we all lost it.
everyone was playing so damn badly and we were all freaking tired.
i think its the sun training, mon match, tues training, wed match schedule we have.
the first 2 goals were so wtffffffffff, come on cj what happened.
we were just owned i think.
we were way more unfit than rj i think and especially after the first 2 stupid goals, we totally lost all our energy and will and the sun also started to come out.
i felt like the forward i was marking was making me run in circles and god knows what i was doing, and i was hell tired while doing it.
and i was too tired to hold on to the ball and bring it up, all i did was clear clear clear, im so sorry.
i left the game with bruises and cuts all for nothing, come on cj this is not the way to play hockey.
i dont know what happened to us this game, but we were allllllll off form and playing like shit.
we need to do something about it, everyone take a good long rest till our next game on tues.
we must win jj come on cj!
went with yiting to serene macs.
oh gosh it was raining like %*^%&%$&%#%
so we were bloody drenched.
and the rainwater kept agitating the cut on my finger and it stung like shitttttt, so damn painful.
went to qian's house after that cause i didnt feel like going home, thanks so much dear you're the best :D
she lent me her sa pe shirt AGAIN, gave me medicine to put on my bruises and gave me food.
and i stupidlyyyyyyyy left my jersey and skirt at her place so now she has to wash them for me before passing them back to me on sunday.
IM SO SORRY I OWE YOU SO MUCH QIAN I LOVE YOU <3
but it was a hilarious time with qian, as usual.
next time come to my place and freeload off me! :D
anyway im not going to let this match get to me, although i was freaking pissed after that.
monday i was sad, tuesday i was disappointed yet somewhat proud but today i was just purely angry.
please cj lets get back our form and play our best against jj
tmr ive got the 2.4 challenge in the morning at 7?!
i dont care shijing and i are just going to jog, forget trying for 12 mins im in no physical condition for that.
and econs test wthhhhhhhhh.
i dont care im just going to go in without any knowledge about inflation, unemployment and economic growth and bullshit out what hopefully will be a s and above? :/
come on cj we need to prove ourselves, no more losing.
lets get our goal of winning one game!
one of the most disappointing defeats ever.
we had yet to settled during the first few mins of the game and boom aj scored 2 very good goals, 1 from a weird angle at the side D and another from a short corner.
but we fought very hard after that, dominating them for the rest of the game.
it was seriously one of the best games we ever played but we just failed to finish off the manyyyyyyyy chances we got.
went to island creamery and macs after the game with hockey people
then went down to cityhall with yiting, you're awesome dear (:
i was supposed to meet fiona but she was late so we roamed around raffles city and i sent yiting off.
met fiona and went to preena's birthday dinner at new york new york :D:D
yumyum and the dinner was just hilarious :D
left at like 10, reaching home late and tired and gross from the match so i just bathed and slept (:
tueday
didnt do my essay at all during double gp cause i was so damn tired so i need to do it sometime at home by thurs :/
i doubt ill have the time and the will to do it
training
met my mum for dinner
reached home late againnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
no homework done once again.
wednesday
worst match ever.
played rj and lost 3-0
we were playing so well during the first like 15 mins but somehow we all lost it.
everyone was playing so damn badly and we were all freaking tired.
i think its the sun training, mon match, tues training, wed match schedule we have.
the first 2 goals were so wtffffffffff, come on cj what happened.
we were just owned i think.
we were way more unfit than rj i think and especially after the first 2 stupid goals, we totally lost all our energy and will and the sun also started to come out.
i felt like the forward i was marking was making me run in circles and god knows what i was doing, and i was hell tired while doing it.
and i was too tired to hold on to the ball and bring it up, all i did was clear clear clear, im so sorry.
i left the game with bruises and cuts all for nothing, come on cj this is not the way to play hockey.
i dont know what happened to us this game, but we were allllllll off form and playing like shit.
we need to do something about it, everyone take a good long rest till our next game on tues.
we must win jj come on cj!
went with yiting to serene macs.
oh gosh it was raining like %*^%&%$&%#%
so we were bloody drenched.
and the rainwater kept agitating the cut on my finger and it stung like shitttttt, so damn painful.
went to qian's house after that cause i didnt feel like going home, thanks so much dear you're the best :D
she lent me her sa pe shirt AGAIN, gave me medicine to put on my bruises and gave me food.
and i stupidlyyyyyyyy left my jersey and skirt at her place so now she has to wash them for me before passing them back to me on sunday.
IM SO SORRY I OWE YOU SO MUCH QIAN I LOVE YOU <3
but it was a hilarious time with qian, as usual.
next time come to my place and freeload off me! :D
anyway im not going to let this match get to me, although i was freaking pissed after that.
monday i was sad, tuesday i was disappointed yet somewhat proud but today i was just purely angry.
please cj lets get back our form and play our best against jj
tmr ive got the 2.4 challenge in the morning at 7?!
i dont care shijing and i are just going to jog, forget trying for 12 mins im in no physical condition for that.
and econs test wthhhhhhhhh.
i dont care im just going to go in without any knowledge about inflation, unemployment and economic growth and bullshit out what hopefully will be a s and above? :/
come on cj we need to prove ourselves, no more losing.
lets get our goal of winning one game!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Gosh. I didn't realise how much I miss sc till I went back today. I love how the architect is soo much better than sa. I love the million gardens, the tiled floors, the toilets, the staircases and the feeling of home when I'm there. It's like this irreplacable feeling of warmth and familiarity that I know I'll never feel for sa.
yea i miss sc too <3
seriously school SUCKS.
if not for the people, i would be dead by now.
deniseleong and i were saying yesterday how the concept of school seriously sucks and its so sian to go to school and face all the work.
and i dont even have time to study for mid years(which are in 3 weeks omg) right now with like season and other adiv matches to go support.
i miss sc so much.
the gardens and trees everywhere
huge canteen
cheap packet drinks
malay stall
the beautiful buildings and tiled floors
khoo audi with the comfy armchairs
amphi with the cute steps which make catching extra exciting
open galleries
huge toilets with long mirrors
school's open concept, it was always so windy and comfortable
and so much more.
i just love everything about sc
the people, the environment, the food(i ate 10 years of it but i never got sick of it)
<3
stupid gp presentation and 3 complex number tutorials.
im definitely not doing the tutorials argh :(
yea i miss sc too <3
seriously school SUCKS.
if not for the people, i would be dead by now.
deniseleong and i were saying yesterday how the concept of school seriously sucks and its so sian to go to school and face all the work.
and i dont even have time to study for mid years(which are in 3 weeks omg) right now with like season and other adiv matches to go support.
i miss sc so much.
the gardens and trees everywhere
huge canteen
cheap packet drinks
malay stall
the beautiful buildings and tiled floors
khoo audi with the comfy armchairs
amphi with the cute steps which make catching extra exciting
open galleries
huge toilets with long mirrors
school's open concept, it was always so windy and comfortable
and so much more.
i just love everything about sc
the people, the environment, the food(i ate 10 years of it but i never got sick of it)
<3
stupid gp presentation and 3 complex number tutorials.
im definitely not doing the tutorials argh :(
hello!
thursday
cj vj soccer match.
wow it was actually damn exciting.
but we lost 1-0, quite a waste actually cause they played very well (:
at least my eyes feasted HEH
met deniseleong at vj!
it was such a surprise lah cause she smsed me that she wont be there then this woman suddenly came up to me and ahem-ed.
she sat with us and it was funny when she would scream when vj almost scored and ill be screaming no no no and vice versa HUR.
dinner with fiona guan min yangyang shijing and sai chuen at some hawker centre.
good food <3
explored the heartland shops and we found all these old school cheap toys/food
bought damn alot HAHAHA
toy sword, basketball hoop for our class, 2 water guns to play with in class, tidbits, masks etc
left at around 9 and sai chuen managed to find a fast way to get to bukit timah so we reached home within an hour :D
friday
watched the girls tennis game outside class HAHA
detention with lucille and friends and first then joined yangyang and guan min (:
i cant do complex numbers tutorial at all OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD.
watched the handball finals, good job 27 and 24! :D
went to qian's house at 7 plus.
HAHAHA THANKS FOR THE FREE FOOD LOVE YOUUUUUUU.
she gave me cup noodles and i practically ate half of the economy rice that she dabaoed home HAHA
she just kept gawking at her korean idol and barely ate HAHAHA.
watched dvds and vidoes today and it was just retarded AS USUAL.
saturday
sc carnival <3<3<3<3
i love sc so much and it felt reallyyyyyyy good being back in the place i spent 10 years in.
its the most beautiful school ever, the very best (:
met people like clifton deborah khoo and kimberly etc :D
spent like 4 hours there but it felt so good and so comfortable :D
the carnival was full of people too, very lively.
spent my time with michelle lai lois jodie qian and charing (:
physics tuition with deniseleong.
ill miss youuuuuuuuuuuuu.
no more dinner till the late nights, shopping thoroughly through every in far east, sunday afternoons, heart to hearts, hilarious jokes, helping me press the calculator for the workings HAHA.
god knows when ill see you again deniseleong, love you take care :D
went to chompchomp for class dinner
YUMYUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
i was so full but it was one of the most delicious dinner/supper ive ever had :D
but it was a longggggggggg train ride home, im tireddddddd.
training tmr, i shall sleep now!
nighty night :D
reply to tags,
opy: it was great seeing you at delta the other day! you arent THAT black lah, i think im blacker than you now HAHA. take care yo chao ta twin, hope to see you soon :D
michelle lai: aww thanks i appreciate it :D:D
qian: HAHAH thanks aww its so cute to see you and michelle lai giving me such sweet messages, FEELS SO UNUSUAL HAHA. thanks yo :D
camille: yes captain! i wont let it affect me no more, beat aj! :D
shijing: HAHAHA wow thanks ah you really tagged to show yourself! YES WE MUSTTTTTTTTTTT TRY TO WIN BASKETBALL. train after pe on tues or whenever! :D
thursday
cj vj soccer match.
wow it was actually damn exciting.
but we lost 1-0, quite a waste actually cause they played very well (:
at least my eyes feasted HEH
met deniseleong at vj!
it was such a surprise lah cause she smsed me that she wont be there then this woman suddenly came up to me and ahem-ed.
she sat with us and it was funny when she would scream when vj almost scored and ill be screaming no no no and vice versa HUR.
dinner with fiona guan min yangyang shijing and sai chuen at some hawker centre.
good food <3
explored the heartland shops and we found all these old school cheap toys/food
bought damn alot HAHAHA
toy sword, basketball hoop for our class, 2 water guns to play with in class, tidbits, masks etc
left at around 9 and sai chuen managed to find a fast way to get to bukit timah so we reached home within an hour :D
friday
watched the girls tennis game outside class HAHA
detention with lucille and friends and first then joined yangyang and guan min (:
i cant do complex numbers tutorial at all OH MY GODDDDDDDDDD.
watched the handball finals, good job 27 and 24! :D
went to qian's house at 7 plus.
HAHAHA THANKS FOR THE FREE FOOD LOVE YOUUUUUUU.
she gave me cup noodles and i practically ate half of the economy rice that she dabaoed home HAHA
she just kept gawking at her korean idol and barely ate HAHAHA.
watched dvds and vidoes today and it was just retarded AS USUAL.
saturday
sc carnival <3<3<3<3
i love sc so much and it felt reallyyyyyyy good being back in the place i spent 10 years in.
its the most beautiful school ever, the very best (:
met people like clifton deborah khoo and kimberly etc :D
spent like 4 hours there but it felt so good and so comfortable :D
the carnival was full of people too, very lively.
spent my time with michelle lai lois jodie qian and charing (:
physics tuition with deniseleong.
ill miss youuuuuuuuuuuuu.
no more dinner till the late nights, shopping thoroughly through every in far east, sunday afternoons, heart to hearts, hilarious jokes, helping me press the calculator for the workings HAHA.
god knows when ill see you again deniseleong, love you take care :D
went to chompchomp for class dinner
YUMYUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
i was so full but it was one of the most delicious dinner/supper ive ever had :D
but it was a longggggggggg train ride home, im tireddddddd.
training tmr, i shall sleep now!
nighty night :D
reply to tags,
opy: it was great seeing you at delta the other day! you arent THAT black lah, i think im blacker than you now HAHA. take care yo chao ta twin, hope to see you soon :D
michelle lai: aww thanks i appreciate it :D:D
qian: HAHAH thanks aww its so cute to see you and michelle lai giving me such sweet messages, FEELS SO UNUSUAL HAHA. thanks yo :D
camille: yes captain! i wont let it affect me no more, beat aj! :D
shijing: HAHAHA wow thanks ah you really tagged to show yourself! YES WE MUSTTTTTTTTTTT TRY TO WIN BASKETBALL. train after pe on tues or whenever! :D
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
well besides all the emo shit that ive been through the past few days, they have
been quite eventful (:
saturday
city hall with amadea rebecca and yiting :D
raffles city, flea market near home club, bak kut teh, central, boat quay, turkish ice cream, tcc, toilet mirrors etc
great company and a great night out (:
sunday
training at pa
hot hot hot sun.
good for evening out my tan lines (:
came home to bathe and change then math tuition
shopped for michelle lai's birthday present with lois at paragon
thomson miss clarity cafe dinner with michelle lai, shun yee, jodie and lois :D
yumyumyummmmmmmm
met weilin!
lois's house with her adorable big dog and michelle lai's birthday cake :D
monday
training and everyone made the effort to train later than usually, into the night (:
swensons dinner with my mum
reached home too tired to do any work so i totally knocked out after bathing (:
tuesday
hockey match against acjc
lost 3-0
a TOTAL waste.
the first two goals were so wtf and the third goal was like fuck you wanyin you're so dumb.
argh.
but anyway aj won rj 1-0 and we drew aj 0-0 so we're really hoping that this is a chance for us to prove ourselves.
we need to play well against aj, rj and jj and hopefully we'll achieve the results we're hoping for (:
cj hockey <3
dinner at tiong bahru with evadne, camille, yuling, sam lee and yiting (:
reached home late AGAIN and was so tired AGAIN
so once again i slept without doing work sigh
wednesday
guys' match against ib.
really great game, they played really well and they fought so hard but a stupid last min short corner at LITERALLY THE LAST BLOODY MIN gave ib their 1-0 win.
we had a really high chance of drawing them.
rushed down for fiona's gym competition with yiting who had to do to sji for sports carnival heats.
yiting and i ran outside along nie.
hopped onto the bus.
ran along the main road at some ulu part of boon lay.
cabbed down to our respective places- sji and ccab
i ran as fast as i could through ccab to the hall and wth fiona already finished her routine.
arghhhhhhhh.
it was such a disgusting feeling.
my 7 bucks and my running :(
no more sad faces in school damn it.
no more no more no more.
cannot let things affect me so easily omggggggggggg.
cannot cannot cannot.
goodnight and tmr ill see you all with a happy face (:
been quite eventful (:
saturday
city hall with amadea rebecca and yiting :D
raffles city, flea market near home club, bak kut teh, central, boat quay, turkish ice cream, tcc, toilet mirrors etc
great company and a great night out (:
sunday
training at pa
hot hot hot sun.
good for evening out my tan lines (:
came home to bathe and change then math tuition
shopped for michelle lai's birthday present with lois at paragon
thomson miss clarity cafe dinner with michelle lai, shun yee, jodie and lois :D
yumyumyummmmmmmm
met weilin!
lois's house with her adorable big dog and michelle lai's birthday cake :D
monday
training and everyone made the effort to train later than usually, into the night (:
swensons dinner with my mum
reached home too tired to do any work so i totally knocked out after bathing (:
tuesday
hockey match against acjc
lost 3-0
a TOTAL waste.
the first two goals were so wtf and the third goal was like fuck you wanyin you're so dumb.
argh.
but anyway aj won rj 1-0 and we drew aj 0-0 so we're really hoping that this is a chance for us to prove ourselves.
we need to play well against aj, rj and jj and hopefully we'll achieve the results we're hoping for (:
cj hockey <3
dinner at tiong bahru with evadne, camille, yuling, sam lee and yiting (:
reached home late AGAIN and was so tired AGAIN
so once again i slept without doing work sigh
wednesday
guys' match against ib.
really great game, they played really well and they fought so hard but a stupid last min short corner at LITERALLY THE LAST BLOODY MIN gave ib their 1-0 win.
we had a really high chance of drawing them.
rushed down for fiona's gym competition with yiting who had to do to sji for sports carnival heats.
yiting and i ran outside along nie.
hopped onto the bus.
ran along the main road at some ulu part of boon lay.
cabbed down to our respective places- sji and ccab
i ran as fast as i could through ccab to the hall and wth fiona already finished her routine.
arghhhhhhhh.
it was such a disgusting feeling.
my 7 bucks and my running :(
no more sad faces in school damn it.
no more no more no more.
cannot let things affect me so easily omggggggggggg.
cannot cannot cannot.
goodnight and tmr ill see you all with a happy face (:
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Saturday, April 12, 2008
muse's stockholm syndrom at the wembley gig
OHMYFREAKINGGOD I LOVE YOU MUSE, ILL MARRY YOU MATT
its such a %&%$$^#$^# awesome version of stockholm syndrome
and this is still my all time favourite muse song <3
be prepared for bright lights(and i mean freaking bright lights, not those stupid coloured spotlights), loud music, flying cameras, awesome guitar playing, 100k people enjoying the the music and a crazy matt